I Hate You, Don't Leave Me ~ Nemi

Insomnia

DEMI'S P.O.V.:

I guided Nick upstairs and showed him the room next to mine. 

"Well...you have everything you could possibly need here." I said in a whisper and he nodded not looking at me. 

"Thank you." I gave him a small smile with a nod and walked to my room quietly. After I closed the door of my bedroom I brought my fingertips to my lips and started wondering about the whole Nick situation. He really almost kissed me downstairs. He would've kissed me if I didn't stop him. What does that even mean?

I changed my clothes, got ready to sleep and laid under the sheets. I closed my eyes tightly and couldn't stop a smile from forming on my face. I was daydreaming about Nick...we've never kissed. I wish we did, but we just never got the change to do it. There was something always stopping us whenever we tried and I think that's one of the reasons why we never tried. And oh God, I really wanted to try with him.

It was a little after 2 a.m. and I was rolling on the bed non-stop, trying to get a decent night of sleep when I heard steps on the stairs. I frowned and put a robe on before leaving my room. Once I walked down the stairs, I found Nick sitting on my couch looking through the window.

"Hey...insomnia?" I asked him in a whisper and he jumped slightly before glancing at me.

"Sorry, did I wake you?" He asked and I shook my head before walking his way to sit beside him on the couch. "I can't sleep tonight...seems like you can't either." 

"I guess so. What are you doing downstairs? It's cold here." 

"Ummm, I don't know. I wanted to come here and not bother nor make any noise upstairs." I shrugged.

"What should we do now? We're not sleepy at all, as you can tell." He chuckled and titled his head looking at me. 

"I just feel like resting my body and watching the ceiling." 

"I see you're in one of those moods...but okay, we'll do that then." He smiled at me and we both rested our heads on the back of the couch. I grabbed a blanket from beside me and covered us both with it causing him to release a chuckle. "We better not catch a cold." 

"Yea, true." The room became silent and we could even hear our irregular breathes. I felt Nick moving and couldn't even react before he wrapped one arm around me and pulled me closer to him, so my head was resting on his shoulder. I smiled bitting my lip and he started to caress my arm softly. 

"Nick..." 

"Yes?"

"Can I ask you something without it being awkward?..." He looked down at me and he sighed slightly before noding. "You don't have to say yes to everything I ask if you don't want to...and I can see you don't want me asking anything." I said with a chuckle and he shook his head. 

"It's not that...I kind of have an idea of what you're gonna ask me." I raised my eyebrows. "Maybe that makes it less awkward." He said with a shrug and I gulped before glancing at my hands resting on my lap.

"Earlier tonight...you almost kissed me. Why was that?" I asked and felt my cheeks burning as I glanced up to see his expression change into a slight grin. 

"Umm...I think it kind of went with the flow. Like, eith the moment. I got caught in the moment and the situatuion we were living and...I don't know. I shouldn't have done it anyways, we're just friends." 

"And you're married." I said and he nodded before grabbing my hand. 

"I hope that doesn't change anything between us. You're my friend and I should never see you in a different way." I chuckled and moved my hand away from his. 

"But that's already happened before, right?" I asked him and stood up from the couch. 

"Demi..." He started and I shrugged it off before turning around." 

"I'm gonna try and get some sleep, you should do that too. You may need some brain rest." I told him before heading upstairs with a lump on my throat. 

"Dem...wait." He told me and I turned around to see him standing on the beggining of the stairs. "I didn't mean to make any reference to the past between us. I'm sorry if I said something bad." I gulped the lump on my throat and shrugged. 

"I'ts okay, what happened in the past is meant to stay in the past I guess...goodnight. See you tomorrow." 

"Um, goodnight...see you." I gave him a nod and entered to my room with tears filling my eyes. Even if it hurt, I had to understand that Nick and I were never supposed to happen as a couple. If we did, it would've happened already. It's time to move on.