ᴄʜᴏɪᴄᴇ: ʟᴏᴠᴇ & ʟᴏʏᴀʟᴛʏ

Loyalty? : 2023 (1)

<2023>

Sometimes I asked myself, for how long?

I found myself doing it again, I keep holding onto you blindly again.

I wanted to move on but the familiar warmth, protection, love, comfort, caring, kindness... it makes me come around you all over again.

It keeps me seeking it from you.

It's like you're the perfect one for me.

So tell me, how can I leave and move on from you?

*Y/n's apartment

Jennie

A week passed by just like that as I was staying at Y/n's. She did take good care of me. Everything is almost perfect whenever I'm with her. Other than that, it's just me, the problem here. I'm scared to go outside of her apartment honestly. Y/n's apartment had become my comfort zone.

It just feels like he's everywhere. So it made me paranoid and scared to death. What if he suddenly grabbed me from behind and kill—- ugh you guys get my point right?

Even though, I know that I have to go to work. But then, unfortunately, my ankle hurts. I don't know why and how that happened, so Y/n persuaded me to take me to the hospital which I declined at first. I don't want to go outside like seriously.

"So? How about your ankle? Do you want me to just look at you in pain? We need to get it checked, Kim. It's almost a week now when you said it hurts as hell whenever you walk, isn't it? How can you just endure it? That's crazy." Y/n said softly after she took off her jacket and threw it onto the single couch.

Y/n just came home from her emergency meeting which annoyed her so much so she's a bit grumpy right now. She then sat beside me while crossing her arms over her chest, leaned her back onto the couch, and furrowed her eyebrows softly. "Answer me, Jen." I have to think of a reason for me not going out from here. At least, not when I'm not ready yet.

I'm still scared. I'm biting my thumbnail nervously. "I know. Oh! Can Irene unni just come here and check it for me?"

"No." "Why so?" "She's busy." I'm pouting then burying my face onto Y/n's couch pillow that I hugged before. I let out my groaning softly.

I heard Y/n sigh. "Tomorrow. We'll go tomorrow. Don't complain about it anymore, don't say no." I put down the pillow onto my lap and then looked at Y/n giving her my puppy's eyes. She just gave me her blank looks before standing up, "What do you want to eat?" she walked away from me to get into her kitchen.

Since her kitchen can see through to the living room, she's standing there while looking at me and leaning on the island counter with her elbows. "Jennie, what are you doing?" she's frowning when she sees how I'm trying to dance.

"Dancing?" "I can see that. But why?" "To let you know that my ankle is ok—- ouch!" Y/n then ran towards me quickly when I fell onto the floor. She inspected my ankle by touching it carefully. "Ahhh—- it hurts." I grabbed Y/n's wrist to stop her from touching my ankle more, only looking up at her and finding how mad she was. "Now you just make it worse, Jennie Kim." but despite seeing she's mad at me and worried about me.