100 ways to feel

Chapter : 10

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Don't think about it and it will be fine

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 jungkook pov

  " Where were you ? ". I asked
  her instead I never wanted her to
  know this to see this but luck is
  never on my side ever. I am my
  biggest enemy I can't stay happy
  because of my big mouth.

  " It doesn't matter . Continue what
    were you were saying?". She
    look at me wide eyed trying her
    best to not cry. And I feel like
    the biggest Asshole right now.

" We are going common jimin ".
   Taehyung muttered for the first
   time he is here and I know he is
   angry but what about I am confused
   right now is why Lily and taehyung
   Both come together this is not
   coincidence is it ?

" Yeah ". Jimin mutter confused .

" Why are you guys are going ?".
   I question .

" You both have to talk alone ".
   Neither of us said anything until
   they left.

" Where were you ?". I asked again
   I know I fucked up bad but I am
   also human and what I said was
   truth I never wanted her here
   I am doing this because of my
   Grandpa.
 
" Why do you care ,It doesn't concern
   you does it ?. She asked as she took
   a steeped closer towards me.

" Just Answer ". I simply asked .

" Why did you care Mr . Jungkook ?"
   Then she snapped I growled in my
   throat how dare she .
  
" I know you never care for me .Your
  behaviour show it's clearly. Sometimes
  I wonder what have I done to you
  to deserve this behaviour. I always
  wants best for you . But I crossed my
  Limit . I'm just a maid for you the
  girl who you have to take care
  forcefully because if you don't then
  you will not have the inheritance
  of your grandfather. I'm just a liability.
  A burden . And in return I do chores
  of your house . So we have nothing
  more than that and when never will ".
  My mouth sat in a thin line daring
  her to say something more.

" Its stupid of me to think you will
change jungkook . But I get it now .
You have your girlfriend and
everything then why will you care
about me , I'm no one ". She
specifically pointed Ava as my
girlfriend I narrow my eyes and
her face show signs of panicking
but a second later she covered it with a angry look.

" But you know one thing jungkook its
hurt . More than anything. Its Ripes me
Apart everytime I saw you, But forget
about it now it nothing matters now .
You have to cope with me just for
few weeks when the school will be
finished I will find job then I will
move out and you didnt have to
see me anymore . Just bare with my
nasty self for few weeks ". Tears was
running down her cheeks. Its feel odd .
I never want her to cry Because of me .

" Lily ..... ". She snickered and shooked
  his head stopping me in mid
  sentence.

" Stopped with this jungkook ... do you
  know this feeling it's really difficult
  when you are surrounded people
  all day but in reality you have no
  one . I deal with this all day ".
  She admitted
 
" I never want anything from you ?
   Just one thing I ever wanted but you
   are so blind by your attitude you
   never saw anything . And I'm done
   waiting for you when I know you
   will never come to me ". Eyes going
   wide I shook my head I will not let
   this happen.What did she said ?????
   Did that means she love me ?