D E S P E R A D O

sixteen*

Jungkook wakes up at night, still butt naked. He remembers pulling the covers on himself and passing out. He was alone in bed so it must not be that late at night since Jimin was still out. He looks at the corner and sees clothes neatly folded and kept on the chair. It was a pair of his black sweats.

He wonders if Jimin kept that there for him, he doesn't think Jimin would tell anybody else about this, or them. But moreover he was more confused about this entire situation than anything else. He needed somebody to talk to and since he couldn't contact Yoongi, he needed to find the closest thing.

That's how he ended up sitting next to Namjoon while eating dinner. "So..." he starts up a conversation after a while of awkward silence.

"Yes?" Namjoon asked amused as if he predicted that this would happen.

Jungkook continues to pick at his food. "I did the thing, I just went for it."

"And...?"

"It felt good but now I'm so confused about what I'm feeling and so many things."

"You can't really control your feelings Jungkook-ah. What you feel is what you feel and you cannot change them. I suggest just going with the flow, I'm sure you'll eventually find answers." Namjoon advices and resumes eating. "If it makes you happy, I think that's all that matters."

"But what if- what if I shouldn't feel happy? Because I know what I'm doing is wrong and-"

"Is it really Jungkook? I think you need to think about why you find it wrong in the first place."

Jungkook doesn't know. No, Jungkook knows but he doesn't want to think about it. This was involuntarily inbred into him since childhood and it's grown to become such a strong characteristic. But the more he was away from the Jeon clan or any atmosphere of that life the more he wanted to open up and be free.

"I think deep inside you know what you're feeling and what you need to do. You just need a moment to let it all go to think clearly. A good yelling session helps you know?" Namjoon gives his last piece of (cheeky) guidance and gets up from the table.

There was no way he was going to even think about his past and the series of events that lead him here and there was sure as hell no way he was going to tell anyone about it. Not even Yoongi knows. Though Yoongi has seen him cry as a child, he never told him the reason. That was too personal and he didn't trust anybody that much.

He thought about this while staring at the stars at night. He brought a blanket up with him so that he could stay warm while he thought. Even trying to remember anything in the past made him feel nauseous, so he simply clears his mind and closes his eyes. 

He hadn't seen Jimin since he woke up. He would've guessed that Jimin was avoiding him but he was doing the same thing. Jimin was complicating everything. Why does he hate the older but at the same time, why does he not? Sometime while staring at the beautiful night sky his eye lids got heavier and closed.

-

Jimin eventually finds his way to the rooftop after spending almost an hour looking for the man who he couldn't find. He let's out a soft sigh of relief when he sees the younger curled up in a little ball. When he walks closers he observes that Jungkook is fast asleep with his chin resting on his knees, hugging himself.

He looks at the round, peaceful face for a while somehow finding comfort in just watching him. Jungkook wasn't the person he thought him to be, that was for sure. After being intimate with him he's realized that inside Jungkook's hard exterior is just an adorable and endearing twenty one year old. He thinks of the things he knows about the Jeon clan and how it could have affected him.

It confuses him how willing he is to hug this big baby through the night. Jungkook's just a victim of the Jeon clan just like he is. Maybe after some persuasion Jungkook might join him or even help him take that clan down. Why wouldn't he? They made him this way, they scarred him and tortured his mind. What Jimin didn't realize was that the sleeping boy was making his own little mark in his heart the longer he thought about him.

He carefully picks up the sleeping boy bridal style, which was difficult since... well Jungkook is very heavy... But he managed to do it nonetheless due to his core strength. Jungkook stirs in his sleep when he begins to walk. Jimin pauses in hope that he does not wake up. Jungkook simply adjusts in his arms and wraps his hands around Jimin's neck.

The older makes it to their- his room without being spotted and lays Jungkook on the bed. Subconsciously Jungkook tightens his hands around Jimin's neck and doesn't let him leave. Jimin smiles at the action and kicks his shoes off to climb into bed with him. 

Their legs tangle together and Jungkook buries his head into Jimin's neck, refusing to let go. Jimin's arms circle his waist and cuddles him back. Both of them simultaneously sighed in peace. Jimin knew better than to think too much but a part of him still wondered what this defined between them.

He wasn't ready to let go of their 'enemies' label. It was so much more complicated than that. Though Namjoon told him that he should probably do what his heart says, he still feels that what his heart is telling him is wrong. He doesn't want to be closer to Jungkook, this is just to let off stress... right?

Suddenly Jungkook whines in his sleep and his legs tighten around one of Jimin's thighs. Jimin briefly thinks that it's one of Jungkook's frequent nightmares again. He's noticed from the very beginning that Jungkook wouldn't sleep well as if something was tormenting him. Jimin tightens his hands around Jungkook as a protective and comforting gesture.

This causes Jungkook to whimper and rut forward. Yeah no this wasn't one of his nightmares, Jimin confirms after feeling Jungkook's growing erection. Jimin feels flustered, one because he knows that Jungkook is having a wet dream and two because he doesn't know what to do. Should he wake him up? Or just stay still?

Jungkook's crotch gets impossibly closer to his thigh and he slowly moves against him. Jimin couldn't do anything to help Jungkook out since he couldn't really ask for consent and he didn't have the heart to wake the poor boy up. He'd rather that Jungkook use him to get off rather than have him wake up causing Jungkook to run away out of embarrassment.

"Jiminie." Jungkook sighs softly and continues to grind against his thigh. "Please."

The older lets out a breath after hearing his name. He would be lying if he says he didn't feel like he was over the moon, Jungkook was really dreaming about him. It also felt good since it's been a long time since he's heard someone call him any pet name, especially that one. Jimin doesn't dare to make any movement, just letting Jungkook use him as he pleases.

"Minie." Apart from shaky whines and whimpers, Jungkook would slip in a few nicknames here and there as he ruts desperately against Jimin's thigh. 

It doesn't take long for Jungkook's to come in his pants, which surprises Jimin and makes him feel proud because damn, dream Jimin was definitely doing something right. Jungkook moaned a high pitched "Jiminie." as he came and then only small breaths were heard. The younger slept peacefully, unaware of the man whispering sweet nothings into his ear and kissing his neck and cheeks.