She Taught Me How to LOVE

Chapter 14

Amber’s POV

I keep my eyes close and don’t know how to react. His hand moves to the back of my neck and I start to move my lips with his. His soft lips mold with mine like they were made for each other the taste of mint invading my mouth. I forget the world around me and everything stops. We break away for air but Arson goes ahead and kisses me again. My hands are awkwardly placed in between us and I move them so one is on his chest and the other is behind his neck. I move the hand that was behind his neck up to his hair running my fingers through his brown soft locks forgetting he doesn’t like people touching his hair. For a second he tenses and I’m about to break away from the kiss letting the hand that was in his hair down. He doesn’t let me break the kiss but moves one of his hands to the hand that was just in his hair and takes it moving it back into his hair.

 We break away after a few seconds and I stare into his eyes. He stares right back at me “wow” he breaths out.

“Yeah wow” I breathe back not letting my hands drop from where they were. After a minute I slowly let my hands drop and back away from Arson who is staring at me waiting for me to speak. My brain finally starts working and I just process what I just did “I’m sorry I should not have let that happen.”

“What Amber you can’t be serious?” He looks and sounds taken aback by what I just said and I look away from him ashamed I should be helping him fall in love not kiss him. “Amber look at me.” I keep staring outside not wanting to look at Arson. “I know you have this crazy mission of making me fall in love with someone Amber but I like you okay.” I look at him this time because of what he said. “I know it’s too soon to say things like that Amber but you’re always in my mind. Where ever I go you always invade my thoughts I don’t know why but I know I like it.” I am taking deep breaths know because he doesn’t know how much his speech is hurting me. “I’m not saying that this is me declaring my love for you because I know it is way too soon. I’m not very good at saying my feelings but with you fuck do they come out even ones I didn’t know someone could possibly have. I want to find out what these feelings are Amber so please let me I want to do them with you.” He holds my hands while I stare at him tears threatening to escape my eyes.

“I can’t Arson, I just can’t” I whisper back.

“Yes you can Amber I know you can.”

“No I can’t.”

“Why?”

“I can’t tell you either but I know I can’t Arson.”

“Amber no one knows they can’t do something unless they try it.” A tear escapes my eye and Arson’s thumb brushes it away. “Let’s give it a try just once.” I want to give in I do but I know I can hurt him.

“I don’t want to hurt you Arson.” His thumb is now brushing on my lips as I whisper my words. Both our breaths can be heard as we are breathing hard and he shakes his head.

“I don’t care if I get hurt and I don’t care if you have any secrets because I have many too we will learn them soon enough.” I look at him and it’s hard not to say no to him the look of vulnerability clear on his face.