serendipity - johnny depp

22. it's official

BELLA

The rest of the day went by pretty quickly, but I knew I wasn't feeling myself. Johnny wasn't either. We hadn't talked about anything that happened after this morning. I guess I was just scared about telling him Tom and I were official, but I hadn't seen Mila, and he looked grumpy so I decided to let him be for a bit.

We had finished filming, so we each went to our trailers to change and get ready to leave, and as I was entering my trailer, I saw Tom coming up to me. He gave me a big smile and jogged a bit. "Hi, baby." He kissed my lips shortly and held the door open for me.

"Thank you," I spoke softly and we both got in. 

"What do you wanna do?" 

I shrugged and got in the bedroom so I could change with a bit of privacy. "Maybe we could go walk around, or go to a café."

I heard him hum in response, but said something after. "How about we go to your place? Or mine?" I shut my eyes and tried to think quickly. I really didn't want to bring Tom home right now, I still hadn't spoken with Johnny.

"My place is not really okay right now, but we could go to yours?"

"Sure." I heard him reply. I quickly tidied up my stuff and went outside and grabbed my script and bag. We left my trailer and saw Johnny closing up his trailer too.

"Hey, Izzy you ready to go?" He looked up at me and saw Tom coming out right behind me. He looked confused but then looked back at me and nodded. "Oh."

I really felt bad, probably because I wanted to leave with Johnny, but now I really didn't have a choice. "I'm sorry, we just decided on doing something right now, but-"

"That's fine, I get it. See you at home." He looked hurt, but the way he said this was in nothing but annoyance. I guess we're back to grumpy Johnny. Couldn't blame him though, after the incident with Mila a while ago, I'd be pissed at everything too.

Johnny left quickly and Tom looked at me confusedly, but took my hand and led me to the exit too. "You guys fighting again?"

I laughed slightly and shook my head, "No, we're good. Mila just kind of put him in a bad mood this morning." I told him what had happened as we left in his car, and he was as shocked as anyone would be if they heard this.

"Has she- you know, ever hit him before?" I widened my eyes and replied quickly.

"God no, I don't think she has. He would tell me I think." It still kept me thinking though. I did a mental note to myself to talk to Johnny about this later.

We spent the rest of the afternoon at his place, which was an apartment a bit farther away from where we lived, but it was nice. I spent the whole time extremely nervous and I don't even know why. We made out a little, but nothing more than that.

We watched movies and played some board games, but when I saw that it was almost 11 p.m., I decided on heading back home. I called a cab and I honestly couldn't wait to get there. I really wanted to see what was up with Johnny.

I knocked on his door before I even entered my place, and he opened it about a minute later and hugged the hell out of me. I laughed and hugged him back tightly. Something felt weird, I mean he always hugged me but he just seemed different right now.

"Johnny, what's wrong?" I pulled away and looked at him. 

He looked down and opened the door for me to step in. "I broke up with Mila."

I stopped dead in my tracks and looked at him in shock. "You didn't."

He sat down on the barstool and put his head in his hands. "I don't know if it was wrong. I just thought-"

I interrupted him as I made my way over to him. "Oh, so you're serious?" 

He looked up at me frustratedly and said, "Yes Bella!" 

I sat down next to him and hugged him. "I'm sorry, I just never thought you would do it."

He nuzzled his head in the crook of my neck and moved a bit closer. "I just realized that I wouldn't be happy as long as I was with her." I nodded and pressed him to continue. "Even though I knew deep down she wasn't good for me, I guess I was scared of what she would do if I finally left."

I pulled away and said, "Well then, are you scared now?"

He shook his head and looked down, "I guess not, I mean she can't do anything." 

I smiled and put my hands on his shoulders. "And are you okay?" 

He nodded but frowned. "How's everything with Tom?" Shit. I had totally forgotten about what had happened. 

"It's good, yeah." I paused and started fidgeting with my nails nervously. "He kind of wanted to make things official, so we did- I guess." 

He looked surprised for a bit but smiled slightly after. "That's great," I pouted without even knowing I did, but he saw it and asked, "Is it?"

I went to his couch and plopped down. "I don't know! I don't know what I feel." I could feel the couch dip down next to me as he sat down too, and he started rubbing my back.

"But you're happy?" I looked up at him, noticing his huge puppy dog eyes staring down at me. 

"I think so. I don't know"

He started to lean down, making my heart race. He was so close, so dangerously close to my lips. I could feel his eyes staring into mine, occasionally glancing down at my lips, but none of us moved. He closed his eyes and kissed me right next to my mouth, in my cheek.

He kept his lips there, making it extremely hard for me to not grab his face and kiss him, but as soon as I remembered that this was Johnny, my best friend, I didn't do anything.

He pulled away, looked a bit bummed, but hugged me either way. I wrapped my arms around him tightly and curled up next to him on the couch. Both of us needed this, I'm sure. He had just broken up and I was a mess, as always.

We decided on calling it a night a bit after that, which really left me going home extremely confused, taking me into a very restless sleep.