Tune em Out

Chapter 8: Confessions

A/N it's been too long my lovelies. I'm not going to make you wait any longer.

Jesy's POV

"Ha! I knew it. You two are dating. Pay up Jade.", Perrie says out of nowhere. Jade mumbles under her breath as she hands Perrie about 40 dollars. "What the hell are you two talking about?", Leigh questions. I take the money out of Perrie's hand and give it back to Jade. "No we aren't dating and we never will.", I say flicking Perrie's forehead. "And you don't make bets with Perrie. You should've known that.", I scold Jade hitting her in the back of the head. They both rub the spots I hit and sit on the couch.

"Well what's up Jes?", Jade says as she grabs her plush on the couch. "Leigh and I have been keeping something from you.", I say slowly. "You make it sound like you're secretly dating. Stop wording it like that.", Perrie complained. "Anyway, I'm sure that you both have noticed Leigh acts a little strange sometimes.", I say rubbing her knee. She gives me a weak smile so I continue. "It's because Leigh had PDD(I actually did my research and this was the closest I could find to describe Leigh and no it's not the autism is a type of depression as well ). "Has what?", Perrie questions.

"I believe it's a form of depression Pez.", Jade says. "You're right Jade.", I say. "Oh. Ok then.", Perrie says and walks away. Jade just facepalms and runs after her. "Well that went better than expected yeah?", I ask Leigh. "Yeah I feel a little better with them knowing.", she says with a small smile. "I think Perrie hates me though. Her face was blank.",she says as she looks down. "Don't worry about that right now. Jade is in there talking to her right now. I'm sure it'll be fine.", I say giving her a hug. I take her up stairs and let her fall asleep. Now to go deal with these two.

Jade's POV

I run after Perrie into the kitchen. "Pez what was that?", I say. She brings her top half out of the fridge and turns towards me. "What do you mean?", she asks tilting her head. "You know what depression is right?", I ask just to make sure. She nods her head with a smile. "Yep. It's when people get really sad and want to hurt themselves.", she says looking proud for remembering. "Yes but there are different forms of depression. Like the one Leigh has. It makes her really question herself and if she takes the medicine we saw in her bag there are voices that are mean to her too.", I say trying to make it simpler.

"So you're saying Leigh hears voices that make her feel bad about herself because of something that somebody said?", she questions. I nod my head yes as she gasps. She runs into the lounge finds Jesy with no Leigh. "I put her to bed. She was exhausted after today.", Jesy said. Perrie runs over and jumps on her squeezing her, while pressing her head into her shoulder. "I'm sorry for the way I reacted Jesy. I didn't know that it was that bad.", she said as she clung tighter on. "It's ok pez you just made Leigh a little upset is all.",she says. When I say Perrie looked like a kicked puppy she almost made me cry.

She walked to the middle of the room as plops on the floor. "Don't beat yourself up about it pez. Also I want to talk to you girls about something.", Jesy says looking at us. I sit on the floor next to pez and look up at her. "The reason Leigh didn't want to tell you was that she didn't what you both to treat her differently. She was afraid that you both were going to treat her like a child.", Jesy says. "We love her we wouldn't hurt her on purpose.", I say a little offended. "I didn't mean it like that Jade. It's just she's very insecure but she working with it (see what I did there?)and the voices don't make it any better. So please just treat her normally. Don't even mention it unless she does first.", she finishes. I nod at her and take in all this information.

Out of the corner of my eye, I see Perrie raise her hand. Jesy chuckles before saying, " You don't have to raise your hand Pez. What is it?", she says. "Well what do we do if she starts getting freaked out with something, because you said not to mention it unless she does and if she doesn't mention it how are we supposed to help?", Perrie asks slightly confusing me. Jesy pats the top of her head and says, "Don't worry about it that much Pez. Like I said there are only a few rules. One, don't mention it. She doesn't like people talking about it because she feels like they're judging her . Two, don't do anything that'll make her think you hate her. She gets crazy then passes out from crying too much. Three, if she ever starts shaking her head just leave her be. The only times you interfere is if she starts shaking it extremely hard like neck breaking hard. You also interfere when she starts hitting herself. That should be it. It's not that complicated. I'll answer any other questions tomorrow. Good night.",she leaves off giving us both a peck on our foreheads.