Zuria
1 month laterCrying my eyes out in my mother's lap, she ran her hands through my hair as Ms. Gladys sat on couch on the opposite side of us watching in despair.
"I can't believe he did this." I bawled, trying my hardest not to fall into depression but I couldn't lie I was.
Mitch was on a downward spiral and I figured we would get back together by now but that was completely false.
He had a baby on the way with this new girl and they were both boosting about it all over the city and all over social media. No matter where I turned, I had to hear about it or see about it.
"Zuria, it's going to be okay, baby." My mother assured but I shook my head.
I would never agree with that statement again.
"10 years and this is what he does to me?" I bawled, crying into her lap as my stomach jerked from the nerves.
I was crying so hard that I was starting to get a headache.
"I don't know what's going on with my son and this new girl but I'm not happy about it." Ms. Gladys butted in as I went on crying and my heart continued to shatter every time I thought about it.
Which seemed to be every second at this point.
"I mean don't get me wrong, the girl is completely a sweetheart but this isn't okay." She went onto say, making me look at her in disgust.
"Gladys." My mother spoke sternly as Ms. Gladys looked up.
"What? I'm just saying.." She trailed off with furrowed eyebrows.
"Zuria, you know I love you and you're the only woman I'll acknowledge as Mitch's girlfriend."
"But he has a baby on the way with this other girl now so I had to reconsider just a little bit. She is having my grand baby." She went onto say and I turned my head away from her.
I really didn't need to hear this right now.
"How about we talk later Gladys." My mother said, hinting for her to leave and I sat there, breathing heavily, trying not hyperventilate from all of these tears.
"Alright. I guess I've overstated my welcome." She chuckled softly.
"I'll see y'all later."
"Get better, baby." Was all I heard her say before she left out of the house completely.
When she did, it was like everything became quiet as my mother ran her hands through my hair.
"Zuria, everything's going to be fine, honey."
"You're going to find someone who loves you and you're going to be happy again one day."
"No." I shook my head, sitting up from her lap.
"Stop saying that to me. You don't understand how this feels. You think I want to be in love again after this?"
"You think I want to give my all to any other soul at this point?!" I yelled at her, not even really mad at her but mad at the world.
"Ten years of my life. 13 years old to 23, that's not something you just get over and move on from."
"This is the second baby!" I screamed out.
"It was supposed to be me, not that bitch!" I screamed again as tears poured rapidly from my face.
I was in such pain as my head pounded from the headache I had. I was overly stressed right now but I did not care. My heart was in even more pain.
"Honey-"
"I gave him my virginity, I gave him my childhood and I stayed with him. I rocked with him!"
"Not one baby but now two and I still love him with all my heart." I cried out, just trying to understand why life was so hard for me.
Why was God punishing me this way?
"Zuria, you can't look at it that way, honey."
"What other way is there to look at it, mother? I try my hardest with this man for years and now this random whore comes into his life and everything's all peaches and cream."
"And he had sex with her and had a baby with her as if I don't even exist. As if I didn't want to have a baby too?" I went on, looking at her as she looked at me sympathetically it there wasn't enough sympathy in this word for her to understand how I felt right now.
I was completely broken. Mitch had finally did it, it'd seemed this was his plan all along and now he'd finally succeeded.
I was stuck and broken.
"My virginity. My love. My time. My childhood. I've given him everything, mom." I expressed to her as I slowly shook my head, trying to calm myself now.
"I've done everything to try with him."
"I wanted to have a baby, I did but I just felt like we couldn't do it because of what everybody else thought about us and because of what I felt was right. I thought we would be hurting the baby but I was willing to make it work-"
"Then why did you get the abortion, honey?"
"Because he didn't try!" I yelled, wiping my face.
"He didn't even come to the abortion clinic with me. He left me out for dead, if he really wanted me to have this baby, he would've came and stopped me." I began crying again as I sat there, feeling helpless.
"I just wanted him to prove to me that he wanted this. I just-" I started but stopped, breaking down again.
"I can't believe this." My voice cracked, thinking about this random bitch, having his baby.
While he paraded her around like she'd been down for him like I have. I was so ready to kill him and that bitch, I couldn't even fathom.
"It'll get better, baby. I promise." Was all my mom continued to say and every time she said it made me even angrier.
"Just continue to do what you've been doing and that's working and trying to get your place."
"You can stay here as long as you need, honey. Until things get better." She asked and I busting into tears again, listening to these words.
I didn't believe a word she was saying and I completely came to terms with that. I would never be good again.
Never.
Broken was what I was and what I'd forever be.
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Money Makin' (Completed)
Acción"So when you gon' stop playing and let me hit that shit, Zuria?" Mitch asked while he smoked a blunt in my mother's living room and we both sat on the floor. "Let you hit this?" I asked, raising an eyebrow as I watched him blow smoke into the air. ...