When The Nightingale Sings

CHAPTER 15

Nang bumukas na ang pinto ng elevator agad akong tumakbo papunta sa room ko, binuksan ko na ang pinto at agad nang pumasok. Napasandal ako sa pintuan nang mapagtanto ang nangyari kanina. 

Huminga ako ng malalim at umupo sa sofa, binuksan ko yung TV habang kumakain. After that, I went to my room to grab some clothes before taking a shower. I blow-dried my hair after taking a quick shower and did my night routine. I wore my pajamas before I sat down on the bed.

Pinatay ko na ang ilaw at binuksan ang laptop ko na tanging liwanag lang sa aking kwarto. I made a call with my manager and with my other groupmates telling them that I already miss them.

Kailangan ko nang matulog ng maaga dahil may TV guesting ako kinabukasan, pinatay ko na ang laptop ko at ipinatong sa side table ng aking kama nang makaramdam ako ng antok. Binalot ng kadiliman ang buong kwarto. Tanging ilaw lamang sa labas ng bintana ang kumokontra sa kadiliminan ng silid.

I remember how lonely I am, how I used to be scared of the dark before. 

Now, I find comfort in the darkness, normal people have no idea how beautiful it is.

I pat my own back as I try to comfort myself, I get used to this. 

Binuksan ko ang phone ko at pinagmasdan ang taong nasa wallpaper ko, it's been years since you left me alone. 

You should have been here with me.

I still miss how you used to be supportive whenever I perform, 

I remember how fortunate I was having you in my life,

I know that you are proud of me, above. 

Your love is still my guide, Mom. 

I cried silently while patting my back, trying not to sob. I deeply sighed as I fell asleep. 

"So paano ang naging buhay mo sa China noon?" The other host asked me,

"Ah, nung una po I was staying po sa bahay po ng lolo and lola ko po sa Yunnan, it's a bit far from the China Mainland po" I smiled. "Pero napilitan po ako na umalis na lang kasi I need to fund myself po, bumalik po ako sa Guangzhou at nagwork po ako, I lived alone po..." I sighed after remembering what I've been through.