CheckMate (A Luke Castellan fan fic. OC CHARACTER)

Mentally Exhausted

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Raphael's POV

The bright piercing sun shone into the room. I woke up. There was a note on the table.
I bent over and grabbed it. Along with a bottle of water and a small cup with three pills.

    Take your meds. Epilepsy, anxiety, and something I want you to try. It's new, it'll... help.
                                              -W

   I grabbed the bottle of water and swallowed the pills. I sat up off the bed and changed into a pair of dark black leggings with pockets and a long sleeved shirt. Dark blue to be exact. I swung a flannel on and I grabbed my sword and put it in my holster. 
        I put my glasses on and walked out my room. Nico was watching tv and Hazel was pacing. I slumped next to Nico. I put my head on his shoulder. Hazel put her arms on my head. "How you feel?" She asked. I shrugged my shoulders. Whatever the last pill was was making me feel weird. "Uhm... I don't know. I honestly don't. Like weirdly excited, and weirdly depressed. So... let's settle with happily depressed." Nico couldn't help but laugh.
     "So.... you up for a little bit of training?" I nodded my head. He pulled me off the couch. He lead me to his room. "Thought we were training?" He chuckled and moved a chair in the middle of the room. "Yes yes we are. We're going to mentally train. Plus you still have powers that we haven't figured out yet." I nodded my head and sat down.
      He sat in front of me. "Close your eyes and try to clear your mind." I closed my eyes and did my best to clear my head. "Now steady your breathing." I did as said.
     I felt like I was being elevated off the ground. I heard Nico get up. I felt this weird rush of adrenaline and like I could do anything.  It all was going good until my stomach got a weird stinging sensation and my nose started bleeding. I fell to the ground and groggily opened my eyes.
      I was back in the chair. My arm slumped against Nico's. I brought my finger up to my nose. It was indeed bleeding. Nico handed me a napkin and I wiped my nose, while pinching the bridge of my nose to stop the bleeding. But it just kept coming.
       "What just happened?" He scowled a bit. "Well. These weird black tendril things were surrounding you and you started to float. Then you just fell." I nodded my head as he handed me another napkin.
      "Want to go again?" He asked once I had stopped bleeding. I nodded my head. He made me stand this time. He told me to keep my eyes open and try to channel the shadows to my hands. When the shadows made there way to my hands Nico started coughing and bending down begging for air.
       I backed up against the wall and crumbled. Nico started to be able to breathe again. I was now shaking on the floor against the wall. He walked over and bent down across from me. His neck was now showing a dark purple bruise the size of my hand.
        "S-s-sorry." I managed to say looking at him. He rubbed a hand on mine. "Let's get back to work." For the next two hours we went over the basics of what I could do and all that.
    I endured six nose bleeds, two coughing fits, and a panic attack. I was finally able to control the shadows willingly. I was now panting and sweating as I bent down my hands on my knees.
Nico was beaten up. He insisted on him being the test dummy. "Nico.... I'm not using you like that again." He nods his head. "Deal."
Someone knocked on the door. I used the shadows to open it. I really am lazy. It was Hazel. "Hey Haze." She nodded her head. She looked at Nico. "Nico! What what happened?" She looked over at me. She came over at me with a dagger to my throat. I put my hand to her stomach and used the tendrils to squeeze until she dropped the blade and began to cough relentlessly. My vision went blurry and I like... lost control over my body.
I bent down to Hazel and began to choke her. She brought her hands up to my hand and tried to pull me away. I felt something break from in my hold. An eerie smirk came upon my face. Nico dragged me off of her and threw me against the wall.
I became conscious of my body and I recounted what I just did. He ran over to Hazel and made sure she was okay. I quickly ran out of the room and down the hall to my room.
I locked the door behind me. I sat down on the bed not believing what I had just done. I had lost control. Again. I had barely managed to stay alive when I accidentally lost control on Nico.
I heard rough knocks on the door but didn't comprehend any of them. I just stared at my hands. I could have them. Just because I lost control. The door burst open with a rushed Will. He bent down in front of me. Putting his face right where I was staring.
He pulled me down in a hug. I just let it happen. I continued to just stare at the floor and do nothing. Will whispered things to me but I didn't hear any of it.
Luke rushes into the room breathing heavily. Will helped me stand and Luke picked me up. I wrapped my legs around him on instinct, he rubbed my head and sat down on the bed. "I-I almost killed them Luke." He continued to rub my hair. I closed my eyes.
A loud bell made me jump. "You don't need to go if you don't want too Love. I can always just get some food later." I shook my head. "No. I'm starving. Plus I need to face reality one day," I said cuddling into him. He rubbed my lower back. I flinched as he bumped my wrist. "Sorry love. Accident." I nodded my head understandingly.
I hopped down from his grasp and walked over to the bathroom. I closed the door and sat down on the toilet.......... I had to pee...... really bad. After a solid three minutes of peeing. Luke knocked on the door. "Love.... what you doing in there?" He thought I'd be cutting again. I would if Nico didn't take me literally everything sharp. Even my phone charger box!!
Truth be told, cutting was the only thing on my mind. Like it was my lifeline or something. I know self harming is unforgivable: but I couldn't help but feel satisfied after I do it. As I run the thin blade across my thigh watching the blood trickle out. It was just satisfying. In every little aspect of the word satisfying. God how I wanted to do it right now.
"Love.... what you doing in there?" I wiped my crotch and pulled my pants up. "I'm peeing Luke. I didn't pee yet." I said washing my hands. He opened the door a bit. His face seemed to lighten when he noticed me being me.
He kissed my neck. He led me out of my room and to the main room Hazel and Nico were sitting on the couch sneakily talking. I ignored them both and walked out. Luke following me. He put a hand on my waist. "Do you wanna sit with me?" I shook my head. "No I'll be fine. Ttyl babe." I headed for my table.
Yes. I did just say "ttyl".
My food appeared on the plate. I began to eat. Nico and Hazel came and sat down ten minutes after I did. Hazel still looked bad. Like really bad. Like she just got out of brain surgery bad. She just stared into the distance and ate. Nico kept glancing back and forth to Hazel then me.
As soon as I finished my rice, Nico spoke up. "Any of you going to the bonfire tonight." I shook my head. "Why not?" I glared at him. "I'm antisocial. Which is why I'll be in my room." I stood up and left. I headed for the cabin. "Raph wait!" Luke called after me. I turned back and smirked.
The real reason I didn't want to go to the fire was well.... 1. I didn't no anybody. 2. Antisocial. 3. Antisocial .
Luke caught up and wrapped his arms around my waist. "You coming to the fire?" I shook my head. "Why not?" I giggled. "I'm antisocial. Plus I only know like five people here. So imma hang in my cabin." I said leading him in the cabin with me.
      I sat down on the back of the couch. I wrapped my arms around his neck. We sat there for what felt like a millennia. "Why aren't Nico and Hazel talking to you?" He whispered in my ear.
      "I-I lost control." A tear ran down my cheek. I was going to leave him tonight. Head to Central Park and cross sides. He gently lifted me head. "Of what Love?" I brought my hand from his waist and held it between us. I let the shadows run to my hand and dark eerie wisps of smoke came from my fingers. Luke ran his fingers in the wisps.
The door opened. I let the wisp cover my whole hand. Don't judge, I'm always in high alert. 24/7. It was just Hazel and Nico. I let my hand go back around his neck and lay my head on his chest.
Luke brought his head down to my ear. "D'you know you hair turns black when you're startled?" He whispered. "Your joking?" I asked laughing. He shook his head. I blushed a bit. "If they don't stop staring I just might kill her." I whispered to Luke. He rolled his eyes.

