Through the Years

Chapter 7

A couple of nights had passed and Louis hadn't told the children the rest of his story. He was too depressed but he thought it was time to finish it, they deserved it. Louis looked down at his wrists and sighed the cuts were bright red and raw from the other night, he sighed pulled down his jumper, put a smile on his face and walked into Freddie and Ella's bedroom. He took in a deep breath and sat down ignoring the pain of the night before and the urge to want to self harm again.

.......

Two years had passed and the boys were preparing for their second to last album before they became a four boy band. They sat sat in the  studio, writing and singing. Harry would glance at Louis every now and then and would either wink or smile.

"I have something to say. Harry and Louis are dating, they didn't want to tell you." Zayn shouted.

"Since when?" Liam questioned.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Niall questioned.

"What the fuck Zayn, you're such a dick! We didn't tell you because it was our business, we just didn't want to tell you." Harry said

"How long have you two been together?" Niall asked.

"For two years. Since the up all night tour." Harry whispered.

"You know, I was giving you guys the benefit of the doubt, I was thinking this was a fling nothing serious. So I acted though as if I forgot but seeing you two together makes me sick!" Zayn choked.

"Why because we're two boys in love?" Louis questioned.

"No, I don't care about that. It's the fact that you two rub it in our faces. It seems as though since you two got together you think you're more superior than the rest of us. And that's not the case it's fucking bullshit." Zayn screamed.

"Come on Zayn, they don't think that." Liam said.

"Aren't you mad at them Liam? Aren't you mad they didn't tell you? I had to find out myself. They were never going to tell us."

"Of course I'm mad, but I see why they didn't want to. It must have been hard for them to accept that they liked each other and to tell their best friends, to finally come out and admit that they liked boys would have probably been really hard. I can't blame them for that. Come on we're all friends here." Liam said.

"Exactly, were suppose to be best friends. Let's just move on." Niall said.

"I don't want to move on from this. Don't you get it, we're not that close anymore we're not friends. Nothing has been right for a long time. It's always been Louis and Harry."

"What do you mean Zayn?" Harry asked.

"Everything involves them it always does, they're always the centre of attention. It's always about them. They're the most popular and I'm sick of it." Zayn said.

"What are you saying?" Louis asked.

"I'm done I'm fucking done, I don't want to be part of this bullshit anymore, I want to write my own music."

"You can't leave Zayn, we've  got a 5 year contract." Liam said.

"I really don't care, I'll be here for this album and the next one because it's the least I can do. But after that I'm done. So let's all pretend to be best friends for just a few more years." Zayn said, picking up his belongings and walking out the door.

That was the start of their break up, Zayn was the first to leave. Then the others closely followed a year later.

The last two tours for the five of them was extremely awkward. Fans could see they were uncomfortable; that they were tired and weren't their usual energetic selves. And it was because they weren't. They were up most of the night arguing, fighting over their friendship.

Everything had changed, they weren't the five boys who met at the X Factor, they weren't One Direction anymore. They had finally grown up and saw that their childish ways just weren't  working anymore.

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Louis looked up and saw Ella looking up with him, she wiped her nose with her hand and rubbed her eyes.

"Why are you crying Ella?" Louis asked.

"I hear you at night daddy. I hear you cry yourself to sleep every night. Freddie is too young to understand but I'm not I'm nearly 9 now and I know this upsets you."

"You hear that?"

"Yes I hear it and I don't want you to be upset, please don't leave us daddy. I need you, Freddie needs you."

Louis ran over to Ella, he quickly glanced at Freddie who was fast asleep. He then sat down on Ella's bed and pulled her into a massive hug and let her tears fall into his white T-shirt.

"I'm not going anywhere Ella, daddy is just a little upset right now that's all. But he will always here for you and Freddie and I won't ever leave you two. Ever. I love you both so much." He said squeezing her tightly.

That night when Ella was asleep, he took in a deep breath and looked down at his writs. He had cuts all over his wrists and thighs, his body was a canvas and he loved to paint it, but seeing Ella cry hearing those words killed Louis inside.

He was broken, nothing was right anymore, it wasn't just Harry it was deeper than that. It was the death threats and hate. He was broken and alone.

He just wanted the world to stop. To  be released from the pain and hate he had caused but he couldn't. Freddie and Ella were all he had. He lived and breathed for them, he couldn't leave them behind.

He just had to keep on pretending to be happy; he had to keep on smiling a little longer.

He was slowly drowning but no body could see his struggle, no one truly understood him and that's what caused him to break.

The children were the only thing keeping him alive right now and that scared Louis to death, one slip of the blade and he could be dead.

Did he really want to risk that? Risk it all for a boy?