CheckMate (A Luke Castellan fan fic. OC CHARACTER)

Memories

A/N: WHEN I PUT THE DANGER EMOJIS THAT MEANS THERES GOING TO BE A TRIGGER OF SOME SORT. Or like a scene that's triggering like smut or self harm. Or like drugs or some shit. Y'all know what I mean. Have a good day Lovelies!!

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Raphael's POV

I held the blade in my hand. The small sliver of life that controls me to this body. The one silver blade can make it all or lose it all. It was four a.m and Luke was still sleeping. I was in the bathroom and was convincing myself to not relapse.
Two months.... I was two months clean. Did I want to ruin it all?! No.. but it's not an option when you have mental illness. There was a knocked at the door. "Love are you okay?" Luke's tired voice asked from the door. "Y-Yeah. I just wanted to think... plus I had to pee." I said. It still was weird talking again. My voice was all raspy and scattered. I would be mid-speech and just have to cough violently at times.

I said fuck it and through the blade in the toilet and flushed it. I let out a strangled sob and Luke walked in and hugged me. "Why are you crying Love?" I smiled a bit. "I did it...  I flushed it." He hugged me tighter and picked me up and set me on the bathroom counter.
         I wiped my eyes. "Two months. I almost did it only once. Luke... I'm two months clean." I smiled at him and kissed him. He wrapped his hands around my waist and kissed me harder. After several minutes of just kissing he pulled away. "Love... you su-." I pressed my lips to his again. He smiled in between kisses and ran his hands up the back of my shirt and ran a finger down. Causing me to moan softly into the kiss.

      He broke the kiss for a split second to take off our shirts and then rejoined kissing. I rake my hand through his hair as he starts kissing down my stomach and towards my breasts. He brings his mouth to suck on a nipple. I let out a small moan and he flicks the other and switched. I let out several moans.
    A puddle was forming between my legs and I was getting impatient. But I'll hold it.. just for him. He unbuckled his pants and slid them off. I got on my knees and began to stroke him roughly. He flipped his head back. I licked a long stripe up and ended it with me pushing my mouth around his tip while I began to bob slowly, teasing him in the process. He pushed my head farther into his dick making me gag and euphoric tears fill my eyes. "Oh Love... I!m go-. Oh fuck!" I bobbed my head very very quickly and he came in my mouth.

       He gently lifted me back up and laid me down on the counter. He got on his knees and licked a long stripe up my folds. I let out a breathy moan. I tried to push my legs close to readjust myself but he forced them back open. "Be a good girl for Daddy..." I nodded my head and punched my hand on the glass. He shoved his tongue in my pool. He began to tongue fuck me and I felt myself nearing my high. "Oh uh fuck fuck fuck fuck... oh FUCK!"
      He rubbed his thumb on my clit and it sent me over the edge. I came all over him. He licked it off before kissing up my stomach again. He pressed his tip up and down my entrance teasing me. "Please Luke..." I begged squirming. He bent his head towards my ear so when he spoke his lip grazed my ear lobe. "Be patient with Daddy. I'm just trying to admire my view."

      I moaned as he pushed in quickly. He held onto my hips and pounded into me roughly, but still at the same time loving and sensual. I moaned loudly as he rubbed my clit and I came all over him. He still pounded into me, overthrowing my high and sending me over the edge again. His thrusts became sloppy and he pulled out and released onto my stomach. My arms gave way under me and I hit my head off the counter. He grabbed a towel or too and cleaned us both up. He ran a hand through my hair and kissed my forehead beaded with sweat.
      He lifted me up and walked me back into the bedroom and set me on my side of the bed. He slipped a pair of sweatpants on and he put one of his button ups on me. He covered us with the blankets. "I love you Raphael." I was already half asleep from orgasming four times. I fell asleep before I got the chance to respond but he knows I love him back. That's all that matters.
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