"Care to share with the class?" Hazel asked.

"No. That's why I whispered it."

Luke turned his head away and began to laugh uncontrollably. Nico began to laugh too. Hazel rolled her eyes and stormed to her room clearly defeated. I looked up at Luke. "Can I get a shower now?" He raised a brow being cocky. "By myself. Please?" I begged. He rolled his eyes and loosened his grip letting me go to my room. I walked into my room and the door slammed shut behind me. I was pulled to the wall with the flat of my sword against my throat.
It was Hazel. She was pulling me up off the ground. My feet were shaking as I was losing air. "You leave. Now. I don't care how. If you die or if you just leave. Or even if you kill yourself. Never hurt my brother again. Even touch him, I will kill you myself." I was barely registering her words. I could feel blood running down my neck. I pounded my hand against the wall. She held it in place as she dug the sword into my throat more.
I fell to the ground as she kicked me in the ribs. My vision started to leave. The door flew open and Nico pushed Hazel over way from me and Luke bent down to me.
He ripped his shirt and started wiping the blood off my neck. Everything went cross eyed and I passed out.
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Luke's POV

Nico and I were talking when we heard loud thumps coming from Raph's room. Probably just her throwing her shoes off like she does. But then they kept going for several seconds then stopped completely. Nico was the first to rush over.
He slammed the door open and he reacted quicker than me shoving Hazel off of Raphael. Nico loudly yelled at Hazel. I rushed over to her and ripped my shirt to wipe the blood.
She closed her eyes and blacked out. I wrapped my shirt gently around her neck to stop the bleeding. It wasn't a big cut. Just a thin laceration on two parts of her neck.
I should've seen this coming. It's all my fault. I could've prevented this. At least it's better than her hurting herself......... by the tiniest little fucking bit.
I looked back up. "What the actual fuck Hazel!!" Nico yelled. She just crossed her arms and walked out.
Nico bent down next to me and rubbed her cheek. We lifted her up off the ground. As soon as her back was off the ground. Her wings spread out. Nico and I did a double take and carried her to the bed. I placed in front of me. Making sure my knees held her up. I didn't want to hurt her wings.
Nico put a hand on my shoulder. "Why the hell would hazel do this?" "No idea man. Go talk to her. Or yell or shout. Or some things that will resolve in her yelling back!" I shouted whispered. He nodded his head and left the room. I bent my head back onto the bed board and let out a deep sigh.