Boku No Hero Academia One Shots [Book 2]

Izuku Midoriya

Trigger Warnings: Suicide Note, Implied Suicide.

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"Forgive me."

Izuku, I'm so sorry I had to leave you behind. I didn't want to - trust me, I didn't want to! But...I had to. This won't be easy to understand, I'm sure, so I'll explain...I'm sorry for being so selfish. I'm sorry I had to cut things short. I'm sorry that we can't make any more memories together. There were so many things we couldn't share. Just know that I miss you, and I will always, always love you. And, if fate wills that I'm reincarnated, I will find you again, I promise! I just can't do...this. I'm so tired. So, so tired. And now, I can sleep for a really long time! So please don't mourn. I was never truly happy - unless we were together, of course! That's why, while this is painful, especially sitting here writing this...I finally feel free.

I'm crying though, of course I am! I can cry for you too, so don't dampen this note! I'll watch out for you, just like I promised in life! You'll be the greatest hero, and I'll be right there with you! And I was thinking...hey, I know this will be hard, like...really hard, because your love for me was always so genuine, so pure! But...you really need to move on. Accept my death as quickly as possible, and move on! I love you, and I'm sure you'll be happy again soon, with someone else. I'm pretty sure Uraraka likes you, and maybe even Bakugou. Oh, and...you two - watch out for each other, alright? I know this won't be easy at first, but you will overcome it! You're strong. All of you are so, so strong!

Okay, okay...so I guess I'm stalling for time. I figured you'd read the entire note. You really like reading, huh? I guess you really are a nerd. But...I think that's one of your best qualities! I want to be by your side as you flourish. But I can't, at least not physically. And I am so sorry. I feel like I've already written this a million times...Maybe I have? I can't express how guilty...how bad I feel for leaving you behind. I really can't. I hope you don't hate me now, Izuku. This world is suffocating. I don't fit in. I'm not the ideal. I don't work. I can't seem to do anything right. I've never felt good enough - not even acceptable! I always thought that my friendships were false. I have nothing to offer them, so why would they want to be near me? But then I met you. I still remember that day vividly, y'know.

Every time that memory replays in my mind, I fall in love with you again. It's my fondest memory, and it's what I'll think about when I go. I guess I just wanted you to know how much you truly mean to me. I can't...I can't ever say "I love you" again, but please, please know that I do! I love you! I've been living for your sake, for the past few years, but I can't carry on. Please don't ever blame yourself. You have a tendency to do that, don't you? This was inevitable. You couldn't have prevented it. You couldn't have talked me down. I love you, unconditionally, but I hate life. I hate how it drained and victimised me. I really felt like I didn't know myself for a while. I couldn't find 'me'. Do you know what that's like? It's painful. It's so much worse. I know this note is dragging on, but it's probably the last thing you'll ever receive from me, so...

I had to take a few deep breaths there, actually! Gods, you're making me hesitate! I won't tell you where to find me, because if I do, you'll definitely come looking. I'm sure it'll be plastered all over the news soon anyway, as much as I hate that...I was in pain. I lost my battle. So what? How come people can capitalise on that?

But...I can tell you this: I'm going to fall. Far. It'll be quick, and it won't hurt for long, so you don't have to worry so much! I promise you that I'll be fine. And, if I can't come back, then I'll wait for you! I'll wait as long as I need to! Don't hurry to meet me again. Please...live a long, fulfilled life! And if ever you fall out of love with me - if you fall for someone who isn't dead, I'll still be yours, always! You can come back to me. I'll be a friend, or a lover, if you still want me. Don't ever give up, Izuku! See your goals through to the end! Become the next Symbol of Peace - the hero everyone adores! I will always adore you. Forever. Don't miss me too much, okay?

I AM HERE to love you, forever and always!!  - (Y/n).

His world fractured at a single, horrified glance toward the paper. Its contents were obvious, without necessitating study or theory. There were no secrets, only heartfelt apologies and tearful goodbyes. Something - maybe love, maybe grief - compelled him to read it in full. But by the end, your plea not to tarnish the paper with tiny drops of water had gone unheeded. It honestly seemed trivial in comparison to the emotions overwhelming him. Loss, despondency, guilt, regret...there could be nothing positive. He swallowed down the anger, but the heartbreak shook his bones.

It was poison, it was malice...it was terrifying. He couldn't serve you fault, but he just didn't understand...Why? Who? Were you...already...? Did you ever seek help? And...did anyone respond? Were you abandoned by society, and reclaimed by nature? Why hadn't he known?! He was renowned for his hawk-like observation, but...was this his failure? That he hadn't paid attention, hadn't reached out because...because your smile was a permanent fixture, your laugh bubbly and contagious? He aspired to play the hero, but he couldn't save you!

...Why couldn't he save you?

"I forgive you. Please, please come back..."

[Word Count: 1012]