ZaintSee

Planning Time

**Sorry for the long wait. This has a bit of sadness which I'm not good at so I hope you all still enjoy this chapter**

Now that all their fans knew about the wedding Saint and Zee decided to actually set a date. They'd discussed it with all of their parents and had already decided the wedding would be in London as Saint had cousins who lived there and he and Zee had always wanted to explore England. They decided to have the wedding and one week family holiday there before having a week in Paris just the two of them.

They started by looking at where they could get married. Saint liked the idea of a traditional English church while Zee was more interested in having an outdoor wedding. It took a lot of searching but they finally found a perfect compromise.

It was a church that had been mostly destroyed in WW2 but had been kept as it was as a reminder of all those who died. Nature had reclaimed most of it but the structure that remained was eerily beautiful. It was a perfect combination just like the couple themselves.

Next they had to decide what sort of clothes they wanted to wear. They had several friends who were designers so decided to design their own and keep it as a surprise from each other until the big day. Saint was so excited with the idea of having a surprise for each other but every time he thought of something he might like Zee was the first person he wanted to share it with. To some extent Zee was the same but for him there was this underlying fear that he wouldn't measure up to how amazing Saint would look. He shared his concerns with Saint who reassured his fiancee that Zee could walk down the aisle in his gym clothes and he would still be breathtakingly beautiful and while it had made Zee smile, he still had niggling worries.

Everyone went wild with the announcement of their upcoming nuptials and 99% of the comments they received were beautiful and supportive but there was that 1% that were the complete opposite. They said Saint was too good for Zee and even called him a poor replacement for Perth which stung. Zee tried his best to ignore the negativity but the longer time went on the more difficult it became. He began avoiding social media but after a while his insecurities got the better of him and he went back on. He never said anything to Saint about what was happening but he didn't need to, Saint knew him well enough to know when he was troubled.

One morning he received a particularly nasty dm telling him that he was ruining Saint's life by marrying him and he should be ashamed of himself for being so selfish. That was his breaking point, he stayed in bed and wept, not caring about his plans for the day with Poppy and Max. Saint had a commercial to shoot so was already out of their home before Zee even woke up and it was 7pm before he finally got home. At first Saint thought Zee might still be out with his friends until he heard the quiet sobbing coming from their bedroom.

Saint immediately ran to the room and saw Zee looking broken in bed. "What's happened? Zee please tell me! Are you alright?" He said touching Zee and checking for injuries. "Am I selfish Saint?" He asked with tears in his eyes. "Will I ruin your life?" He said, clutching his phone in his hand then began sobbing once more. Saint pulled Zee into a hug and pulled the phone from his hands. When he read the message he wanted to hit someone, actually he wanted to kill someone. How dare a stranger comment on his personal life and upset the man he loved. But Saint knew if he flew off the handle Zee would only feel worse.

Saint took a few steadying breaths as he hugged Zee. He had to make things better, seeing Zee so hurt broke his heart. "Zee baby listen to me." He said. Zee buried his head in Saint's neck but nodded. "Am I selfish?" He asked softly. "Because I want exactly what you want. I want us to be husbands and spend the rest of our lives together, but your acting career is just beginning and this could negatively effect it so I must be selfish right?" Saint continued running his fingers through Zee's hair. Zee sniffled and pulled out of Saint's embrace. "No! You're the least selfish person I know!" He replied.

"But all the things I want could negatively effect you, some of your fans said, so I must be..." Saint tried to continue but Zee interupted him "I'm a grown man Saint, it's my choice if I want to be with you and no one gets to comment on that. That's just between you and me." Saint grinned at how serious Zee was. "So what's the difference between you an me? Why is your decision to love me selfish but mine to love you isn't?" Saint asked wiping away the remains of Zee's tears. "But Saint you're so much better than me, you're so talented and handsome plus you're way richer than I am. People think I'm a gold digger...." he said lowering his head.

Saint was getting really pissed now, his baby was hurting and he wanted to throttle who ever made him feel this way. "Ok Zee. In our entire relationship what is the most expensive thing either of us has bought for each other?" Saint asked, traces of anger slipping into his voice. "I don't know..." Zee said. "Well let's see..." Saint said in his best sarcastic tone. "Hmm who paid for a three day break with food and accommodation to make the worlds best proposal with privately designed engagement rings?" He asked. "Was that me? Did I flash my cash because I knew you were a gold digger and that was the best way to get you to say yes?" He finished.

Zee knew he was in trouble. Saint's voice had changed and Zee recognised the look on his face. Zee was getting punished for this for sure. "No..." he answered. "It was me. I'm sorry Saint, I shouldn't have let those people get to me so bad. It's just I love you so much, I want the best for you and sometimes I worry that I'm not good enough." Zee said looking down. "In the words of an occasionally wise man 'I'm a grown man Zee and no one should get to comment on that.'" Saint said lifting Zee's chin and kissing him deeply. "Now come on love, you're getting a bath while I change the bed OK?" Saint said pressing their foreheads together. "Ok my love." Zee said smiling. "Don't thank me too soon Zee," Saint said with a dangerous look in his eyes. "you made me a promise to never doubt our love and as you've broken that promise you will be punished." He finished pressing a quick kiss to Zee's temple before heading off to run his bath.