Philophobia || ATEEZ Woosan (COMPLETED)

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It had been a few weeks and Wooyoung was finally ready to be discharged from the mental hospital.

Although he was better, San was still nervous to go visit him after what had last happened between them.

I mean, how did he know if Wooyoung still loved him? He barely even said anything about it during their last encounter with each other.

San took a deep breath and Seonghwa rested his hands on the younger's shoulders.

"Don't worry, San. Relax. It'll all be okay. Remember what I told you last time we were discussing things about Wooyoung?" Seonghwa asked and San nodded, taking another deep breath and exhaling softly.

"See? You'll be fine. Hongjoong is almost back with him." Seonghwa told him, San nodding.

They were sitting on the couch in Seonghwa's living room, waiting for Hongjoong to walk through the door with Wooyoung.

San's knee bounced with nervous jitters, but relaxed soon after when he heard a familiar voice and the sound of the large wooden door opening.

"We're back!" Hongjoong yelled out, Seonghwa getting up and walking over to the stairs to greet them.

"It's so nice to see you guys again. Especially you, Wooyoung. San is waiting upstairs on the couch for you." He informed them as he greeted them with warm hugs and pats on the backs.

Wooyoung took a deep breath before walking up the stairs, looking over to see San on the couch looking as nervous as ever.

"San.." Wooyoung began, San's head snapping over to the younger, their eyes immediately meeting each other's.

"Woo.." San said, standing up slowly.

"Sit down, I wanna chat." Wooyoung said and San did as he said, taking a seat on the couch where he just was.

"What is it? If you don't love me, just say it. I can't take this pressure anymore." San rambled before feeling a pair of lips on his own.

He was tensed up, but his body relaxed as he melted into the soft kiss. This was what he needed. He had been so stressed out this entire time until now.

Wooyoung pulled away and looked at San.

"Relax, Sannie. I'm gonna tell you all about what I've figured out and discovered." Wooyoung said softly, placing his hand on top of San's, rubbing his finger against the top of it.

Seonghwa and Hongjoong made their way up the stairs and went back to Seonghwa's room to give the two some privacy.

"I still love you, okay? I always have loved you. But..I got diagnosed with Philophobia. It's the fear of love. I don't really know how to explain to clearly, but basically I just have tough days where I can't regulate my feelings of love. If that makes any sense. As you know, Junsu ruined my life. But you were there to save me. You made my life better, San. You made it worth living."

Wooyoung watched as San started to tear up and he started getting emotional himself as well.

"I really don't think I would be alive right now if you weren't in my life. And I know that sounds like a terrible thing to say, but it's true. I never found any happiness in my life. Every day was the same. I would go to school, get raped after school or sometimes skip school for Junsu to rape me, and then go home and deal with my little brother. My mother wasn't the best person. But she has changed her ways to better support me and I'm very thankful for that."

San reached over and gave Wooyoung a hug.

"I'm so proud of you, Wooyoung. You have been so brave throughout all of this. I'm so thankful that you held on, despite everything that has happened to you. I also have some news for you.." San announced, trailing off.