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11 - Confession

«I love you Kookie»

He erupts in an amicable laugh.

"Ahah. You're weird tonight–well, weirder than usual. Love you too, hot-head". Jungkook replies chuckling, reaching with his hand to pat her head. It's not the first time they express how much they care for one another.

Shin's fist thightens along her body.

"No, you don't get it. What I mean is that I think I fell in love with you. No, I don't think, I know".

Jungkook is at a loss for words, his mouth agape. He doesn't speak for a little too long, making Shin uncomfortable.

"I'm startling you but I needed to tell you". Shin's cheeks deepen one shade of pink as her gaze lowers on the floor waiting for him to talk.

"What...? When...?"

Her eyes find him again. "I don't know... It happened..."

Jungkook remains silent, which in all truth hurts Shin. But again, she didn't think this through before speaking. As always.

What happens if he doesn't feel the same? Her heart creaks. But now she needs to know.

"Do you have anything to say?" She asks tentatively.

But Jungkook is still looking at her as she grew a second head, which doesn't make her feel that great.

Is this that much unimaginable for you? She thinks.

"Are you making a joke? Are you sure?" He questions. Features tense.

Apparently, it is...

"Okay, this is becoming awkward... Why would I play you with something like this?" Her voice falters.

"No, sorry, I didn't mea-"

Jungkook tries to explain but Shin interrupts him letting everything out.

"I don't know, it just happened... And then you protecting me like that back with my mom... And then the song tonight... That almost seemed like you were talking about... Ahhrgh! I don't know! I'm probably seeing things that aren't there and I sound obnoxious now... If you have nothing to say, then forget it..." Embarrassed, she turns around walking fast to the security of her bedroom walls.

So, is it really going like this? Am I just gonna hide away and pretend nothing happened? She reprimends herself.

Shaking lightly her head, she halts on her steps and turns to the man standing still behind.

"No. What I'm feeling for you is true. I can't forget it with just the snap of a finger; I want to know how you feel about this... "

Shin eyes glimmer with what seem to be hope but the problem is Jungkook's in a frozen-like state. At least, that's what appears on the outside. Inside, everything is whirling, thoughts are meshing in excitement and doubts.

Shin is in love with me-what the heck is going on?-can I believe that?-well, she just told me that!-what should I do? What should I answer?-oh no, she's crying...

Shin-seul is waiting but nothing comes out of his mouth other than 'ehmms' and 'uhmms'. And for the first time she can't control the tears.

He doesn't think of me like that... With the back of her hand she wipes away the dump salted strings from her cheeks.

Sniffling, she stitches her eyebrows together in an attempt of controlling her embarrassment and hurt. She's not a crybaby.

"I get it. Don't worry, just give me some time and everything will be back as it was. It's okay".