Dancing On Thin Ice // KTH

Chapter 52

The car rumbled beneath Carmela as it sped on top the concrete road, almost racing the setting sun.

She spied the curly haired boy driving in the seat next to her, and she pursed her lips, sitting up straighter in the seat. The air was thick and tense, and her heart quivered from the sickening silence between them.

She couldn't really believe that she had made it to the stage where she actually cried after someone. Crying? And Carmela Lee? For a boy? Ha. They don't say life is full of surprises for nothing.

But she never would've imagined herself in this state, wanting a person so bad that every time she saw him she just wanted to scream out and hug him. Now... he was sitting right next to her... and she couldn't even look his way.

They had to stay apart though... for the love of fucking friendship.

A shimmering lake appeared in Carmela's window and she gazed at it, awestruck. The sky-coloured water gleamed in the middle of a furry forest. It was so beautiful. Carmela lifted her hand, pressing her fingertips to the glass.

Suddenly, she sensed Tae moved beside her and turned to him. Her heart lept with shock. He was steering the car with one hand and holding out his phone towards her with the other.

"What are you doing?" She snapped, putting her hand back in her lap.

"Nothing."

"That's illegal." She mumbled.

"I'm not texting or anything. J-just taking a picture." He pointed out Carmela's window. "Of the lake. It's um... it's for my little sister. She loves the water."

"Me too." Carmela blurt out, forgetting they weren't talking. She quickly shut up and stared in front at the road.

"Carmela... I can't..." Tae suddenly began, his deep voice breaking.

"W-what? Can't what?" She replied, looking at him softly.

"I can't... forget you."

Her lungs stopped and a deep thud pounded through her.

"What I said back there on the roof... I meant it." Tae said.

"What did you say?" She asked, breathless because she knew what he was talking about.

"You know." He looked at her suddenly, his dark eyes traveling all over her face and trailing down to her lap. Carmela sucked in a breath through her nose, but she couldn't exhale. She was frozen by his stare. But he quickly looked back at the road, his face flushed.

Why... why did she want a guy who'd break because of her... why did she want him so bad that--

"At least we're here now. I get to look at you like that. For the last time." Tae spoke staring at the road, his face hardening.

Last time...?

Her heart stopped as a quick tear trickled down her cheek and before she could think about anything else, she unclicked her seatbelt and lifted her face up to him, softly pressing her lips to his parted ones. He gasped against her mouth in surprise, his dilated eyes darting to her and then to the road. Carmela leaned into him and he lowered his head to hers. His tongue slipped inside her mouth and his teeth gnawed at her lips, making her legs tremble. She melted her lips agaisnt his, licking every part of his mouth...

For the last time.

Their breaths grew faster and she fluttered her heavy eyes, drunk from the sweet taste of him. Tae held her chin with one hand but it moved to the side of her face as she leaned into him, panting for air. She deepened the kiss, sucking his bottom lip, making him groan against her mouth.

Her hands reached over and found the buckle of his jean's belt, her fumbling fingers quickly undoing it.

"Hey." Tae panted. "What--"

"Let me." Carmela whispered against his mouth and she felt him shiver as he adjusted his hand on the steering wheel.

He lifted himself up for a second and she pushed down his pants and boxers. Carmela felt his hard dick fall into her hands and she tore her lips away from his panting mouth, lowering her head to his pelvis. Her insides trembled as she slid her tongue over the side it before taking him into her mouth. Tae groaned and his hips thrust into her, pushing his cock further down her throat and she sucked in her cheeks, slurping him.

"Fuck..." Tae moaned, his face flushed with pleasure.

Carmela swirled her tongue around his dick and bobbed her head, sliding him in and out of her mouth. He shifted in his seat and she could feel his panting chest, as he put a hand gently on her back.

A spark of pain thudded through her heart as she thought about him... about every single thing they'd been through... about every single word... he wasn't like anyone she'd ever met.

And she... loved him for that.

Tae trembled against her as she picked up speed, her heart pounding dangerously inside her chest, her mouth sucking in his cock that was hardening even more, his growling gasps filling the car, the sweet smell of him drunkening her senses--

She pulled away from him and panted, sitting up in her seat, shivering. Tae gazed at her, out of breath.

"Babe, what happened? You okay?" He asked, leaning down, trying to look at her face. She didnt answer and heard him take a deep breath and zip his pants back up.

She cleared her throat, glancing at him with hooded eyes.

"Tae, I-I feel the same way about you." Carmela nervously said, gazing out the window. "But if being together means hurting people... then we got no choice. This isn't gonna work."

"Hell, there's gotta be a way." He grunted, flexing his jaw, his dark eyes staring at the road.

"There isn't. Because you don't wanna do anything about it." She said, but regretted her words as he glanced at her.

"What? What do you mean?"

"Whatever, Tae. It doesn't matter. It doesn't because Hosi's always gonna be more important. I get that." She gazed out her window, trying to keep her voice strong and steady.

"Carmela, do you not believe me or something? Hosi and you are not the same! You're completely different."

She snapped around to face him, finally letting out the words stuck in her heart.

"I know! He's your fucking best friend and you clearly need him more than me! Your so called LOVE is bullshit! And I'm not upset. Im not gonna drag myself into your bullshit. Whatever, Tae, whatever. I. Don't. Care!" She finished, huffing angrily.

The car went silent for a few minutes and Carmela impatiently listened to the buzz of the driving vehicle.

Then he spoke again.

"You think I... I don't love you?" Tae said softly.

"If you did, i-it wouldn't be like this." Carmela replied, her voice shaking as her heavy heart thumped in her chest. She just wanted him to do something about Hosi, something that could let them be together--

"You're right." Wait... what?

"Huh?" Carmela turned to his expressionless face.

"What? I just said you're right. I don't fucking love you." He smirked and let out a soft laugh. "Know what? Imma just say it to your face Carmela, since this obviously isn't going anywhere."

"W-wha--" She breathed, frozen by his sudden change of behaviour.

"I've never loved you... I just love the way you make me feel, Carmela. What you just did? Fucking incredible, babe. I'm in love with the sex." His lips twitched into a smirk as Carmela's vision darkened.

She felt dizzy in her car seat and felt the sudden urge to throw up.

He... this... wait... why...