Chasing waves

Confused

Moving around all night i cant sleep, the nightmares have disappeared and i been sleeping fine since but as i look at the clock reading two am i throw my hands back annoyed, my mind is racing causing my not to sleep, why does Darren have to be in my mind right at this movement, throwing a oversize top over my sports bra and shorts i pick a blanket up wrapping my self before heading downstairs and over to my uncle house. Unlocking the door with the key under the plant pot i try to remember which room was his before opening it a little and climbing in, he hasn't minded me doing this before so i don't see a problem now
"What's wrong" Hayden says as he pulls back his covers letting me climb into his bed, sometimes he sleep with me till the nightmares would disappear and ill be fast asleep but this time its not the nightmares
"I cant sleep, i have a lot of my mind" i say laying next to him wrapped in a blanket and his covers, i guess its a good thing he has a king bed or we be top and tailing, which i mind as i don't want to be sleeping with his feet in my face, who would honesty. Staying silent for a minute we both just lay there as I'm sure he knows what running in my mind considering its mainly about his best friend and his bitch of a ex, why cant i get that kiss out my mind like everything else
"Lottie, she came onto him knowing you was there she kissed him but he pushed her away. You need to hear him out" as the words leave hayden mouth i turn on my side not wanting to listen to anymore, i know Darren would of explained himself to my cousin and family as they protect me like a baby however i know Hayden would always choose me over his best friend so if he's telling me to hear him out, i know he's got a good explanation for what happened.

Waking up I'm confused where I'm at but it all come flooding back as i see hayden laying next to me still asleep or i think he is, he hasn't moved yet. Sitting up against the head board i try to sneak out not wanting to wake him up. Opening his bedroom door uncle Steven and jason walk pass looking at me, i guess they didn't realise i stayed the night, smiling at them both i head downstairs into the kitchen for breakfast. Making myself a bowl of breakfast and orange juice i sit there and right on time my uncles come downstairs for coffee, those boys cant work without it in there systems
"Morning, i didn't know you stayed last night, nightmares" uncle Steven ask concern as he knows about them and told me to speak about them but it was easier said then done at the time but now i don't have them apart from the odd one that creeps in my mind but they don't need to know as they tell grandad who be worried about me more
"Nope, I couldn't sleep so I sneaked into hayden room like old times" i say smirking as he doesn't know about all the times i have sneaked into his house to either talk to Darren or sleep next to hayden because I couldn't sleep, looking at uncle Steven face i can't tell what he's thinking but i know it cant be good. Finishing my breakfast i place my dishes in the sink before waving them bye and heading back over to my grandparents house, i have school work to complete today before i start training once again.

Sitting in the back garden with my laptop on my knees i focus on my work, what i like about home schooled is that i can do it wearing anything i like and i don't have to get up early lucky me. The sun is out so i chosen to do it outside for a difference. I'm up to date with everything so I don't have much to do. With my earphones in my ears i focus on maths which I never had a problem with as i like numbers, focusing on the solution i feel the set next to me go down, pulling my earphones out i turn my head to see its Darren sitting there playing with his fingers, i always knew ill be having this conversation but I didn't think ill be having it right now, closing my laptop i place it on the floor turning my attention to Darren
"I'm sorry it's wasn't what it seemed, i was in town picking a couple of things up when Lacey spotted me, i was ready to run in the other direction but I didn't have time and before i knew it she kissed me , I pushed her away and told her i wasn't interest as i had fallen for this girl i met that was off limits" Darren says but I'm stuck on what he said last fallen for this girl, does that mean he has fallen in love with me and I definitely didn't know i was off limits even though i am his best friend cousin i have never been off limits, hayden may have my best interest in mind so he would of just spoken to him warning him
"Lottie i have fallen for you, you drive me crazy and bring out my best side, all i could think about was you and how i hurt you, could you forgive me, i need my training partner back" i cant help but laugh a little as we both make each other work when training together and i wont lie i have also missing my training partner, i have missed him picking on my footwork and how i Stand on the board, even though uncle jason told me how to stand and surf but do i forgive him....
"I-I-I don't know, i guess baby steps for now as it hurt seeing you both together" I respond not sure whether i forgive him or not, seeing the both together even worse kissing my heart broke and when he told me he fallen for me i knew i have fallen for him but i don't want to tell him till i know he isn't going to break it. Picking my laptop up i stand up looking at him with a smile
"Practice in ten minutes" i say walking off without looking back, i head straight upstairs and changed into my sinning clothe ready for practice, i have my finals coming up and i need every last bit of practice if I'm going to win and make my parents proud as the finals is for them.

Waiting at the beach for Darren he finally appears and we both run into the ocean paddling out to the zone, ducking under the waves i come back up to the surface with a smile i have definitely missed my training partner, hopefully this time i can stay on my board without being hit by wave then enough wave. Reaching the spot i sit on my board with a leg each side watching out for a wave but when one does come i let Darren take it, watching him drop on to it i watch his footwork, his legs are a little wider then mine and he's lowered down, maybe I could change my footing or give it ago. As he rides the wave i spot the smile not only on his lips but in the eyes he's enjoying himself. Once he finished the wave and paddle back to me I get the next wave with a smile remembering to spread my legs out a little widen then my normal stance only for it to change a little i feel more stable on the board and making it easier to ride the wave. Finishing the wave i jump backwards into the ocean with a smile
"Yes thats my girl" Darren shouts at fist pumping the air only to make me smile as he paddles over to me wrapping me into a tight hug but when he pulls away and looks into my eyes, his lips connect to mine and close my eyes deepening the kiss between us, this kiss is definitely from the other ones, it felt like need and hungry from the other kiss of love and lust mixed together but i enjoy. As we break apart i look at him smiling, i guess baby steps went out the window when he kissed me then.

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Sitting around a bonfire smiling with the family i know uncle jason has fireworks ready to go off for a little later but right now we have music playing and a bonfire to relax next to. I'm current sat in between my two cousin hayden and Oliver who are laughing at a joke that uncle Steven said, meanwhile my eyes keep drifting off to Darren and what he said earlier when he was explaining him self, could he be the one but what happens when he goes professional or decide to go back home, ill only be left with a broke heart once again scared to let anyone else in. Taking a sip of my drink Darren walks off to me holding his hand out "dance with me" i take his hand and i only just notice its a slow song, i wrap my arms around his neck while his hands are on my hips, moving back and forwards my grandparents finally get off there arses and join in. Looking into Darren eyes see nothing but love and happiness, could we really be happy together. Trying to get out of my head i try to ignore all the questions that are in my head ready to come out and enjoy the movement right here. Living in the movement is what its really about. As the slow song comes to a end another song comes on and this one move upbeat that everyone can dance too, i walk over to hayden and Oliver trying to get them both to dance with us, everyone else is dancing and enjoying themselves, i got to love family time with everyone.