I Hate You, Don't Leave Me ~ Nemi

Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift

DEMI'S P.O.V.:

After everything with Joe and Wilmer went fine, I decided to make a risky move and told my therapist to call Selena and Taylor on the same day. The story, the "trauma" story I had related to them, it was to them together. So I thought the best idea was to call them together.

And my therapist, of course, proud to see me moving on, said yes. So when Wednesday arrived I didn't feel panic, like I usually did with the other people. I was calm, I knew the things I wanted to say to them and I knew everything could go really wrong. But I was sure that it'd go fine.

Obviously, life's not all about faith, but I believed in miracles. So, when the time arrived, I drove myself to the building ready to start my appointment.

Just when I entered, Brenda raised her eyebrows at me, as I flashed her a tiny smile.

"What's that smile for?" She asked me and I shrugged taking a sit in front of her.

"Well, I don't really know. I think today I'll leave like a lot behind after I talk with them, so I'm happy for it." She nodded.

"Do you wanna be friends with them again too? Like with Joe?" I shook my head before tilting it.

"I mean, it's not my goal. I wanna be okay with them, but I don't wanna go friends with them again. At least, not for now...cause you never know what can happen in the future." I said and there was two knocks on the door.

"You can come in." My therapist said and they both entered together. "Welcome girls. Take a sit."

They sat in front of me and I small smiled to them. "Hey." I said to them and the nodded.

"Well, this is easy..." Brenda started explaining everything to them while I stared directly at Selena and they both nodded once the explanation finished.

We stared at each other and the countdown started. Of course, I was the first to talk.

"I'm sorry if I ever caused you both any kind of trouble, or made you feel sad, or anything. I shouldn't have worried that much about what you wanted or not to do. I just need to admit that the things I've done to you in the past, were just out of jealousy and fear of losing Selena's friendship." I admitted and gulped hard as they looked at me.

"I understand you, I always did. To be honest, and this is something we've talked with Taylor...I never meant to hurt you by hanging out with her. I understood years later when I saw you hanging out with Miley and stuff that yes...it hurts to lose a best friend for another person." Selena said with teary eyes. "I never really appreciated you as you deserved, and I'm sorry for it. We both are sorry for it. We never called you when we were together, I even used to ghost you...Demi, honestly, I'm sorry for everything."

"I am too." Taylor said. "We only got to understand everything we did wrong to you when you overdosed. It was a hard time for both of us, we were really scared for you. We didn't know what to do...and, in a way, we still don't know. But we truly just want the best for you, that's the reason why we're here...but anyways, I'm sorry for never thinking I could hurt you when I made Selena my best friend, in those times I was just jealous of you dating Joe." I nodded slowly and Selena started sobbing causing everyone to look at her.

"I'm sorry, you guys can continue." She said and my therapist glanced briefly at me.

"No, it seems like you have something to say Selena. Let it go." Brenda said and she nodded while drying her tears.

"I'm just so ashamed for everything I've dine to Demi, and everything my fandom has done to her...I don't even deserve you to listen to me, I had million of chances to show you I cared and I never did. I'm sorry Demi, I really am. I wish I could change the past. You deserved a better friend. And when...when this events happened, I didn't even go visit you. Who does that?" She asked and sobbed again. I chowed down on my lip and caressed her knee.

"Look, I've done bad things to you too. I wasn't with you when you got your kidney surgery done, damn, I didn't even know about it. We both made mistake Sel, but I don't want that to cause an endless feud between us. I want us three to be cool with each other. That's what we're supposed to do, support each other." They nodded and I grabbed their hands. "I forgive you for everything and hope you forgive me too. I just wanna start everything again...can we?"

"I forgive you too." Taylor said with a slight smile.

"Of course we can start again." Selena said with a small smile and stood up to hug me while we both cried.

After a very emotional moment of hugs and cute words, my therapist told us to go enjoy the rest of our days...but of course, having that trouble solved with them, meant only one thing...the next session I was seeing Marissa face to face. And that wasn't even my biggest fear. I was kind of terrified to see Nick again. Damn, I couldn't even say he's name out loud ever since the overdose.

We really fucked it up, both with Nick and Marrisa. There was a lot going on that made us drift apart.

It was safe to say I was truly nervous for next week, and definitely not happy-nervous.