Only With You

Ditch

        After school I ran to the car and drove to the supermarket. I wanted to do something special for April today after the hard time she is having at her house and me avoiding her. I’m really lucky she didn’t realize I was doing it on purpose. I really wanted to have a good time with my best friend and forget about everything else. And of course I wanted to make her happy by giving her a surprise.
               
        I took a cart as soon as I stepped into the supermarket and went ahead with my search for junk food. I grabbed all April’s favorites and all the ingredients to prepare the Oreo cake she likes. We found the recipe years ago when we were looking how to cook a red velvet cake and now every single time we get the chance to bake it we do it. When I reached the cash register the cart was half full with lot of junk food. From ice cream to gummy bears, candies, jelly beans, lollipops, chocolates, Pringles, M&M’s, Oreos, and lots of other shit. We are going to go to bed with our tummies full of garbage but with a big smile on our faces. I was planning to take her mind off of things and make everything perfect for her, so I will get all her favorites, including her favorite movies so we can have a marathon.
               
        I was really looking forward to tonight after this last three days avoiding her. I just need to calm down and try to ignore my weird feelings so I don’t lose her. I can’t let myself lose my best friend because of my weird hormones. Plus I will be back to normal in like two days and all of this will be just a thing to laugh about with Eli.
               
        As soon as I got home I baked the cake and prepared everything in my room, including her favorite movies. I made sure everything was perfect twice. I was nervous about this, I wanted to make everything special for her to cheer her up like last time she spent the night here. I even made sure my room was spotless, with every single thing in the right place. I know April loves when everything is “organized” like she says all the time.
               
        After everything was ready I took a shower and waited in my bed while watching tv, but I was growing impatience. I looked at the clock to see it was 7:20pm. That was definitely weird. She said she would be here at seven. April never gets late somewhere, specially to my house, since we live 3 houses away. So I decided to send her a message to see if everything was okay.
               
        “Hey pup, I have everything ready for tonight :) are you coming?”
               
        I waited for a reply but the minutes seemed to pass every time even slower than the last one. I tried to watch tv, play video games, read, take pics, but nothing worked to calm me down. It seemed like I waited for an eternity and I was starting to get really worried. I glanced again at the clock and it said 7:50pm. Something must be really bad.
               
        I got up from the bed and started to put my shoes on, cause I was planning to go to her house, when my phone started ringing. I took it out of my pocket quickly and thank God it was April, so I quickly replied, not giving her time to speak, “Pup! I was worried sick. Where are you? Are you okay?”
               
        It was when April started to talk that I heard the loud noises from the place where she was talking. You could clearly hear the music and people talking. “Sorry Izzy, but I won’t be able to go.. Something else came up but I’m okay.”
               
        I frowned. What could possibly make her ditch her best friend? She never did something like that to me before. “What? Why? I have everything ready.. I can go to your house and talk to your parents if you want.”
               
        “Sorry, what was that?” April spoke. Or you could say she screamed by the level of her voice, but considering all the noise in the background, it wasn’t that much or a scream. You could understand why she couldn’t hear what I said with all that noise around her. Where the hell is she and why is that place so loud?.
               
        I replied to her, “Nothing, where are you?”
               
        April mumbled something through the phone and I asked her to repeat it twice before she finally said it loud enough for me to hear. “I’m in a party.”
               
        I seriously wasn’t expecting that.
               
        “A party? Stop kidding pup, it’s Thursday night and you said you would come to my house.”
               
        I could hear April excusing herself in the background and after a few seconds the noise got considerably lower so I supposed she went outside so we could talk. She said, “I know, but I’m not kidding Izzy. I’m in a party so I won’t be able to go tonight.. I’m sorry.”
               
        I couldn’t believe she was telling me that. She was ditching me to go to a party. I have been working for hours making everything perfect for her and she just decided to go to a stupid party.
               
        I said, dumbfounded, “Are you serious? It’s Thursday.. Since when do you go to a party, especially when we have school the next morning?”
               
