Distance

8

This chapter is actually pretty special to me because, at the part where I explain the Avenged Sevenfold concert, today is actually the year anniversary to that day..!!! I didn't plan on releasing this chapter on this particular date, but I thought it would be a cool idea to post it today (: Enjoy..!!

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I was extremely happy being single now. I honestly couldn't be any more excited to not have to deal with someone playing with my feelings or talking bullshit to me and breaking my heart. I didn't care if I ever liked anyone; I wouldn't let myself into another rut. Unless of course, maybe if they were actually in person. Then I would try another relationship....But what are the odds of that happening? Yeah. None. That's what.

Though one day, I was on twitter and decided to go to Najwa's profile to look at her tweets since I didn't get them sent to my phone. The very first one I saw said: "Sigh. I wish you were here to sleep next to me....I feel so alone. :(". I immediately knew who she was talking about; her new girlfriend, Jade. For some reason I couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy in my gut. I only liked her as a friend. Right? So why would I be jealous? I had no idea.

By now it was the beginning of September. Najwa and I were talking one morning, and suddenly she messaged me, saying: "I've been grounded again...For longer this time :( REALLY don't know when I'll be back...Byyyye :("

I replied: "Crap. Okay :( Love youuuu!! Bye bye :("

For the next few weeks I lived life as usual, but couldn't help but still be sad that Najwa was grounded yet again. I grew impatient, don't get me wrong, but I'd wait as long as I'd have to in order to talk to her again.

I ended up waiting two whole months.

It was torture, indeed. About a week after she left, I was on my Facebook looking at my newsfeed, and I saw a post from her. My heart jumped at seeing her name, but when I read what the post said, I saw no point in getting too excited.

"Hi. This is Najwa's mother. She's in deep shit, so don't even try to contact her on here, twitter, or by texting her either, or else she'll get in even more trouble. Don't try anything. Trust me."

Hell, what could she have possibly done to cause that sort of thing from her own mother?

Later on, I got so bored out of my mind and lonely for her that I resulted to looking at her facebook pictures, just so I could be reminded of her. She was so gorgeous...With her bright magenta dyed hair and her deep brown eyes...I was really jealous of her, to be honest. I would never in a million years be that pretty.

I also started to look at her tweets even more frequently, hoping each and every day that perhaps there would be a new one.

But as the days went by, there wasn't.

I actually resulted to making it so whenever she does tweet, it gets sent to my phone. That way, I would know as soon as she was back! Smart, aren't I? I thought so.

I talked to my friend Rachel a lot,--one of my "sisters" in my twitter family. I called her "Squeak" and she called me "Squish"--especially on Facebook chat. One time--that I remember very clearly--I brought up Najwa, and how I missed her so. She said she was sorry, but it didn't help any. It didn't bring her back. But for some reason, without thinking, I typed, "You know, I think I love her..." and hit send. When Rachel replied, she was all "Awwe thats so cute :3" and she didn't think that I was actually serious. So I went on about how she's been grounded for about 2 months and how I'm so lonely and bored without her. She seemed to understand then, which I appreciated, and she let me vent. I seemed to blab for at least on hour, desribing all my feelings and what I've been thinking lately, and she listened. Listened and listened and listened....