𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟
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dear twelve year old me,
in second year you are going to lose your chance. you are going to call her one of the worse words you can say to a witch or wizard and you're going to regret it. almost instantly.
you would get mad at yourself for the rest of the year. kicking yourself mentally for saying that word.
because you'd know you ruined your chance. you will damage the little hope you had in yourself, that was good...
she will look at you with great disgust later after that and you will be angry at yourself because of how stupid you were to say that word.
you will see her with many boys the rest of the five years left at hogwarts and let's just say we won't love it. we will be full of rich jealousy and pure anger but it wouldn't change anything because you would've still called her that word and we will regret it for the rest of our life.
so i write this to you, because i know that you will be heartbroken because you will see her face when she hears that word and i just want you to know that she one day will forgive you but it just won't be the same because she will get married and you will lose your chance.
just by calling her that word. oh how much of an idiot we are.
love, seventeen year old you
