I love you, I lied [COMPLETED]

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Lauren's POV

After my photoshoot today, I went straight to the Lux night bar. It's 11am but it's open.

"You know, we shouldn't be here. We both have kids." Sabi ni Gabbi.

I'm with Gabbi. I told her I wanted someone to talk to.

Napainom ako sa shot glass ko.

"Sis, may problema ba? C'mon you can tell me." Sabi nito.

I can't help but to cry.

Tangina. Kahit ako hindi ko na alam ginagawa ko.

Lumapit sakin si Gabbi at niyakap ko.

"Lauren..." Tawag nito.

"I know I'm not a good mom, Gabbi. I always know that...."

"Fuck haha....I can't take care of the kids...alam mo kung hindi dahil kay Trevor, baka pinamigay ko na nga yan e. Pero tangina, sawang sawa nako magsinungaling na parang walang nangyari. Na wala akong anak....ang hirap magpigil na tigilan yung bad habits ko just for the sake of the twins...."

"I love my daughters, Gabbi....but I'm not ready for all of this."

Pinunasan ko yung luha ko.

"Lauren. It's been six years! Ngayon mo pa sinasabi yan? You know what, you're a fucking great mom. Look at me, kahit naman ako unexpected na nabuntis. None of this was my plan, but I did everything just for my child."

Tinignan ko naman siya.

"You don't get it, I just want my life back. Minsan nahuhuli pako ng mga anak ko using drugs, nagsisinungaling sila para sakin. Pinagtatakpan pa nila ako lalo na kay Trevor." Seryoso kong sabi.

"I'm not saying I don't want the kids. I'm not ready, I still doing my bad habits. Believe me, I'm trying my best to stop....."

"I want to come back when I'm okay. I don't want them to lie for me anymore. I don't want to sneak out every time they sleep because I'm gonna use drugs."

I know I need to stop for my kids.

Hinawakan ni Gabbi yung kamay ko.

"Lauren, you're a good mom. You're trying your best. "

"I know. Kaya nga ayokong magaya sakin ang mga anak ko, I never felt my mom's love for me. You know that she's always busy especially dad. I want to change, Gabbi. I don't want to be my mom." Seryoso kong sabi.

"Alam ko, Lauren. Mahal ka ng kambal kahit ano ka pa-----"

Biglang may nagnotif sakanya.

"Holy shit! I forget to pick my kid!" Sabi nito.

Parehas lang sila ng school ng kambal.

"C'mon I'll go with you. Susunduin ko na rin yung kambal." I said.

Tumayo na kami at umalis.

Colt's POV

Pumunta ako sa clinic ni Trevor. One of my body guards opened the door for me.

"Colt." Tawag nito.

Sinarado nung body guard ko yung pinto.

"Where's Lauren?" Tanong ko rito.

"Wala siya dito." He said and went back to typing.

Nilibot ko yung tingin ko sa opisina niya. He has Lauren's picture everywhere and even the twins.

"I really don't like when someone owns her pictures." I said.

"Don't be stupid. Everyone has her picture. She even knows that her picture is here." Sabi nito.