Electing The Alpha

Chapter 58:

"Good morning Winters!" I say cheerfully buckling my seatbelt to which he chuckled slightly and responded.

"So where in the world are we going to?" I ask him curiously
"On our honeymoon" he taunts and my eyes grow wide as he chuckled at my reaction.
"Seriously? We are not even married yet! Not to talk of engaged!" I say and playfully swat his arm.
"Chill Nikki! Its just a cheeky answer I gave you" he says and pulls out of the driveway into the road.

"So much for being cheeky!" I scoff.
"So how did the date go?" Jake asks and I swallow hard. I saw it coming. I knew he would ask.
"It was absolutely lovely! We went to one of the fanciest restaurants and we joked and laughed having a good time together" I summarize trying to see if I could trace jealousy on Jake's face. His face is undecipherable and I sigh defeated.

"Did you tell him the truth about your feelings?" Jake asks, his voice demanding.
"I erh...."I trail off trying to get something to say.
" I guess I will take that as a no!"Jake says exasperatedly.

"Its not easy telling it to his face Jake!" I quickly say defensively.
"Not easy? Well was it easy for me telling Kate to the face?" Jake retaliates with the vein on his neck standing out
"I know it wasn't but my case is different from yours" I interject
"What makes it different?" Jake yells and glares at me before looking back onto the road.
"You and Kate just became friends recently! I even doubt you know her smallest details like her shoe size" I say ending with a chuckle to which he also chuckles

"Shoe size? Seriously?" He says between laughs.
"It may sound funny but Aaron knows mine and I know his. We have been friends for a long time and he has always been there for me. Its difficult." I finally end with a frustrated sigh with thoughts of Helen pondering in my mind.

"You are just going to hurt him in the end Nicole! You should have fucking told him!" Jake cusses.
"Would you stop cussing at me! At least I don't have a picture of Aaron under my damn pillow!" I spit venomously and I see Jake's cheeks redden.
"Besides, Aaron understands I don't have feelings for him but he is still ready to fight for my love" I add up and I see Jake's face soften.

"What did you mean?" He asks tenderly
"What?"
"The picture! Did you see the picture of Helen under my pillow?" He asks more softly and it breaks my heart. Whenever it comes to her, he is so gentle and human. He will still love her.

"Yes I did! Its not like I was going through your stuff but I saw a part of it and just took a look" I answer but he doesn't look at me. He stares straight ahead looking on the road as he drives.

"You still love her right? Jake please don't play with my feelings okay? If you still love her just let me be with Aaron! At least, he is transparent and he loves me"

Jake tenses beside me and I hear his jaw tick. He stops the car parking at a small parking space and then looks at me. His grey eyes have this undecipherable look in them. Was he hurt? Sad? Angry?

"Do you prefer him?" Jake asks taking his gaze off me but I could feel hurt in his voice.
"Who?" I ask confused.
"Aaron" he deadpans and my breath hitches.

"I'll take your silence as a yes! He has been your childhood friend right? You don't wanna lose him. So sweet" Jake deadpans looking at the sky. I follow his gaze and its already cloudy about to rain. Typical of October.

"Jake its not that but---" he cuts me off mid sentence
"But what Nikki?" He yells raucously at me.
"You always manage to hurt me!" He adds and I furrow my eyebrows in confusion
"Excuse me? You were the one who hurt me first when I saw that damn picture of that.....that...girl" I spit frustratedly.

"Don't use that tone on her! You don't know her!" Jake threatens and I flinch in surprise but I chuckle

"You will continue to love her Jake! Just say it" I demand
"So you doubted all that I said to you about my feelings right? Well yeah! I love Helen! I'm still madly in love with her and I can't stop thinking about her" Jake blurts and my eyes flood with tears.