D E S P E R A D O

twenty three

[a/n: the following chapters are unedited. please ignore any mistakes <3]

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Jimin wakes up in the middle of the night to trembling sounds and shrieks. He rubs his eyes and turns around from where he was sleeping to the direction of the sounds. Even in a sleep filled haze he could make the voices out to be from Jungkook. He opens his drowsy eyes with much effort and tries to look at what was happening.

Jungkook was curled up into himself at the edge of the bed and whimpering. "No, please." he hears the boy say. "No." The older moves closer and pats his sides trying to ease him. "I don't want to leave please."

"Baby I'm right here shhh~" Jimin pulls the boy closer and hums a soft tune. "You're okay, you're alright."

"I don't want to go."

When Jimin looks at the boys face it was twisted in fear, sweat dribbled down his face along with a few tears. "No, baby~" he cuddles up to the younger, holding him close. "You're not going anywhere." He knew Jungkook had nightmares here and there but never knew it was this bad.

Jungkook stops shivering immediately when Jimin holds him.

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"Woah." Jungkook looks around the room with his mouth agape.

"I'm guessing you didn't discover this room?" Jimin asks as he takes a scroll around... the arcade room.

Sometime in the evening Jungkook had gotten bored which led to him annoying Jimin while he was doing work. It was an understatement to say that it distracted Jimin because the handsome man sitting on his lap grinding down against his thigh, whining and pouting for affection did much more than distract him.

Needless to say Jimin still needed to work so he brought Jungkook to a room that he quite enjoyed during his off days. It was a surprise to find out that Jungkook hadn't found it yet since he explored a lot.

"I love it." The taller gives him a wide toothy smile as he runs around checking out the games.

The entire room was filled with video games and arcade games. And from how Jungkook's face lit up he knew that the younger would enjoy it.

... maybe too much.

When Jimin finished his work for that day he found Jungkook still in the arcade room playing... overwatch he thinks. "Baby?" he calls.

Jungkook hums not taking his attention away from the screen.

"You wanna go to bed? It's... almost eleven..."

Jungkook hums again mindlessly and stuffs a few cookies into his mouth, crumbs falling onto his lap and littering over his cheeks.

"Baby..." Jimin chuckles and takes a seat next to the boy, whiping his face. "You have crumbs all over."

Suddenly Jungkook's hand on the controller stumbles and he lets out a squeak, followed by an extremely loud unpleasant wail. "Hyung I lost, you made me lose go away." he pouts.

"Aw no my baby~" Jimin takes his hand, still beaming because the younger was cute when he was angry.

"It's not funny..." Jungkook scoots away.

"No, no it isn't, hyung is sorry, do you want me to make it up to you?" Regardless of what he said he was still smiling.

"No..." he mumbles.

"No?" Jimin chuckles now, loudly.

"Stoooooppp-"

Jimin starts to dust the boy's face. "Honey you have cookie crumbs all over your face." he laughs.

Jungkook, still pouting, starts to dust his lap as well.

"I should call you Kookie." the older grins.

Jungkook's lips quirk up a little at the pet name.

"You like that Kookie?" Jimin inches closer. "My little Koo~"

He tackles the younger to lie down and starts to tickle his sides while leaving kisses onto his neck. Jungkook burst out into laughter and tries to weakly push Jimin off, barely even trying.

"Kook my baby boy, Kookie~" Jimin calls and leans in to kiss him.

They kiss comfortably for a while with no rush to take it further, just sweet and raw. "Wanna go to bed?" the younger finally asks.

"I would love to. Come on let me cuddle you to death." He replies, getting up and taking the younger's hand.

It felt more odd than anything. To be so comfortable with someone who's head you wanted a while ago. To be so normal, so serene with anyone at all. As they held each other that night, as he felt the older's breath fan against his neck in deeps sleep, Jungkook stays awake, sleep slowly getting replaced by valid thoughts.

He's dating someone, he likes someone, he is letting himself be with someone. That thought scared him more than he could admit. It didn't hurt or inconvenience him like he had convinced himself. It just made him feel good.

He tucks a strand of hair behind Jimin's ear and places a kiss on his forehead. As a reflex Jimin tightens his hands around the younger's waist and lets out a contented sigh. Jungkook doesn't think he's felt so calm and happy in a long time. The thoughts that haunted him were at the back of his mind now.

"Jiminie? Hyung."

The older hums quietly.

"This feels good."

"Hm?"

"This feels good." he repeats.

It was silent for some time while Jimin processed what Jungkook was saying. "You feel good?"

"Mhm."

"That's great Kookie, I want you to feel good."

Jungkook feels a pang in his heart, he doesn't know why it's hitting him so hard so suddenly but he feels like he needs this. "You do?"

"Of course I do." Jimin opens his eyes with a little bit effort and looks at Jungkook. "Are you okay? What's going on?"

"Nothing I just... I like this, a lot."

"Yeah? Were you thinking about us?"

Jungkook was taken aback on how easily Jimin figured it out. "Mhm."

"And you're okay with this? You're comfortable?"

"More than I've ever been... and it just, it scares me a little..."

Jimin places a kiss onto his cheek. "We're in no rush. Just wanna be here with you, that's all."

Jungkook pulls Jimin impossibly closer and tangles their limbs together. "Me too." he sighs.

This wasn't bad at all. Sure there were still underlying issues he had to figure out but with Jimin he felt like life was slowing down and he had all the time in the world to get adjusted. And while he got there he might as well have some fun on the way.