someone great : j. hossler

twenty four ✰

*song for the chapter is : sleeping with a friend by neon trees, it's in media*
finley

"what are we gonna do? we have to bail them out somehow." i said to addison. her head was in her hands and we bother we're sitting in the lobby of the police station trying to figure out what to do about our boyfriends.

bryce took the blame for josh because josh couldn't get deported. jaden on the other hand, had drugs on him i didn't even know about. of course i know jaden smokes weed, that's all i knew about. apparently he had been taking pills that i didn't know about and that's why somethings been so off about him lately. he flys off the handle about situations and he's always looking to start some kind of fight. he had never been like that before.

"we have to bail them out obviously but i'm so mad. i don't even know what to do. did you know all of this about jaden?" no i didn't. "yeah he told me about it a little bit ago." i didn't want her to know i didn't know my boyfriend was taking pills without telling me. Josh was quite and he hadn't really said anything to anybody.

i walked up to the counter of the station and told the woman sitting there i wanted to bail jaden out. addison followed and together we got our boyfriends out, finally.

the buzzer went off and jaden walked out first. he looked me in the eyes and mouthed "i'm sorry." he got his belongings that they had taken from him and walked back up to me. he gave me a kiss on the forehead and grabbed my hand. we walked outside so that we could talk privately. "so i guess this explains the mood swings, all the fights you've been wanting to pick lately, and you trying to beat the shit out of blake earlier?" i asked, my eyes were starting to water because i just completely didn't understand. "finley i promise i wasn't trying to lie to you. things have been hard for me lately and we've been through so much ever since i got out here that i didn't wanna bring you into it again. i was going to stop taking them and then we got caught." i didn't believe him. for the first time in our whole relationship, i didn't believe a single word that came out of his mouth.

"i don't believe you." i said. everybody walked back out to the side wall where we were standing and we weren't able to finish our conversation.
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the car ride back to the air bnb was so extremely silent i've never felt this way with all of them before. as soon as we pulled up i opened the door handle of the car and walked inside the house. not stopping to talk to anybody, i walked into me and jaden's room, turned the lights off and laid in bed by myself.

after a few minutes, i heard the door open. i hadn't done anything but cry since i got in here. i didn't move, i didn't wanna know who was in here. some people may think i'm being dramatic but what they don't understand is, jaden grew up with both of his parents being preachers, he was never really exposed to this kind of thing. especially drugs, that was never his thing. i had to beg him to drink alcohol when we first got to college, drugs were never even in his train of thought back then. i don't understand what's made him turn into this person i don't even recognize.

"finley? are you okay?" i heard jaden finally speak after just standing there for a while. "no jaden." i replied. he sat on the edge of the bed farthest away from me. "listen i'm sorry. i didn't mean for this to happen. i truly didn't wanna tell you because i didn't want it to be a problem. i've been taking them for 3 weeks now, so yes that's the reason for the mood swings and stuff. i didn't think you'd notice but i was wrong and my parents are gonna come to LA when we get back and i'm gonna get help." jaden said. tears wouldn't stop coming from my eyes. "i just don't feel like i know you are anymore. ever since you came to LA something constantly happens to you, me or us and i'm getting tired of it, i want all of this to chance and i want you to be the same kid i fell in love with in 7th grade." i said. "then i need to truly work on myself when we get back, and we need to take another break until i can get myself together." he said. those words shocked me not even gonna lie.

"you want a break?" i finally turned around to face him, sitting up and seeing the outline of his face in the dark. "i think it's best. if you truly want me to focus on myself then i need to get help and just focus on that." he said. "i don't understand." i choked out. "when YOU decided we needed a break , i didn't understand at first either, but i learned to appreciate the break, and you will too." and with that he closed the door behind him.

what the fuck just happened.

after sitting in the dark and crying, i tapped my phone screen and the bright light lit up, 3:30 am. i don't understand what happened and why i'm still in fucking texas and not in my own apartment.

the door creaked open and addison, bryce and tayler walked in. they gave soft smiles and sat down on the edge of the bed. i tried to smile back but all that happened was more crying. bryce gave me a hug followed by everybody else. "we heard." tayler finally said. "yeah i'm sure everybody in the house has. i think it's just fame working against us, we haven't been able to keep a steady relationship since he's been out here. i just don't think it's meant to be anymore.." i cried into tayler. he played with my hair and addison rubbed a spot on my leg. bryce wasn't really sure what to do in this situation.

after what seemed like forever, i realized i had fallen asleep and had no idea what time it was. i opened my eyes and felt somebody laying in bed with me. i rolled over and saw jaden laying there. i cuddled up to him a little and went back to sleep.