CheckMate (A Luke Castellan fan fic. OC CHARACTER)

New Beginnings

Raphaels POV

My wings were spread out behind me. Someone's knees were holding me up. Imagine how bad that hurt. Oof, especially that position.
      I tried to breathe. It was hard and when I was able to again. I was basically sucking the air supply out of my room. "Shh, love calm down. It's okay. Breathe." I shakily took deep breathe as he ran his hands up my back calming me.
He leaned his head up on my shoulder. I gently put my head tilting on his. "How do you feel love. You're lucky I didn't drop kick her ass." He whispered the last part. I let out a chuckle. I carefully tucked my wings in and laid back against Luke. I wrapped my arms around his neck and bent head up to look at him. Tear stains littered his cheeks. I bent up and kissed him.
He smiled. "I love you." "I love you too Luke. Now go head out to the bonfire. I'll be in here, I'll be fine Luke." He raised a brow.
Truth was, I was never fine. I always had the urge to cut. Always!! Like I was a junkie going through withdrawal. He kissed me again and scooted our from under me. My head hit the pillow roughly. "Are you sure Love?" He asked turning back from the door. I smiled and nodded my head. He smiled again and left the room.
The smile quickly faded as I let a tear fall. I needed to cut. Desperately. I got up and walked around the room looking for anything. Literally anything. I found a small pencil sharpener. Like one out of a school bag.
I put my sneakers on and stepped on it. I picked it up and peeled the blue plastic away from it. I picked up the small metal blade.
Sometimes the world gets loud. It's noise kills my head. Every thought is loud, amplified until breaking point. I don't know if I can deal with it anymore. I want Luke to hold me until we die. I want it to stop. I wish it could stop making the same mistakes that just add to the noise. It's a demo watching me absorb in its insanity. I can't breathe. I can't think. I can't do anything until I bleed.

I need to bleed.

