Everything comes to an end. Everything has their own endings. Nothing is permanent in this world. Sometimes people enters in your life and fuck you up. They will not stay.
Kung baga ang iilan lang sa kanila ay 'napadaan' lang sa buhay mo para bigyan ka ng leksyon. Ng magandang leksyon na dadalhin mo sa susunod na kabanata ng buhay mo. Ang mga leksyon na iyon ang huhubog sayo kung nasaan ka man ngayon.
We should be grateful for that. I think they're also considered as a blessings. Even if they hurt you. Or even if you hurt them. Atleast you learned something about that.
We were perfect. Everything was so fine and I didn't want it to end. I didn't saw it coming. No one saw it coming. We were almost a love story. He was once mine. I was once his.
The way I look at it right now, I just want to smile bitterly and ask myself. Did I do what's right? Is that a wise decision? Pinagsisisihan ko ba ang mga naging desisyon ko?
Maybe, yes. I regret it sometimes. But somehow, I learned that it was a way for me to look at everything. He was my world. I was focused on him. Hindi ko nakikita ang paligid ko na wala siya. Kaya noong nawala siya, doon ko lang narealize na hindi lang pala siya ang mundo ko. May iba pa.
My family who is always at my back. My cousins who never bring me down. And my brother. Masaya ako ngayon. Everything right now is I think, is worth it.
But that's what I thought.
When I saw him after two years, I trembled. I admitted that it was too hard to just move on and forget everything. Alam ko sa sarili kong hindi pa ako ayos. Pero nang makita ko siya ulit, I was shaking than I expected!
Sino iyong kasama niya? Girlfriend ba niya? Bakit ang bilis naman? I mean, I don't have a boyfriend! But I have some guys you can call my flings. Pero boyfriend? Wala pa akong naging boyfriend na iba bukod sa kaniya!
Nagpapasalamat ako dahil niyaya ako ni Derek ng dinner kinabukasan. Derek was my friend right now. Friend lang naman. He never courted me again. Tsaka may nililigawan yata iyon, e.
"Zeth!" Bungad ni Ate sa kwarto ko nang bumisita siya.
Iritado ko siyang nilingon habang maingat na naglalagay ako ng eyeliner. The other one is done but I'm suffering on the other side. Kailangan ng focus.
"What?"
She looked at me in the mirror and smiled widely. "May lakad ka?"
That voice meant something. Padabog kong binaba ang pencil eyeliner na hawak ko.
Tinitigan ko siya. "I'm busy, Ate. May date ako. Ano na naman ba?"
"May lakad din kami ni Vander! Isama mo na si Isla-"
"No!" Agap ko kaagad.
She pouted. Umirap ako. Her natural pink lips won't do anything to change my mind. Pinagpatuloy ko ang paglagay ng eyeliner. It was perfect so I sighed.
She just watched me. Inirapan ko siya ulit. Ang ate ko'y mukhang walang asawa at kaedad ko lang. Mukhang wala ding anak.
"Sige na! Bibilhin ko na iyong Pendora Box na gusto mo!"
Natigilan ako. I stared at her. She really knows how to get me. "Ilang oras?"
"Two or three-"
"What?! Paano ang dinner date ko!"
"Isama mo na! Sino ba 'yan? 'Yung foreigner ba o iyong model?"
At kailan niya naman nalaman iyong kay Zero Monasterio?
