Only With You

Girl's night

        We have been watching Pretty Little Liars for the last two hours and apparently April was starting to get bored cause it was the eighth time she shifted on my side in the last 5 minutes. I had an arm wrapped around her shoulder and she had her head rested on my shoulder, with an arm around my waist. I always loved to cuddle with her. She was the only person I would cuddle with, and I knew she didn’t let anyone else but me cuddle with her, not even her dumb boyfriend Zac. I’m glad she still wanted to cuddle with me even after knowing I’m a lesbian.

        When she moved around one more time I looked at her and asked, “Are you bored pup? Why are you moving so much?”

        She gave me a little smile and said, “No, I’m not bored.”

        I shrugged slightly and got back to watch the tv, but not even ten seconds later April shifted again and I could see from the corner of my eye she was looking at me with an strange look on her face.

        “What is it, pup? You need to go to the bathroom?” I looked down at her and made a disgusted face, playfully. “Please don’t fart in my bed, that’s not the kind of smell I want to have from you on my sheets.”

        April lifted up her head from my shoulder and slapped the place where she was resting her head just a few seconds ago. “Izzy! You are gross!” She shook her head while smiling and sit up on the bed, making me sit up too and laugh at her reaction. “And no, I don’t want to go to the bathroom. I guess I just want to talk.”

        I had to smile at her way to tell me she wanted to ask me more questions. Of course we would, she never get to ask as many questions as she wants. I guess it’s the journalist in her, that’s why she is in the school newspaper. Plus she didn’t really ask all those questions she told me she would today at the library. Guess she didn’t want to make me cry again knowing how sensitive I was in that moment.

        “Sure pup, what do you want to talk about?” I glanced at her and her and back at the tv.

        “Well, I would like to, you know… know more about the whole thing of you being a lesbian.”

        I let out a little sigh and rested my head back on the headboard of my bed. “What about it? It’s pretty simple, I like girls, there’s nothing much to talk about.”
 
        It’s not that I didn’t want to talk to her about it, I just wasn’t used to the idea of talking about it with someone. Sure, I talked to Eli and Abby about it, but they were different. Eli was gay, so he understands me better. And Abby… Well, Abby forced me to tell her everything about it when she caught me making out with some chick called Trish in the janitor’s closet. I will never know why Abby was looking for something in there.

        I could feel April’s eyes on me. “You don’t want to talk about it with me.”

        Oh God, I don’t want her to think that. I turned my head to her and said, “No pup, it’s not that. I guess I just not used to it... But we can talk about it.” I turned my head back to look at the tv, not really paying attention to it. “Just ask already.”

        She chuckled and asked the exact question I was expecting her to ask, “How long have you been knowing about it?”

        I didn’t have to think more than a second before I replied to her, “Since 7th grade.”

        “But we know each other since 6th grade Izzy. Why didn’t you tell me before?”
        
        I smiled slightly cause know my response seemed stupid. “Cause I thought you would hate me or be disgusted by me.”

        She gave me a sympathetic smile. “Oh Izzy, I could never hate my best friend.”

        “Well, I wasn’t sure about that until this afternoon. Now it seems stupid to even think about it.” I laughed slightly at the last part and she did too.

        She giggled while saying, “Yeah, you are pretty stupid.”

        I gasped, pretending to be offended. “Take that back April.”

        She shook her head, still giggling. “Nope.”

        “Okay, but remember you asked for it.” She frowned for a few seconds until she understood what I was talking about, but it was too late. I was already straddling her thighs and tickling her sides. She squealed and moved around trying to get under me but I wouldn’t move. She was laughing out loud and trying to catch my hands while her eyes were closed and her hair spread out on the pillow.

        “I-Izzy s-stop-p p-please!” She almost screamed and tried harder to catch my hands.

        I made an evil laugh and continued to tickle her ribs. It was the most ticklish spot she had on her body and I learned that after thousands of tickle wars. “Nope, you called me stupid, so you should say you are sorry.”

        Almost immediately she screamed while laughing, “I-I’m soo s-sorry I-Izzy!” I stopped to tickle her and she quickly grabbed my hands to prevent me from tickling her again.

        “Sorry pup, but you shouldn’t have called me stupid.” I was still straddling her and my hands were in her sides, were she was holding them tight. April’s hair was a mess, she was breathing hard and had the biggest smile ever on her face. I couldn’t stop looking at her, I didn’t even dare to break eye contact. She looked so beautiful in that moment, with her eyes sparkling in the night.

        Her phone went off from under the pillow she was laying her head so I had to quickly get off her and lay on my side. What the fuck was that?

        April quickly answered the call with that big smile still on her face. “Oh, hi baby! I missed you too.”

        And just like that, my smile was off of my face. Why did Zachary have to call her now? Stupid football player. I looked back at the tv and the chapter we were watching was over and a new one started. I closed my eyes, counted to ten to calm down and glanced again at April who was looking at me while talking on the phone with Zac.

