Ever since, New York [h.s] AU

46 || TOXIC

Harry Styles comes clean!

He took to Instagram a statement in which he explains the whole cheating scandal with mystery woman, who he has explained to be his childhood friend.

"...The only person at fault here was me. I know what I did was wrong, but that made me realize how much I didn't want to get married with Kendall. Not only did she forbid me from seeing my best friend, but my visits back home to my family and friends were limited. I did not want to be in a toxic environment, let alone a toxic marriage." He wrote. "I apologize to Kendall and her family for causing any sort of discomfort. H."

Kendall later tweeted; "toxic." As a mockery to Harry's statement.

I rolled my eyes as I closed my laptop. It was currently 4:15 in the morning and the curtains in my bedroom were drawn so that I was able to see the dark sky outside. Snow covered my windowsill as I looked through it.

Ben was knocked out on his side, soft snores coming from him making me look to him. He looked peaceful and his eyelashes rested just above his cheek. He leaves for America today and I felt a wave of sadness wash over me.

It felt good to have someone that's for you all over again. I enjoyed his company and enjoyed being his, even if it's only been a few days since we began dating.

I hate to wake him, but his flight leaves at 5 and he needs to be there in time. "Ben." I softly whisper while nudging him lightly. He only hums but when I keep it up, he stirs.

"What?" He rasps, opening one eye while he closed the other.

"It's time." I say, gently rubbing his bare back. He flips onto his back and smiles up at me making me do the same.

"Good morning." He says with a yawn. "Wish I had time for breakfast with you."

"I'm afraid coffee is all you're getting." I taunt making him chuckle whilst sitting up, resting his head on my shoulder.

"I'm really going to miss you. We only started dating and I'm already leaving back." He groans.

"I know, I wish you didn't live so far away." I say sincerely. It was annoying that he had to live on another continent.

He stays silent for a while, playing with my fingers before he sits up straight. "What if you come live with me?" He perks up making me look to him in disbelief.

"Absolutely not." I say with a small laugh. There was no way I was going to America. I have a job here and I'm not necessarily fond of leaving my apartment, my mother or Anne.

"Come on, why not?"

"Because." I say. "What if I ask for you to move here?" I shoot back with a raise of my eyebrows.

He shrugs. "I'd do it." He says nonchalant. "I'll move in, do my classes online, find a job."

"That's ridiculous Ben. You can't just up and leave, just like I can't." I say, standing up from the bed.

"If I can buy a ticket a week for every month to come see you, I can move here. Trust me." He replies, standing up and pulling a clean shirt on from his suitcase.

I shake my head. "That alone is crazy, I love that you come see me but the plane tickets are so expensive."

"Which makes the idea so much easier." He smiles making me sigh. I didn't want him to think I don't want him to move in with me, I'd love nothing more than to have him around more often that just one week.

But I can't help but think about Ethan and how we went so wrong. He'd been living with me after 2 months of dating and after a year, he proposed to me.

Things moved so fast with him that I'm afraid that it'll all end up the same way with Ben, even though the rational part of me knows Ben isn't anything like Ethan. But spoken by heart, I wouldn't be able to take another heartbreak.

One was enough.

"We'll talk about it some other time." I simply say before going downstairs to start the coffee maker.