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Chapter 10

[Lukes pov]

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That was all that filled my mind and it was killing me

It hurt when I thought the song was about oscar but it turns out it was about me!

Me? Why me? Ashton's amazing he could have many people? Why me he thinks I'm straight

Key word thinks, the thing Is I don't know anymore that's why I couldn't help myself but kiss Ashton's beautiful soft lips when he said everything was for me

He went through all that for me, the kiss was magical but wrong! It was stupid

I'm luke hemmings popular boy who gets all the boys I'm in love with jasmine I keep trying to make myself think that but it's hard

And I kissed him and I've got a girlfriend I nearly blew my cover!

Before your like you cheated I didn't me and jasmine feel nothing towards each other nothing at all

Were just really good friends she's my fake girlfriend I started feeling weird feelings for Ashton I skipped school and bumped into her she was crying over her ex boyfriend Connor

I told her what I was feeling and she came up with the idea that we fake date it'll make Connor jealous and help me get over Ashton if not it'll make him jealous

Plus it would also help boost our popularity! And I know that my school accepts gays but I won't be we popular because you populars get the girls that's the way it is

I'm also scared of what my family would think would they disown Me?

The plot was based around pure jealousy but I didn't think it would work so well

I mean Ashton changed his look and personality just for me that makes me feel so special yet so selfish!

He's even writing a song about me! And my stupid plan was meant to help me get over him but I just couldn't resist his lips they were to amazing

I need to stop Hiding my feelings

I kissed him and ran away how's he going to feel I feel terrible!

I was pulled out of my deep thoughts when I got a text

From Ashton: cal and mikey just kissed the malum ship is sailing I thought id let you know don't tell...

I read over the text and smiled Michael's a popular As well yet he's going after his dream guy so why shouldn't i ?

I also realised that Ashton was avoiding what was happening so I just sent a simple reply...

To Ashton: knew it!!

I felt kinda bad on him what should I do try keep my image and continue the thing with jasmine or be more like Michael?

My phone buzzed so I took it out again

From jasmine: lukeyy, Connors at the park please come now and meet me please I miss being with him I want him back so bad!! Help me lukeyy :'(((( xoxo

I decided to help she really loves him and if this can help her get him back I'll help her she's a good friend

I headed down to the park and met jasmine by the swings Connor saw us and moved closer now was our change

I grabbed jasmine and slammed my lips onto hers it felt nowhere near as good as kissing Ashton

His lips were plump and soft yet rough but jasmines were thin and felt weird due to her sticky lip gloss but I got on with it

I heard Connor say to his friend " I wish that was me" and I felt jasmine smile across my lips

"Hey Luke" a small Voice spoke I pulled away from jasmine to see who it was

It was Lauren jasmines little sister but that meant Ashton could of been here

I looked up and there he was he was playing with his snake bites and it was hot

But he has a poisonous glare on his face then I realised I kissed him yesterday and now I was kissing my "girlfriend"

It must of made him feel so worthless and stupid he poured his heart out to me then I kissed him and ran and now I've basically just ripped his heart out what have I done?

Ashton came over and grabbed his sister dragging her away without a single word I watched as he slowly went out of sight

I've messed things up big style and It was all to protect my "popularity" and because I was afraid of being gay or bi sexual

I hate my self right now what I've been doing is just so selfish I didn't stop to think how Ashton was feeling once

He's liked me for so long sweet little innocent Ashton and then I went and got a girlfriend and rubbed her in his face and now he's turned into this bitter bad boy

I needed to fix things and I needed to do it soon before things got worse

" I gotta go jazz I'll text you later " I said to jasmine before running home

I pulled my phone out and text the one person who I needed at times like this

To mikey: I've messed up big time I need you can you come round ASAP? It's ok if you can't I just need you right now :( <3

From mikey: I'll be there in ten buddy, I'm always here when you need me you know that love you mate <3

Michael came to mine and I explained everything to him

He told me to get Ashton to 'finish the song with him' then tell him how I feel stop the nonsense with jasmine and apologise

I knew he was right I had to do this it wasn't fair what I was doing to him it wasn't fair at all

We also spoke about him and Calum and they're going on a date soon I was so happy for him

Soon he had to go and he patted me on the back while saying go get your man

I thought over what I was going to say and then I pulled out my phone

To Ashton: I guess I better explain myself to you come to mine after school to finish the song and I'll explain everything to you Aswell and I mean everything I'll tell you the full truth I'm so sorry Ashton!!

From Ashton : ok.

I had my plan in Action I was going to tell Ashton everything how I feel

I'm down with denying it

I like Ashton Irwin

I like a boy

And I think I'm gay....

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Shocker, fake girlfriend he's admitting his feeling what's going to happen next? Next chapter will be here soon big thanks to all voting and reading <3