Blissful Distraction [Attack on Titan Fanfiction]

Survey Corps - Chapter 12: Between

Where... where am I? Why can't I feel anything? Why is it so dark?

"Del..."

"Who is out there!" My voice sounded muffled.

"Why did you do this to me?"

"Taylor, is that you?"

"Del, I thought we were friends."

"We are! Please help me out! I can't- why can't I move?" I tried to struggle but I couldn't do anything. I was trapped in between something.

"I can't help you now!" Shouted her voice. I knew it was hers, but there was something about the tone. There was something that was strange about it.

Then I hear rain. The area around me began to feel moist. Gradually, I felt a sensation wash over me like a wave. It immediately became hard to breathe. I felt like I was under water.

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I sat up.

I realized I was sleeping face down into my pillow. Grabbing the pillow, I threw it onto the floor in frustration.

"Why did this have to happen to me?" I whispered to myself. I didn't want to go through this anymore. These nightmares won't go away.

I felt a tear begin to roll down my cheek, but my frustration turned into laughter.

"He wanted me to be like this," I said, this time aloud. "He... he wanted to ruin my life from the minute I was born!"

I heard Annie waking up. "What's wrong with you?" She sat up, looking groggy as hell.

I slowly regained my sanity again. Edging to the corner of my bed, I hugged my knees.

It'll be over soon, I tell myself.

Annie sighed. "It's probably those nightmares." She watched me for a while. "If you went through something traumatizing, then I understand. It might not seem like it, but I know what you are going through. I have human emotions as well."

I turned to look at her, "If I told you a secret can you promise not to tell?"

She stared at me, looking rather shocked.

"Please, I want to tell someone," I begged. "I've kept it to me all these years, but I can't forget it or run away from it or anything." I felt my voice get shaky. "It's to much for one person to hold."

Annie grabbed my charm bracelet from my pillow and gave it to me. "Don't expect me to tell you any of mines in return."

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We stood in the hall. There he was, Erwin Smith, commander of the Survey Corps.

We have seen him before, but we never had a good look at him. Despite his chiseled appearance, he looked exhausted, depressed, and his gaze was dead. I guess that is what that position does to a man.

He went on to talk about the death rate, which may have been all he talked about.

"Now if any of you aren't interested in joking the Survey Corpse, you may leave now and join the Military Police or the Garrison," Erwin declared.

Almost every single soul left the area. I stood there, unmoving as I received looks from some people. Honestly, I didn't care.

However, Jonathan broke and started walking away. I ran over to grab his arm, but he shook off my grip. He filed out with the crowd and got lost between all the people.

I was able to finally find him when we exited the hall.

"Why didn't you stay?" I shouted.

"My will to live," he answered. "Why didn't you stay? Wasn't it your dream to join the Survey Corps?"