Ever since, New York [h.s] AU

58 || WE GOT A LOVE THAT IS HOMELESS

Kate.

I am leaving London tomorrow but before I go, I wanted to write this letter to you. All the thoughts and feelings that have been bubbling up inside me are finally overflowing from this pen. I'm leaving this letter for you so that you don't feel like I'm putting you under any pressure with a text.

I understand that you will need to take your time trying to understand what I'm about to say. I know what's going on, Kate. You're my best friend and I can see that sadness in your eyes. I know that you are not happy with Ben, despite what you tell me.

You never could lie to me; you were always shit at it.

Your eyes betray you time and time again. Don't pretend that everything is perfect because I see it isn't. Ben is the luckiest man in the world to have you, Kate, but he doesn't deserve you and you know that too.

You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart. Someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of everyday just wondering what you're doing, where you are, who you're with and if you're okay.

You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and who can protect you from your fears. You need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you especially your flaws. You should be with someone who can make you happy, really happy.

Someone who should've taken the chance to be with you years ago instead of becoming scared and being afraid to try. I am not scared anymore Kate. I am not afraid to try.

That day when I told you about Ben wanting to propose to you was me hoping you would know that you shouldn't be with him, that you should be with me, but when you told me you were unsure of what your answer would be...it broke me.

I was jealous and angry, angry at myself because I didn't tell you there and then, because I didn't make you mine. I knew I would never get the chance to do that ever again if you marry Ben.

My heart broke when I saw the woman I love turning away from me to walk down the isle with another man, a man she planned to spend the rest of her life with, even if she didn't love him. It was like a prison sentence for me - to have years stretching ahead without me being able to tell you how I feel or hold you how I wanted to.

I turned to Kendall as an act of weakness, as an act of...revenge. I wanted to annoy you with her, but I didn't think it through at all and it only drug me further down to this hell I'm living in.

I am not with Kendall, she was around and I was alone.

I can't believe I was actually going to marry her and I wanted you to be there, when in reality you should've been the reason for that day.

I should've never backed away that day at the airport, I should've never panicked, I should've never pulled away. My crush towards you was new and I had no idea what to do with it. I should've never wasted all those years without you.

Twice I let you slip from my fingers, and I fear that it is now too late. Don't waste your time on Ben, this is our opportunity, let's stop being afraid and take the chance.

I promise, I'll make you happy, and if you want me to, meet me where everything started for you. If you show up, I'll know you want this as much as I do.

All my love,

Harry x

I sit back, rereading the card over and over again until I can now memorize the words. I had absolutely no idea on how to feel, all I knew is that two hours have passed and Harry's probably already on his way to New York for the start of his tour.