Through the Years

Chapter 17

That night after Louis  gave back the phone, he curled up in a ball in the abandoned bedroom and cried himself to sleep.

For once though the tears weren't sad though. They were happy harry cared and loved him again, that's all he ever wanted was for Harry to feel the same. Everything was slowly falling into place, he had his Harry back, no one seemed to hate him.

Early in the morning before anyone knew he was missing Louis snuck back to his own bedroom, crawled into bed and fell fast asleep.

When he woke up a few hours later, he looked over to his bedside table and there lay his phone. He sat up panicked thinking if he brought back with him, so he hid it under his pillow. And waited cautiously for the doctor to come in with his medication.

"Good morning Louis." His doctor chirped, walking into the room.

Louis didn't say anything he just looked at the doctor and smiled, and had his medication like he always did every morning.

"Did you get your phone?" The doctor asked.

Louis just blinked at the doctor and nodded.

"This is really good news Louis, having your phone back means that we think you're almost ready to leave hospital, we're just going to monitor how you react with it for a few days that's all."

Louis nodded and when the doctor left,  he took his phone out from under his pillow and logged into twitter for the very first time since all this began. He looked at his notifications and saw a few hate messages but mainly love towards him, fans were saying they missed him and his follow account had gotten bigger over the last few years.

Louis took in a deep breath closed his twitter and then opened up notes on his phone and he started typing away, typing a message to his fans.

"There was once a boy who was full of jokes and laughter, he shared the stage with his four best friends. He wished it would never end, until one day he ruined everything, he cheated and lied, he caused so much hurt and pain that everyone he cared for had left him, that boy was me. I am no longer that boy, I want to be the cheerful energetic guy that always put a smile on peoples faces but I'm just not and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused. I'm sorry for everything I put my friends family and even you guys my fans through. I hadn't felt like myself for a long time so I hid behind the jokes and laughter to stop myself from ending it all, and then when that wasn't enough I hid my pain through cuts and scars, thinking that would help but it didn't. It just made things worse. I'm not as strong as you like to believe and for that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the secrets and lies, but if you'll let me and support me I will get better, I will come back stronger than I ever was and I will be the person you want me to be. I want to get better. I am Louis Tomlinson and I am scared, exhausted and depressed, I hide my pain through a fake smile and cuts on my arms, but I will get better, it will just take time and I hope you'll be there with me on my journey to recovery."

Louis read it over a few times, he then screenshotted it and posted it to twitter he then captioned it "I am Louis Tomlinson." He then locked his phone and looked up to the ceiling smiling to himself, it was that Louis smile, you know that smile that meant you don't know me and never will.

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Sorry it's so short, this one was just a filler I suppose I really didn't know what to write for this chapter. I'm trying to slowly make this fanfic come to an end. So this part was shit as I didn't know what to write.