        I could imagine April shaking her head while she replied to me, “I know it’s weird but I wanted to take my head off of things and Zac thought it wa-"
               
        I quickly cut her off before she could keep with her little explanation. I was really upset by now. Not only mad, but sad too. She decided to ditch me because her boyfriend told her to. What kind of friend does that? I thought she was looking forward to tonight like I was, but I guess I was wrong. Just thinking about it felt like a punch in the stomach. She was ditching me to go to a party with her stupid boyfriend.
               
         “That was what I was planning to do but apparently you choose go to a party with your boyfriend instead spending time with your best friend.”
               
        I could hear the regret in April’s voice but I honestly couldn’t care about it right now. “It’s not like that Izzy, let me explain... Zac wanted to take my head off of things too and we haven’t been going out lately so I told hi-"
                        
        I cut her off for the second time today. “So you told him it would be okay to ditch your best friend to go to a party? I wasn’t expecting something like this from you April.”
               
        She quickly replied, “No Izzy, I just wanted to have a nice time with him.”
               
        I could feel a knot in my throat, but I wouldn’t let myself cry. Especially not over this. “Then go have a nice time with your romantic boyfriend in that party while I have a nice time by myself enjoying all the things I had prepared for you.”
               
        I heard Zac’s voice calling her in the background and April saying something back to him but I couldn’t hear what because she covered the speaker. After a few seconds I heard April taking to me again with an apologetic voicem “Don’t be like this Izzy please... We still can hang out tomorrow.”
               
        I shook my head, even if she couldn’t see me, and lied to her, “No, you know what? I’m busy tomorrow and I will be busy all weekend long so it’s okay, you still have your boyfriend to hang out with,” I took a quick pause to clear my throat before I would start crying and I continued talking, “And just so you know, we haven’t been hanging out a lot lately neither so I thought you be excited to have a night for ourselves, but I was so wrong.”
               
        She sighed through the phone. “I’m sorry Izzy, you are right but I want things with Zac to work and he got mad with me when I told him I couldn’t go to the party with him because I was having a girl’s night with you.”
               
        “I couldn’t give a shit about it April, hope you have a good time, and remember we have a test tomorrow in English class.” I hung up the phone, not wanting to hear another one of her excuses.
               
        I took a deep breath and let it out slowly after a few seconds. The conversation with April left me really upset. It wasn’t like her to do that, but with everything that has been going on lately in my head, all I really wanted tonight was to spend some time with her. And the fact that she chose to go with her boyfriend to a party because he got mad was just a pathetic excuse. I knew she wasn’t one of those girls that goes after her boyfriend like that.
               
        I felt my phone vibrating in my hand and I knew it was her calling me so I tossed it on the couch I have in my room and I laid on my bed, looking at the ceiling. The conversation with April kept playing in my mind, but what I couldn’t understand was why I got so upset so quickly. I mean, yes, it was the first time she ditched on me and because of her boyfriend, but I shouldn’t feel so hurt shouldn’t I? And why the fact that she was in a party with him was so awful to me? It’s not like I would get like this if she decided to go to a party by herself or her friends. No, it was the fact that she was doing all of this because of him that it hurt so much and made me so mad all at the same time.
               
        It was like I was jealous of him, but I couldn’t understand why. Maybe it was the fact that April was doing something for him without caring about anything else, she was giving everything for her relationship and I was being left behind. I want her to do something like that for me. Or maybe it was the simple fact that he was spending time with her when all I wanted tonight was to have a great time with her.
               
        I ended up spending the rest of the night eating half of the junk food I brought while watching Gossip Girl on my laptop with my cat Dexter sleeping by my side. It was definitely not the plan I made for the night but it was better than nothing. I was just trying to do something else instead of watching the ceiling of my room while thinking about how mad I was with April for what she did. What kind of person ditches her best friend like that? That’s something you simply don’t do.