Chasing my worth from the Star (Completed)

Chapter 25

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Rigel's POV

"Bro, yung crush mo oh!" Don said while we're planning for tomorrow.

I looked at the girl walking in the hallway. She's really gorgeous that every guy could look at her.

"You're staring at her, bro" he said and tapped my shoulder. I smiled.

I started the engine and was about to leave the parking lot when suddenly I bumped into someone's car.

Bumaba ako at tinignan ang likod ng aking sasakyan kung saan ito nabungo.

I saw a girl looking at her car with scratches. I think it's my fault.

Kinuha ko ang check sa aking bag dahil wala akong dalang pera. I gave it to her and turn my back saka pumasok sa kotse ko.

It was her, the girl walking in the hallway.

She's like an angel in my eyes. A little bit familiar.

I saw her muttering words outside in my car pero hindi ko siya marinig.

I'm tracing her gestures and moves while she's saying something. A slow motion happened, my heart beat fast.

What's the meaning of this? I don't know what I felt that time, that's why I drove away and left her there.

The next day I saw her with Tanya in the Mall. White shoes were my sister's favorite and I don't know that she likes them either.

The next thing I knew was the two guards caught me and El was accusing me for stealing the shoes.

She's cute.

Don texted me that El was there at BGC that's why I drove fast and saw her walking towards the restroom, wasted.

She's hot.

I drove her to my condo because I don't know where she lived. I think Don was true. I like her. I can't admit it noon dahil hindi ko pa siya kilala and she was not my type but she's attractive in my eyes.

I saw El running while wiping her tears. He didn't see me. That's why she bumped in my chest.

It's like a knife digging in me while seeing her crying for what Tanya happened.

The night we made it, it's of lust and love. I don't care if she doesn't love me back as long as she's safe and resting in my arms.

I did my best to catch off guard that bastard and give El's bestfriend justice.

I almost half dead because I thought that bastard doesn't have another companion that's why I got stabbed.

Nakita ko sa mga mata ni ang pag alala. Her tears kept on falling from her eyes, her beautiful mesmerizing eyes. Her eyes look like her, a star, my star.

I remembered my childhood days. It was her, the little girl who gave her handkerchief, my first love.

I never thought that it was her at first but when I saw her eyes closely I knew it was her. I kept on looking for her for almost a year and now she's with me.

I courted her for two days. I didn't hear her 'yes' because it happened. She misunderstood something between me and Katana.

I know she was hurt that time, that's why I talked outside a building ng condo niya.

When I heard that she left the Philippines, I was all hurt. Every night I drank and drank to forget her but it seems first love never dies.

For the third time, I lost my precious, my Auriga star.

The first time I lost her ay sa park. Second, when she left the Philippines. And now, she rests in peace.

I lost her now. She will never come back again like the first and second time I lost her.

It was all my fault. Kung hindi nalang sana ako pumasok sa buhay niya nandito pa sana siya.

Ito na ang huli kong kita sa malaanghel niyang mukha, in her burial. Many people attended the her mass burial. Some people are crying, sobbing.

Why did our love story end up like this?

I'm not a fan of tragic stories but at this time? I am.

I'm sitting near her coffin and beside me was Tanya, still crying. We are now in the cemetery, the priest gave a blessing to her bago ilibing.

Isa isa kaming lumapit sa coffin ni Capella, my star. Una ang pamilya niya pati na si Raffy.

At first, I thought Raffy was her son but when I searched it, it was not.

How I imagine things like having a kid with El but it will never happen now.

I still can't accept the fact that she is gone, she's dead.

Ilang araw na ang dumaan simula ng ilibing si Capella. I'm always here in her grave waiting for her to come back.

Call me crazy but that's what my heart wants. I miss her so much.

I miss her voice, eyes, nose, lips everything about her. I can't love another woman because no one can replace her.

I know it sounds gay but I just miss her, her love.

Gusto ko lang naman na makasama siya masama ba yun? masama ba na sundin ko ang puso ko.

"Kuya!" I heard Raffy's voice calling me.

Umupo sa aking kandungan at tumingin sa picture ni El sa tabi ng lapida niya.

'Capella Mariano Becker
Born: February 15, 1995
Died: June 5, 2020
'My star'

"Kuya, are you crying?" Raffy asked me. He's too innocent to absurd this.

"I'm not crying" I answered at pinunasan ang mata.

"Ate Tanya!" tinawag ni Raffy si Tanya na nakatayo sa gilid ng kotse niya. Lumapit si Tanya samin at umupo sa gilid ko.

"We should be happy now because she's at peace" Tanya said while looking at the sky.

"Yeah" I answered. Tumingin ako sa grave ni El at hinaplos ang pangalan niya ng nakaukit doon.

"I love you, my brightest star"

My star. Hard to catch but easy to fall. And I fall.