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C. 12

The shock of hearing what I am left me frozen for so long and I had no idea how to process it so I had excused myself to the bed and I had laid there for some time, unmoving and empty minded. I assume Niklaus thought I had fallen asleep because after a while I heard the scribble of a pen on paper and knew he was writing something in that book again and I wanted to turn and ask what he was writing but part of me knew I shouldn't because it was obviously private if he only writes when I sleep and gets rid of it when I wake, so I waited until he had finished his scribbling to turn and ask the question that had been tugging at my mind since he said it hours before.

"Niklaus?"

He had been staring into the fire when I called his name, at the mention of his name he looked towards me and raised his eyebrows slightly, sending the message that I now had his attention.

"If the heavens are going to kill me, why take on the burden of caring for something that is sure to die anyway?"

He inhaled deeply, "I don't know Beasty, gives me something to pass the time with I guess."

"How long did it take them to kill the others?" I asked.

He thought to himself for a moment. "Claudius was the first and longest living one, he survived for twenty-six years but the others had the better part of two years I believe."

"Oh." I said as I laid my head back on the pillow and pulled the blanket up to cover my shoulders.

"Are you afraid Beasty?" He asked, I met his eyes and I couldn't lie nor could I avoid his question. "I'm terrified Niklaus, absolutely terrified."

The cave fell silent for a little more than a minute, Niklaus had turned to look back into the fire before giving his last sentence.
"As you should be Beasty."

We didn't speak for some time after that, I had too much on my mind to sleep so I just laid and stared at the ceiling while Niklaus sat in his chair and stared into the flames of the fireplace. It was not an awkward silence, it felt needed, because although we barely speak it feels like there has been enough said to last me a lifetime, especially since it won't last to the end of the year.

I truly can't believe I went from being a plain waitress at a small unimportant diner to learning that I am a creature that the heavens will go out of their way to get rid of. My ancestors had about two years and they were just plain old demon wolves, while me, I am that and also a Nephilim, so I am demon abomination and angel. The heavens will stop at nothing to get rid of me and I don't blame them, instead I blame myself for being born the way I am, and for working in that diner, and for letting Niklaus find me. I was in the wrong place at the wrong time like I always am, like I have always been, I wish they would kill me now instead of letting me sit in anticipation and also putting Niklaus in harms way.

Despite this partially being his fault I don't wish for him to die because of me, because we were both unaware of the monster I am. He was just trying to do what he thought was right and claim a beast to protect and train to not be evil, now he's stuck here with me and my fate. I barely know him and even without this connection that makes me crave him I still wouldn't wish for him to die because of me.

While my mind swam in deep thoughts a large rumbling growl echoed through the cave. My eyes stared wide into the ceiling and I could feel his eyes staring at me but I refused to look at him in hopes that maybe he would assume it was a sound in his mind.

"Beasty?"

I turned to look at him. "Yes Niklaus."

"When was the last time you ate?" He asked.

I squinted my eyes and thought for a moment, trying to recall the last time I did eat something and I came to the realization that it had been a while.