These thoughts control me. I wonder what control I ever even had over them. Every thought is a noose pulling me higher and higher until I let it win.
I walk into the bathroom. I lock the door behind me. I stare at myself in the mirror. I look like hell. My hair was now started out white but ended n black half way down my back. My clothes had blood marks on them. Luke has wrapped gauze around my neck once I was able to breathe again.
I bent over the sink. I drug the thin metal across my upper arm. I felt like I could float away. All the emotions I've felt in the past week came flooding out with the blood.
    About twelve cuts later I was sprawled on the floor feeling relieved and nauseous. I stood back up to the sink and had some ambrosia. My cuts started to heal themselves slowly.
      I washed them out with water and wrapped them with gauze and tape and all that good shit Nico packed in my bathroom. I flushed the blade and cleaned up the floor.
    I walked out of the bathroom. Nico sat on my bed and tapped his foot impatiently. "Well good morning to you too." I say sarcastically rolling my eyes. "Raph it's 11:30 at night. Also why we're you in the bathroom so long?" I rolled my eye and grabbed my phone. "I had lady issues okay. Now if you'll excuse me I would like to go on a fly." I said putting my earbuds in and walking out. Nico followed close behind.
He grabbed my wrists and lifted me sleeves. I pulled back and ran through the front door. I quickly flew up to the roof. I ducked and he shouted my name trying to find me.
He ran towards everyone down by the mess hall. I flew off the roof and towards the forest. I flew above the trees. The chilly November air tickled my skin and I closed my eyes spiraling in a circle. Suddenly my music stopped and Nico's called ID popped up.
"What Nico?" I could practically feel the eye roll. "You promised to never cut yourself again Love. Why... why did you do it?!" Luke shouted at me. I almost dropped my phone. "Wait what?" I heard Will yell from behind Luke.
"You wouldn't understand Luke. You never do. I'll be home in like half an hour." I went to hang up. "Love don't- just come home. I'm not mad.... just disappointed. Please just come back and we can talk rationally. Person to person." I hung up on him.
I let the wing flow through my hair and the tears spilled down my cheeks. I changed directions and sped down towards camp. I landed in front of the cabin. I sighed. Luke ran out on the deck. He ran down as kissed/hugged me. I kissed him back startled.
I tucked my disheveled wings back in. I took my earbuds out and put them in my pocket with my phone. "Can I just nap please. We can talk tomorrow morning." I walked passed him. He grabbed my wrist gently.
"Lo-." I yanked my wrist back. "Touch me without permission again and I will snap your neck." His eyes became worried. "Raphael what's wrong?" He asked. I turned back to him. Tears were running down my face. My hair was now all the way black. I felt like I was gonna explode. He gulped. "I'm tired of this!! Being a Demi-god. Being a pawn to the olympians. Everything! Hell, I'm tired of you!"
      I ran inside passed Nico, Will, Hazel and Percy. Why he was there I have no idea. Probably plotting my demise or some shit.
     I ran to my room and then locked the door. I put up a shadow wall so no one could get in. Nico taught me that. It's pretty handy. I grabbed my duffle. I stuffed all my stuff in it. Minus my phone and sword. I was double guessing on whether or not to bring my glasses. Fuck it. I put them in my bag.
     I grabbed my charger and put it in there as well. I made the bed. I squished my trunk so that it would fit in my duffle. I set it in there and took the shadow wall down. I opened my door and walked back out and through the front door.
       Nico ran out after me. So did Will. I started my painful trudge up the hill. "Raphael Everest Miranda hold up." I stopped. Damn you Nico. He stopped in front of me. He hunched over getting air. "Raph," I rolled my eyes and continued walking. I started at a run. "Raphael Ev-!" I used my powers. I forced my hand over his neck. "Call me by my middle name again!!! Go in Nico I dare you!!" He pinned his hands up to the invisible hand choking him.
      The look on Will's face was what brought me back from my murder trip to kill Nico. I dropped my hand. I backed away even farther. "I told you I was a monster Nico. No one believed me." I ran all the way passed the tree and skidded all the way down the hill avoiding the trees.
       I let my wings spread out and flew above everything. I went full speed towards the Brooklyn bridge. I landed on a post up in the air. I need to start flying more. Or start going on runs more. I way out of shape. If I don't do a certain amount of exercise a day I won't be able to fly... at all. It fucking sucks. 
       I pulled my phone out. 89 missed calls from Nico. Plus an adjoining 210 texts. I swiped over and deleted all the messages. A weird popping noise filled my ears. I almost fell off the metal beam. I looked up. There was a man in a tuxedo. I rolled my eyes. "What do you want now Father." He was studying me up and down. "You look like your mother. You know that right?" I shook my head.
     "No I don't. Because she died. Remember. I was right there when it happened." I said not glancing up from reading how to get to Central Park. "You know.... You can come back with me. I need company besides Sephy." I looked up at him.
    He has to be fucking joking. Since when does my father care. About anything!! He must've had a little to much "kool-aid" before coming here.
            "Your joking. Since when does somebody like me?" He let out a small chuckle.
     I put his hand out. I put my phone in my pocket and slowly placed my hand on his. It was freezing cold like dead body cold. Suddenly we were flipping through the air. It felt like my stomach was folding in on itself. I closed my eyes. My feet hit the ground. I opened my eyes. We were in his castle thing.
     "Sephy!" He yelled. Am I doing the right thing here? I have no idea. A beautiful girl came out. She had long dark brown hair and was wearing a pink and yellow combo long dress. Definitely doesn't fit in with the whole death theme of the place.
        She stopped short, she saw me. Yay! Note the sarcasm. I rubbed my arm nervously. Persephone raised an eyebrow at me. "Should I ask lLoRd hAdeS? Or should I prepare a room lLoRd hAdeS?" The sarcasm was strong. I couldn't help but laugh silently. Hades looked down at me and I stopped laughing. "Follow her. You can have a spare room." I sheepishly nodded my head and followed Persephone.
    I ran up to her. She turned a corner and led me to a room. "This is your room child. He'll come talk to you later." With that she walked away. I slowly opened the door. This was definitely Nico's old room.
        Band posters hung all over and it was messy. Yep, it was definitely Nico's room. I closed the door behind me and turned light on. I set my duffle on the bed. I walked around the room just scoping it out. To the right there was a dresser and a bookshelf. To my left there was the bed and nightstand. Theres a closet and a bathroom.
    I sat down on the bed. I let my wings out. I wrapped them around me. My phone beeped

From Nico: Raph just tell me where you are so I know you're safe.

To Nico: I'm not telling. But I am safe. Tell Luke I'm sorry

From Nico: do you know how worried he is Raphael?! You've been gone for hours! Please just tell me where you are🥺🥺

To Nico: Nico. I am aware how long I've been gone. Someone we both know gave me a room. I'm not saying anything farther. But we both respect shim. Sort of anyways. You even stayed with him a t one point.
      Now tell Luke I love him to stop pacing, and I'll miss you guys as well. Tell Hazel I'm sorry.

Nico didn't answer after that. Sadly. There was a sharp knock on the door. I put my phone down. "Come in." The door peeped open. It was father. I fixed my hat. "Why do you wear that hat?" He asked sitting down on the chair across the room.
     "Cause I do. Now, I'm not answering question. Cause I know that's why you're here."  He raised an eyebrow. "I was going to ask why you're here. But... yeah. So get rest. I'll see you in the morning." He stood up to leave. "Wait." He turned to face me again. "Do you guys have a WiFi?" He laughed at

      "That was an actual question. Do you?"