So hey I'm pretty much lost in thought I can't think straight. Cause whats been going on. I been in the hospital four times now. So they said I'm having hard time breathing became one of my lunges have shuut down all the way and they don't know why. I'm worried I don't want to die just yet. Cause I have to make everything right before I go. Like I want Payton and Bri back I miss them and I want to do my solo . And finally hang one day out with the person I mostly love. So yeah I don't need to die right now. And Payton if your reading this then you know in truly sorry and forgive me I know I was stupid and a bitch but forgive me. And I'm glade your with bri. But yeah forgive me. I want to thank all of you just in case if I do die you guys know I'm at 201 readers. And I love you all for that. I'm truly thankful for you . But yeah I'm also taking 10 pills a day to keep my other lung from shouting down. But yeah I should go I need sleep and tomorrow is Christmas so Happy early Christmas. ⛄⛄⛄⛄❄❄❄❄❄
