Through the Years

Chapter 4

*Authors note: before I start this chapter I would just like to say this fanfic is now dedicate this to Finn, you were sadly taken from us and depression won. So here's to you. May you rest in peace my angel*

  Chapter 4

Louis sat down in front of his children for another chapter of his life. He took in a deep breath and began.

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"I can't believe we're in America." Liam screamed getting out of the taxi and running into the hotel.

"America here we come! Louis screeched, jumping onto Zayn's  back.

The five of them made their way to reception, the lady at the desk looked at them and raised an eyebrow at Louis. He winked at her and jumped off Zayn's back.

They got their keys and headed to the lift.

"Right so the receptionist said that once again there was a room with three beds and then a room with a double bed, however you can make it into two singles. Who wants what?" Liam asked.

"Why don't we just do what we always do? Harry and Louis can share a bedroom." Zayn said smirking.

"That's fine with me." Harry said, and Louis just nodded.

When they arrived on their floor they all went to their bedroom, to get ready for the evening, they didn't have a concert for two days so we're going to enjoy their time exploring.

"What are you doing?" Harry asked Louis as he was pushing the beds apart

"I'm moving the beds so they are two singles."

"Do we have to move the beds?"

"We don't have to no, I just thoughts that's what you would have wanted." Louis said.

"No that's not what I want. Whenever you sleep next to me I feel safe Louis. It's as if you're protecting me, so please can we not move the beds."

Louis smiled at his best friend and nodded. At times he thought Harry wanted him, that Harry had feelings for him too but why would Harry want someone like Louis?

Louis stepped inside the shower and just let his thoughts run away from him, every thought  he had was about Harry. He knew that his love for Harry wasn't healthy and that if Harry felt the same way it could jeopardise their whole career. But it seemed as though Louis would risk everything for his best friend if it meant kissing him just once.

Louis stepped out the shower and wrapped the towel around his torso and headed to the bedroom.

Harry looked at Louis and walked closer to him, he traced his fingers along Louis  chest, and looked closely as the water droplets on Louis glistened  in the light. He then rested two fingers under Louis chin and lifted up his head so Louis was now looking up at Harry.

Heat rose from Louis  stomach to his chest. Harry's  lips were getting closer and Louis heart was racing, the smell of Harry was  hypnotic beyond reason. Louis parted his lips and felt Harry's warm lips on his, he curled his  toes, unfurling all his senses as the taste of his best friend nearly silenced all thoughts.

It was everything Louis  had hoped as his whole body tingled, the feel of Harry's frame leaning on his as Harry's arms wrapped around Louis which felt nearly forbidden. He pulled louis in, claiming his mouth again, it was hungry and intense, until Louis  knees gave in. Everything was so surreal that by the time Louis had come around from his trance  he had noticed that his fingers were under Harry's shirt, in that moment electricity ran through Louis body as he could feel Harry's smooth and radiating heat as they kissed passionately.

They parted away from each other and looked at each other intensely.

"What was that for?" Louis asked.

" I see the way you look at me Lou, full of love and passion, the sparkle in your eyes. It's the way everyone wants to be looked at."

"But why did you kiss me?"

"Don't you get it? There's a reason why I want  to sleep next to you every night, why I always say we'll share a bedroom whenever we go away. I want to spend more time with you Lou, I want to feel your body next to mine. I want to feel your touch, to listen to your heartbeat and just to be with you."

"I want to risk everything to be with you and I'm willing to do that but I'm scared."

"No one needs to know, no one will ever have to find out and yes people may suspect things but we can deny it or just keep quiet until we're ready to tell people. It's just you and me Louis."

Louis smiled, he leaned forward and pushed Harry on the bed and started kissing his best friend passionately and deeply.
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"And that's how your daddy fell in love for the first time and how he got lucky in love and fell for his best friend, and his best friend loved him back."

"What happened to him daddy, you talk so much about Harry but we haven't met him." Ella said rubbing her eyes.

"I know baby, he's just busy. But  you'll meet him soon. He'll love you both so much." Louis said kissing his two children goodnight.

He stood up and headed out the door, he let out a deep breath and sighed.

Who was he kidding Freddie and Ella would never meet Harry, he didn't care for Louis anymore and that hurt, all Louis had were these memories and nothing else.

Memories that Louis would never forget. Memories that were slowly destroying him as he tried to forget them, but those memories were a killer and Louis didn't know how long he could go on like this for.

He was lost and alone. All he wanted was Harry. Louis sighed once again and went to his bedroom it was going to be another sleepless night, full of thoughts and guilt as he re lived  the good and bad. Thinking about what would have happened if he never told the truth, if he never broke up the band.