Their Destiny (COMPLETED/EDITING)

Anger

I can't put in to words the feeling I had when he grabbed that diamond. How ashamed and angry I was at myself, I had no business taking this diamond, I had no business invading his privacy this way. Yes of course it is shady owning such a thing at the first place, but stealing it from my so-called boyfriend?! That was low, even for me.

We were both on our feet now, silence all over. I was speechless with teary eyes; however, Arsen had a blank stare on his face until he looked up to me with angry eyes.

"Why!?" He took fast steps to get close to me grabbing my upperarms powerfully with his breath pacing in anger. I kept crying with no words to say; nothing to defend myself with. "Why?? I don't understand,, I'm fuming!" He sighed letting go of me. He stayed still for almost a minute as if he was putting his thoughts together, or perhaps trying not to shoot me. Then he broke the silence.

"Your curiosity will either be the death of one us, or both of us. But you can't say I didn't try to keep you away from the chaotic truth!" His expressions shifted from being mad angry to being calm angry, which is scarier. "I will report the airline you're not feeling well and find someone to cover the flights for you tonight. And by tomorrow I'd like to be informed that you've asked to be moved to another crew."

He made his way to the door and with his hand on the handle he said "You're on your own now."

And with that he left. He left me. I laid on the couch staring at the ceiling too sad too angry that my mind went blank. Not a single thought and not a single plan, only an overwhelming painful desire to stop feeling anything at all, or to maybe just disappear. The vibe surrounding me was dark and sad, and I couldn't help but thinking that it all could've been okay if Arsen hadn't found the diamond; if I hadn't taken it the first place.

My misery was interrupted by a phone call from perhaps the least dramatic person in my life currently, Jane.

"Hey baby." She cheered. "Welcome back!"

"Huh." I mumbled with no intention to interact with living beings.

"You free?" She asked sounding concerned.

"Uh-huh."

"Alright I'm on my way." I hung up knowing there's nothing I can say to her, but I may have needed to talk to someone cuz otherwise I'll lose my sanity. The couch was then my new best friend, I didn't want to leave it and most certainly wasn't ready to face the outer world. Even Jane showing up at my place made me talk out loud about all the mistakes I've made and was trying to avoid feeling it.

"I can't even tell who's mistaken anymore." She murmured scratching the back of her head. "I think this all just had to end anyway, one way or another."

"I don't want to hear this." interrupted her as I'd already said it all to myself, I needed no more guilt.

"Yea well you need to!" She said in a sharp tone I'm not used to from her. "What kind of twisted love spell has this man threw over you that makes u so madly in to him that you're too blinded to see that maybe this isn't something you should stick to?"

"It's funny how you actually think I'm enjoying any of this?!" I yelled back. "All I know is I'm in love with him and I don't have an actual solid proof on him being a bad person."

"Actual proof?! You need actual proof?! How about him saying it's all too dark, it's messy, I can't protect you? Or do you need him to stab someone in the heart before your eyes to know that he's just not a peaceful good person." To anyone Jane was making so much sense, to anyone but me.

"Well maybe his life is not peaceful, maybe his life is hard and messy, but that doesn't mean he is too." I argued back. "Plus, I take the blame too. I shouldn't have ever followed him or stole that diamond."

"Why does he have that diamond at the first place?!"

"That's not my business."

"Uh! He's your BOYFRIEND!" She muttered loudly. "His business is your business, especially if it's shady business!"

"I could've just asked instead of stealing it you know."

"Des you're impossible! As if he would've told you the truth." She said sarcastically with apparent signs of anger.

"He might have."

"That's it, I rest my case. You are either under a spell, or you've completely lost your mind." She added. "Or you just have a death wish."

"Whatever, you won't get it anyways."

Jane hung around for a while; we changed the topic and Arsen wasn't mentioned again. She helped me unpack my clothes as I was in too much of a bad mood to bother with any chore. Jane's bright character and loud laughs kind of cheered me up, it was as if everything just paused as she was with me and I forgot that I will have a drastic shift in my career and my personal life even. But just like every good thing, it doesn't last forever and Jane left taking away my peace with her.

Night time is usually the best time for me to organize my thoughts. So after checking my phone that was flooded with text messages from the crew checking on me and asking if I was okay after not showing up for the flight, I made myself a cup of coffee and cleared my head to think. To logically think for myself.

Jane is right, the universal signs were there! Pfft, since day one he almost ran over me with his car. Every time I got closer to him something bad would happen. I was scared a lot ever since I met him, I was threatened, confused, even foolish. And finally, I faced myself with the truth I was for so long trying to ignore: maybe Arsen and I are not meant to be together. Maybe I should let it go.

And at last I decided to make some logical decisions:
First, I will present a request to change my crew, I can use a fresh start anyways.
Second, I will no longer obsess over Arsen, I will let him go. After a sincere apology of course.
Third, it will all about me from now on. I will be my own priority.
Fourth, NO MORE CURIOSITY. 

If you truly know me, you should know I'm a very hesitant person. The simplest thing can make me doubt my choices and rethink them. But I seemed to have a good will to take those steps and to stick to them. God knows I was going to. In fact, I actually did For three days.

Because in the morning of the fourth day as I was headed to work I found a box in front of my door. The first time in a very long while for me to receive a mysterious surprise. But if all the previous ones were unsettling and odd, this one was scary. So scary it sent chills down my spine and to say it took away my breaths would be an understatement.

After 3 quiet and peaceful days, someone sent me a picture of a death certificate from 2 years ago. A death certificate of someone who, to my knowledge, isn't dead.