Distance

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Over the next few weeks we kept talking on a regular basis - most of the time about BVB again or other bands we had a similar interest in such as Falling In Reverse & D.R.U.G.S. We got along so well, it was almost as if we'd been friends for our whole lives. We even thought of nicknames for each other! I was Madame Boner & she was Mistress Eyes. We always joked about how Andy Six's Eyes loves Ash Purdy's Boner, like Andy loved seeing Ashley's boner. I found myself laughing out loud at a lot of her remarks, and she just made me really happy.

One day, Najwa mentioned that she had a girlfriend named Giselle, and that she was bisexual. I didn't think much of it at first, but that it was really cool to know someone that was bisexual since I didn't have any friends or family who were. She said they'd been dating for a few months, and that she was planning on buying Giselle a plane ticket to come visit her. Geez, I wish I could do that! It'd be so much fun... She told me that her mom knew about Giselle, but not that they were dating. I could never let my mother know about my friends that I meet on here! Not that I'd get in trouble, it'd just be....awkward.

I had always thought that I wasn't straight, but not gay - somewhere in between. I never considered being bisexual myself, though I do remember having a crush on one of my female friends in the second grade; her name was Nikki. We did everything together. We partner read chapter books and spent free-time together during school, and we made up songs for a "band" we were going to do eventually during recess. I used to think the crush was just a silly friend thing, and that it would go away after a while. But now that I realize it, I think it was me just trying to deny that I had a crush on her in the first place. Unfortunately after that school year we went our separate ways, and we don't talk at all anymore. I still think she's really pretty, though.

Anyways, Najwa and I thought it would be fun to start up a BVB roleplay since we both were into it big time, and it was a really fun way to pass the time. She decided she was going to be herself, but named "Isis" as well as Andy, and I of course was just going to be Ashley, since I'm always him and play him best. She started it first.

Isis: Hey Ash, let's go do something!!

Ashley: Sure..! We should go to the mall..!! :D

Isis: Okay sweet! Lets gooooo! *gets car keys and runs out door towards my car*

Ashley: Hey, wait up!! *follows close behind her, laughing and climbing into the passanger seat*

Isis: Geez, you're faster than I am!! Haha *gets into drivers seat and starts the car, puling it into reverse and backing out of the driveway*

Ashley: yeah yeah, whatever....xD *turns on the radio, dancing around in my seat*

Isis: Stop it, Ash! You're distracting me!! xD *turns down the radio and drives forward*

Ash: Ugh..!! Party pooper :( *pouts, crossing my arms across my chest*

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The roleplay didn't even last the whole day, if even a few hours. It took a while for the both of us to reply to the other since we were also talking to other people and doing things on our computers. We eventually got totally sidetracked and starting talking about something else, but what about, I don't remember. All I know is that it was sadly much more interesting that how the roleplay ended up. I don't understand why we got so distracted though! We didn't even make it to the mall! We both love to RP and do it with other BVB fans all the time, and they get really intense, so I guess our creative juices just couldn't flow today.

The next day, I decided to tell her a bit more about myself. I told her that I have a physical disability called cerebral palsy, and that I was born four months pre-mature. I was extremely sick when I was born and was the size of a beanie baby; I could fit perfectly in my father's palm and his wedding ring could fit around my wrist. I nearly died three times, but luckily the nurses that I had saved me every single time. The doctors told my parents that if i were to live I would never be able to walk, talk, eat, or do anything on my own.Miraculously I did live, and went home at about 3 months after I was born. But during that three months, I had a surgery on my skull to keep bleeding that was going on in my brain as well as fluid that was building up. They put something in called a shunt, which would drain the fluid down a tube that would go from the actual shunt itself, down my neck and somewhere into my stomach or belly button. This basically saved my life once again, but not without some ugly scars to leave behind on my body. Because of this surgery, I had a nasty scar on my scalp that would later make my hair part in a strange way so it looks like I have a bald spot, and then a scar down from my belly button to the right, when I'm looking down from when the surgeons put the tube down to my belly to drain the unnecessary fluid buildup. I had to use a feeding tube to "eat" because I didn't know how to swallow, but my mom busted her ass off and taught me to swallow all by herself. So thanks to her, I can now eat by myself! Also, I've had over 9 surgeries, one where a surgeon accidentally severed one of my vocal cords because his hands were so big and I was so tiny (this is when I was first born), and now because I only have a single vocal cord, it's a bit hard for me to talk at times. A lot of people say my voice is raspy and really quiet, but it doesn't sound that way in my head at all. I had another when I was nine years old, where my orthopedic surgeon had to snip some nerves in my spine to prevent spasticity in my legs, which caused them to have this sort of thing where my muscles would do these weird jumpy things. Having that surgery meant I would have to relearn how to walk, crawl, kneel, sit up, and practically everything else that had to do with using your legs. I spent six weeks in the hopsital, and that was actually one of the better times of my life. I met so many amazing friends and nurses; I wish I could go back! I've been through a lot in my short 14 years of living, but it's so worth it, and I am more than thankful to be alive....