Hope so, Hope not

Chapter 15

AYA's POV ✨

"Ms. Swift, I know you already had an idea, but I'd like to talk to you," Coach Harold (the coach of the varsity team in basketball) said.

"If it is about being representative of the team, I will reject the offer right away," I said.

"Yes, it is about it, Miss Swift, but you couldn't reject it this time since the board and the school dean also agreed about it, even the whole team," he said.

"Oh come on, sir, How could they make a decision without my permission, and even if they all agreed, I still didn't want it; sorry, but it's still a no from me.I'm sorry". I apologized before I walked out of the faculty.

Then when I arrived at the dorm, my friends stayed quiet. I know they know that I don't want it, and I can see through their faces that they already knew about it, but they respected me, so they stayed entirely.

I stayed in my bed after I showered and changed my clothes.

I was thinking about the offer. I know I was selfish to reject the bid, but I couldn't stop overthinking.

Yes, I wasn't considering them, but I just can't.

The next day,

I remained silent with my friends the whole day, even though I knew they were worried. I know they were frightened, but they also remained silent, and I know they respected me. That's why they did that.

After the class, I spent an hour in the library before going back to our dorm.

A day had passed, and it was already Thursday night.

Kate went inside my room and talked to me.

"Hi, can I come in?" she asked me.

"Yeah, sure," I said.

"I know you're still bothered about the offer of being the representative of the school, but I respect how you feel, so whatever your decision is, we will support it, okay," she assured me.

"Thank you," I replied.

Don't think too much about it, okay?" she added, and I nodded.

Then after that, she went back to her room, and I stayed like that in my bed before I went to sleep.

Friday, before next week (the inter-school competition)

We walked silently towards our room to attend our first class in the morning.

Hey, cheer up, aya. No matter what your decision is, we will support you, okay, "Kyla said.

Somehow, I feel comfortable with them.

We attended our class the whole day, then I went to meet my org mates before I talked to Coach Harold. He gave me a few days to still think about it, but I was sure of my decision. I know it will sound like I'm selfish, but I just can't. I'm too afraid to try again.

After thinking, I went inside the gym, where there is a faculty for the professor.

"Ms. Swift, you're here. You may sit first before we talk about your decision, "he said.

So I sit and wait for him to talk again.

"I know you're still on your decision since the last time I talked to you, but just please consider our request not for us but for the school," he said, like he was begging for my approval.

After a minute of silence, I spoke.

"I'm sorry, sir, it may sound like I'm too selfish for it, but I just can't for some personal reasons, and I hope you understand and respect my decision," I said.