serendipity - johnny depp

31. cold mcdonalds

BELLA

After about 2 hours of being by myself, my thoughts all over the place, trying to think of any possible ways Mila could be lying, I grew exhausted. Physically and mentally.

I had walked along the coast of the beach, not even aware of where I would end up, but after about an hour I knew I had to turn back. I started walking up the beach and unlocked my car that was waiting up there for me. I turned the engine on and drove back home.

I was numb. I just couldn't feel anything anymore. I had cried way too much, and I knew I was still in shock. I desperately wanted it to all be a big lie, or just a nightmare, but as soon as I parked outside the building, the earlier events from today made my eyes water again.
I stepped into the elevator and rode up silently, the most dead I had ever felt.

As soon as I stepped out and started making my way over to my place, I noticed Johnny was sitting against my apartment door, his knees pressed to his chest, but as soon as he saw me, he stood up quickly and grabbed my wrist to prevent me from turning back.

"Bella please, we need to talk," He croaked out. 

His eyes were red and puffy, and I noticed his hair was all messed up. And I hated that even when he looks like this, I still find him incredibly hot and it makes me want to curl up beside him and comfort him, even though I know I shouldn't.

I, on the other hand, must look like a walking zombie. Some of the mascara that I was wearing had been smudged under my eyes, but either way, that was the least of my worries right now. I knew that at some point I would have to talk to him.

"Just tell me right now Johnny. Don't make me waste my time. Did you call her or not?" 

He breathed out heavily and ran a hand through his hair. "I didn't Bella! Please let me explain everything."

I dropped my gaze and took a shaky breath. I noticed he was still holding on to my wrist, so I quickly pulled my hand away and looked at him. "Fine."

He let out a small smile and led me to his apartment.

"Okay look, come here." He said softly as he made his way over to the couch. 

"No." I didn't want to sit down. I wanted him to tell me what the fuck happened.

He looked down at his shoes defeatedly and made his way over to me. "I swear Bella, I had no idea she would be here. I-"

"She said she wanted to surprise you, Johnny. Of course you had no idea she would be there." I remember every word that was said perfectly, so I had that to my advantage.

"The fuck she surprised me! I haven't talked to her or reached out to her since we broke up. I hadn't even heard from her." He said quickly, incredibly frustrated as he put his hair behind his ears, a habit he had.

"Then how the fuck would she know we would be going shopping huh? It just adds up Johnny. How could she-" 

Johnny put his hands on my shoulders, making me flinch. I was extremely nervous and he could tell. "I talked to Laura. Asked her if she knew what we did today, and she immediately told me that we went to Rodeo Drive." 

I scrunched my face up in confusion, so he continued. "She said that everyone knew we went there, because apparently we were being photographed the entire time."

"Oh, and Laura also said that Tom was photographed with Mila this morning, in a small restaurant near Rodeo Drive." 

I widened my eyes in shock, but I still didn't look at him. "Tom? Tom Cruise?" 

He nodded and it all made sense now. "They could've been planning something all along."

I looked up at him, but still didn't cave. "How did everyone find out so fast? We were there this morning."

"I don't know, pictures usually get released really quickly. Maybe while we were in the meeting they were being printed out on articles."

It made sense, but I really didn't want to fall so easily.

"I kicked Mila out as soon as I came back up for my keys, but you were gone so I didn't know where to go. So I called Laura to find out why Mila knew." 

Tears started pricking on my eyes again, so I immediately dropped my gaze. "You're not lying? You didn't want to get back together with her?" I managed to speak out quietly.

Johnny let out a breath he was holding in and grabbed both of my hands. "Look at me, baby." I still didn't look up, I knew I would cry and that was the last thing I wanted right now.

"Look at me, sweetheart, please." His voice was soft, but it cracked at the end, making me give in and look at him.

"I would never, ever lie to you, you know that Izzy. And I would never  want to get back together with her. I don't want anyone else but you." 

A tear slipped from my eyes, but Johnny wiped it away quickly and ran his fingers through my hair. "You're the best thing that's happened to me. I would never throw that away. I love you and you know that."

He brought his hands back to my face and used his thumbs to wipe my tears. He hesitantly brought his face closer to mine, our noses just barely touching. "Do you trust me?" He whispered quietly.

"Of course I do," I replied, bringing my hands up around the back of his neck, slightly stepping away from him. "You better be telling the truth, Depp. If I find out-"

He chuckled lightly and shook his head. "You won't sweetheart. You know her, she's always been one to think only of herself. Plus, that's probably why Tom was involved too, he wanted you back."

"You're right. I should've listened to you. I'm sorry. I was just so mad and I didn't see how she could be lying-" I started, now feeling bad for running out on him. I would've saved a lot of tears and time if I would have just taken a deep breath before acting impulsively.

"Shh baby it's okay. We're here now and it's okay. Let's just forget about it, it's over now." 

I nodded and hesitantly walked closer towards him. 

"Come on honey, it's me. Don't be nervous." He slowly wrapped his hands around my waist and pulled me closer to him, hugging me tightly, my head resting on his chest.

"I'm sorry Johnny I really-" He cut me off by pressing his soft lips to mine, making me quickly melt into the kiss. 

He pulled away slightly and pecked my lips again. "Stop saying you're sorry Bella, it wasn't your fault. It was how you reacted, and that's totally fair."

I nodded and kissed him lightly again. 

"Come on, Izzy. Let's go to bed now. I'll bring you the food we never ate." 

My eyes widened at the thought of the food. I was starving and I had forgotten about it. "Isn't it cold by now?"

He shrugged and grabbed the bag from the counter. "Probably, but we could just heat it up." I nodded excitedly and made my way over to his room, grabbing and old t-shirt of his so I could get out of my clothes.

I got under the covers and hugged them tightly, waiting for Johnny to come back with the food. He walked into the room with the now warm burgers and fries and a bed tray table so we wouldn't get food on the actual bed.

He set it down in front of me and took his jeans off and climbed into bed with me, pulling me close to him and kissing the top of my head lightly.

We spent the rest of the day eating and laughing and warming up again. It was just what I needed to feel safe and happy again. He was just what I needed.

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