ZaintSee

The Hardest Scene

***Based on Ep.12. No smut this time but I'll make it up to you all! Trigger warning for the acting out of the noncon scene***

Zee woke up at 4AM after a restless night and spent the next 2 hours lost in thought. He had been dreading today, he didn't want to film this scene. He knew it was just acting, that he wouldn't really be hurting the man he loved or that Saint would be hurting him but that gnawing feeling in the pit of his stomach wouldn't go away. Today they were filming the breakup scene between Fighter and Tutor. Zee couldn't imagine the agony of losing Saint bet he knew he would never react the way the script called for Fighter to. No matter the circumstances Zee would never force himself on anyone, let alone the man he loved. He shook the thoughts away and snuggled closer to Saint to enjoy the last 5 minutes they had in bed before the alarm signaled it was time to begin their day.

They showered together and Zee couldn't stop himself touching and kissing Saint every 5 seconds. There was no intent behind his actions apart from wanting to show Saint how much he was adored. Saint returned the kisses and touches happily, knowing that Zee was uneasy about today. They dried and dressed quickly then Saint made them breakfast."I love you my Bunny, you know that right?" He asked for what must be the 100th time that morning. "Of course I do Zee, and I love you too." Saint replied placing a kiss on Zee's cheek as he cleared their plates. "Come on my love," He continued "it's time to leave now."  What ever happened today Saint would be there for Zee and do what ever it took to make sure he was OK.

They were soon on set and getting there hair and make up done. They thanked the staff and made their way to the location. The second they arrived Zee could feel the heavy atmosphere. The staff knew this was going to be a hard scene for everyone involved so there was non of the usual happy banter that usually flowed while filming.  They greeted Saint and Zee as they always did but then there was quiet from everyone as they discussed their scene with the director. He told them what he wanted but that he understood how emotionally charged it was going to be.

It started off well enough, the arguing and hurt that Fighter were feeling was easy enough to act for Zee, who hasn't felt those emotions? And Saint was amazing at sending his emotions to get the best performance from Zee which as always spread a warmth through Zee's heart. Then came the part that Zee had been dreading. They were inside the apartment arguing again, Fighter was begging Tutor not to leave him. Zee felt this to his core he would be destroyed if Saint ever left him. As Fighter he begged and cried and pleaded Zee could feel himself becoming overwhelmed by the emotions this scene was bringing out in him.

With tears welling up in his eyes, Zee followed the directions he was given. He said his line and pushed Saint, NO! Tutor. It wasn't him and Saint, it was Fighter and Tutor. Zee had to keep reminding himself or he'd break before he could finish the scene. Fighter pushed Tutor down on the bed harshly. Determined to prove the younger still loved him. Fighter pinned Tutor to the bed and began to force himself upon his junior. Zee knew he had another line but feeling the man he loved unresponsive beneath him was messing with his mind. He finally remembered and delivered his line then Fighter continued his assault. He violently kissed Tutors neck and the parts of his chest that he could get to, before finally reaching down between his legs.

Fighter was desperately trying to prove that Tutor still loved him, still wanted him, but finding him still flaccid finally broke the spell he was under and Fighter threw himself to the ground sobbing, completely broken. The line between Fighter and Zee was gone at that point. Both were heartbroken and disgusted by their actions. The director yelled cut and Saint immediately ran to Zee. When it was clear Zee couldn't stop crying, the director called it a day and told Saint to take Zee home and calm him down.

The car ride home was a blur for Zee, Saint kept trying to talk to him, reassure him it was over, that he was ok, but Zee couldn't stop the tears from flowing. He was breathing faster and faster as he continued to sob, he was so distracted he barely noticed Saint leading him to his apartment. Saint was so worried for the man he loved. He knew how hard Zee took certain scenes but he had never seen his boyfriend so completely destroyed as he was now.

Saint lead Zee to the bedroom reassuring him with every step they took. He lay them down on the bed so Zee was in his arms with his head on his chest. Zee was mumbling apologies between hiccuping sobs as he buried his face into Saint chest. Saint was convinced Zee was going start hyperventilating so he had to do something before that happened. "Zee," he said in his most forceful voice, causing the other to look up "I know you can't help crying but I need you to be good for me and focus on your breathing." Zee continued crying into his chest but Saint felt him nodding. "Always so good for me Zee." Saint said stroking Zee's hair. "Now I need you to breath in slowly OK?"

Zee focused on Saint's calming voice and hands and tried his best to follow Saint's instruction. He breathed in slow and deep, tears still flowing. "Always so good for me my love." Saint said dropping kisses to Zee's hair. "Now out, nice and slow." He continued and again Zee complied. "Perfect. Now can you keep doing that for me?" He asked continuing to stroke Zee's hair and back. Zee was doing his best to do as his boyfriend asked and between the soothing words and touches he was doing well. Saint was relieved that Zee's breathing had steadied. Saint would do this all night if that was what Zee needed. After a while the crying stopped and Zee's breathing evened out as exhaustion over took him and he fell into a troubled sleep.