I love you, I lied [COMPLETED]

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Lauren's POV

It's almost a month. Paulit ulit nalang yung routine namin. As usual, pinipilit niya ako sa mga bagay na gusto niya, pero todo kontra pa rin ako. Walang araw na hindi ko binabalak takasan 'to.

"Don't give me that look."

Binaba ko yung tinidor ko na kanina ko pa pinaglalauran. We're having dinner right now.

"I wanna go out. " Utos ko.

"If you weren't giving me attitude then maybe we were already going to places."

Tumayo ako at akmang aalis na nang bigla siyang nagsalita.

"If you'll agree to sleep with me, maybe we can go out."

Nilingon ko siya.

"No thanks. I rather rot in my room." Pagmamatigas ko.

Padabog akong umakyat sa kwarto ko at naglock.

Nandidiri nako sa sarili ko. I can't believe I'm having sex with same person every night.  Yes, I have no choice, I miss sex.  I can't have sex with his butlers or body guards. Ew.

Sex is like a drug. I want it. I don't want anything from him unless it's sex. We're both benefiting so it's fine.

Humiga nako sa kama at napapikit.

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Next morning, I woke up and went downstairs. I was expecting to see him having his coffee but he's not here.

"Mam maaga pong umalis si Sir. May meeting po kasi." Sabi nung maids.

Kinuha ko yung cup of tea ko at ininom. Wala akong magawa, habang nainom ng tea naglakad ako papunta sa kwarto ni Colt.

Bukas naman ito lagi kaya pumasok nako agad. Pinatong ko yung cup ko sa  table niya. Nilibot ko yung tingin ko.

"Wala naman akong mapapala dito e." Sabi ko.

I was about to get my cup when I saw his card holder. Kinuha ko ito at binuksan.

"Maybe I have something to do after all..." Sabi ko.

Kinuha ko yung card holder niya at lumabas na ng kwarto niya. Well, if I can't go outside then I'll just shop online.

Colt's POV

Dere deretso akong naglakad papunta sa kusina. It's 8pm. I was hoping I would saw Lauren having dinner but she's not here.

"Where's Lauren?" Tanong ko sa mga maids.

"S-Sir, nasa kwarto niya po."

Tumalikod nako at pumunta sa hagdan. Habang naglalakad ako paakyat, puro paper bags and wrappers ng designer brands.  Pagpunta ko sa tapat ng kwarto niya, sakto at kakalabas lang ng mga maids dala dala ang maraming paper bags at mga basura. Nang makalabas ito pumasok nako.

"No. I want the pink one and the white one. Yes..... And add the new spike heels. ...Yes the black one....okay thank you." Sabi nito sa kausap niya.

Punong puno ng mga kung ano ano ang loob ng kwarto niya. Lumapit ako sakanya na nakaupo sa kama. Busy na busy ito na sinusuri yung bag mula sa Hermes.

"Sana pala yung white nalang kinuha ko. Nevermind I'll just get it too--- oh, welcome home."

"What's all of this?" Pagtataka ko.

"Well hindi mo naman ako pinapayagan lumabas. So I just shopped online. Bukas ko na isosoli credit cards mo. Kailangan ko pa e."

"You can have it. I'm happy you're enjoying. You can tell me if there's anything you want." Sagot ko.

"I will. Wala naman nakong kelangan. Your credit card is enough." Sagot nito.

Lauren's POV

Andito kami ngayon ni Colt sa pool side at nakaupo. Nakababag yung binti namin sa pool.  I'm wearing a bikini, well wala naman akong balak mag swimming, I just wanna try out this bikini. Sinamahan niya lang ako pero I don't mind.

It's 10pm. We're just having wine.

"About your family, why do hate them so much?" Tanong nito.

I took a sip on my glass.

"They wanted me to help them with our company. I always told them that it's not my passion. Then one day, I told my mom I wanna do modeling....she got mad because I shouldn't be thinking about doing other job and I should start to help with ours like Kuya... i always hated them for not letting me do the things I want. " I stopped for a moment.

"I secretly did modeling when I was 16. Then I moved out of the house when I was 18 and I lived by myself ever since then. I became successful by that age." I continued.

"But why were you always using drugs? Smoke? And even alcohol usage."

"I don't know to be honest... I-I  was always alone and I work all day and all night. I feel so lonely that time and I think about how my parents hate me for doing my job since it's useless."

"I choose to get high and get drunk because somehow I forget that I was in pain..."

I can't help but to cry. Fuck. This is why I don't talk about my family.

"Kapag uuwi ako sa bahay ko, mag-isa lang ako. Kaya mostly nagbabar kami so I can be with someone to sleep with. Pero ayoko namang magkaboyfriend kasi hindi ako marunong magmahal. Magbilis ako magsawa."

Pinunasan ko yung luha ko.

"I never let any guy in. Unless they're just gonna go in my pants. But other than that, I don't have any relationship with them."

Napatingin ako sa kamay namin dahil naramdaman kong hinawakan niya ito.

"I'm here, Lauren. You don't have to feel that you're alone. "

He held my chin to lift it up. We stared at each other.

"Just give me a chance. Try to let me in your heart. I won't hurt you I promise. And I will never leave you."

Unti unti akong lumapit sakanya.

"I-I..."

Hindi ko natapos yung sasabihin ko. Ayoko rin namang sabihin.

Pumikit nalang ako at hinalikan siya sa labi. This time, iba yung pakiramdam habang naghahalikan kami. It feels right.

He was kissing me gently. He stopped for a while looked at my eyes.

"I love you so much...Just give a chance...." He said between our kisses.

A big part of me is pushing me to say yes. Who wouldn't say yes to him? He looks so damn handsome and he has a hot body. And he's good in bed.

Ew. Am I fantasizing him?!

"Y-yes..." Pilit kong sagot.

Sinunggaban niya naman ako ng halik pagkasagot ko. I grabbed his neck to come closer.

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