        Why was I getting so worked up over the fact he called her? It’s not like he didn’t do that every day, even when I was there. It was the first time I would get like this over a stupid phone call. Maybe it was cause he ruined the moment, my conscious talked to me. What moment? There wasn’t a moment, it was just me tickling my BEST FRIEND. Discussing with myself in my head wasn’t making me feel any better and I wanted to stop thinking about it. I groaned, trying to take those thoughts away and I could see from the corner of my eye April frowning at me, probably asking herself why I was acting like that.

        There was a knock on my bedroom door and I shot up from my bed, glad to have something to distract myself and I opened the door to find my twin, Dylan, on the other side of it. I was never so happy to see my brother.

        “Yes Dylan?”, I asked him quickly.

        He looked at me curiously, and I was sure he was asking himself what was wrong with me. “Hey sissy, I just wanted to tell you that I will need you to give me a ride to school tomorrow. My bike isn’t working so dad is going to work on it tomorrow.”

        I nodded. “Sure Dyl, be ready by 7:30 am.”

        He smiled and kissed my forehead quickly. Dylan was always taller than me, just like dad, so he could reach my forehead easily, not like April. “I will be on the porch by that hour, you won’t even have to wait for me this time.” He turned around and went back to his room.

        I laughed at his response. Dylan was never a punctual person and in the morning he would take longer to get ready than three girls together sometimes. I shook my head and closed the door, turning back to look at April, who was laying in bed but wasn’t talking any more with Zac.

        She gave me a little apologetic smile when I laid back next to her in the bed. “Sorry Izzy, I know this is a girl’s night. I won’t talk to Zac again tonight.”

        I took the tv remote while rolling my eyes slightly, without her noticing, and put a new episode from Pretty Little Liars.

        “Izzy?” I turned up the volume from the tv and she took the remote away from me, turning down the volume again.

        “I’m sorry Izzy, please don’t get mad over this,” she said while pouting.

        And just like that a smile was placed on my lips again. I couldn’t say no to that pout. “Okay, okay.. I forgive you, now stop pouting.”

        She laughed softly, knowing that she always knew how to make me forgive her. “Great, now let’s get back to my questions.”

        I turned my head to look at her and smiled slightly. “Sure, ask away pup.”

        “So, did you have any girlfriends before?”

        I replied quickly, “Nope.”

        She frowned. “Not even one? C’mon Izzy, you are beautiful, I’m sure you had at least one girlfriend.” Hearing her say that made me feel this weird warm feeling inside. What the hell is wrong with me today?

        I shook my head. “No pup, no one ever caught my attention long enough.”

        She rolled her eyes playfully and smiled. “Oh, my bad Casanova. So you never had a crush either?”

        I chuckled. “Of course I had a crush, I had a few crushes in the last five years.”

        April moved on the bed to lay on her side so she could get a better look at me. “Who was your last crush?”

        I groaned at the memory and mumbled, “Emma White.”

        April laughed. “Emma White? Really? Izzy she is the meanest girl in school.”

        I shrugged. “I liked her bad girl style I guess.” That made April laugh even more.

        “Oh God, now I want to know more about your other crushes so I can laugh.”

        I hit her arm and she smiled at me. She said in a little girl’s voice, “Pwease Izzy, tell me about your crushes.”

        Damn you April, why do you have to be so cute?. I sighed, pretending to be annoyed and started to tell April about all the crushes I had. All the seven crushes. And let me tell you, April ended up laughing a lot with every single story. But I was happy I was able to make her smile after how her parents made her cry today. After an hour of stories and a lot of laugh from April’s side, she finally stopped laughing enough to ask me, “So tell me Izzy, why didn’t you have a girlfriend if you had your chance?”

        I frowned at her. “I don’t know what you are talking about.”

        She scoffed playfully. “Oh please, you clearly had a few girls that were dying to be your girlfriends and you never even took them on a date.” She yawned at the end of the sentence.

        Now that she mentioned it, she was right, I really had a lot of chances, even when some of the girls I had a crush on were interested in me. But I never took the “relationship” further than a make out session. Why did I do that?. I kept thinking about it and I couldn’t find one single reason to it.

        I replied to April, “Huh, you are right, but I have no idea why I didn’t pup. It’s weird.. Why do you think I did it?" I turned my head to look at her expecting her to reply to me, but April was still laying on her side, with her eyes closed. Peacefully sleeping.

        I pulled the covers over us, turned off the tv and snuggled closer to her slowly, not wanting to wake her up. I nearly hit myself when April started to move and I thought she woke up, but she only snuggled closer to me, rested her head on my shoulder and wrapped an arm around my waist. I smiled, even when she sleeps wants to cuddle with me. How adorable.
 
        I stayed still for a few minutes until my eyes started to get heavy and I wrapped my arm around her waist like she was doing with me, pulling her closer to me as I drifted to sleep with my best friend cuddled on my side.