I'm Coming Back, Manila

20

"Thank you for inviting us," 

I tapped Jay's shoulder before sitting down on the couch. The party was already starting when we came, kaya halos lahat sila nakainom na, kami magsisimula pa lang. Jay introduced us to his friends, may ibang familiar, siguro nakikita ko sa campus but the rest, hindi ko talaga kilala.

"Drink up! Marami pang lalabas na drinks diyan," Sabi ni Mark, kaibigan ni Jay. Anak siya ng owner ng bar na 'to, how rich.

Uminom l ang kami nang uminom hangga't sa lumipas ang ilang oras, ilang bote na rin ang naubos namin. Medyo nahihilo na 'ko pero ayos pa rin ang kalagayan ko. I looked at the place and It reminds me of Caeleb and I. How me met and how we started. Time flies so fast. I stood up and went to the restroom, after peeing, I saw Jay at the smoking area, sumunod naman ako.

"Uy, ayos ka na?" He looked at me before niyang sindihan ang yosing hawak niya. 

"Medyo," I smiled a bit. "Pero, hindi pa ganon kaayos. Mahal ko 'yong kaibigan mo kaya hindi ko rin naman natitiis."

"Do you smoke? Gusto mo ba?" He handed me the box but I refused it. Hindi naman ako smoker.

"You should quit smoking, Jay." I shook my head before looking away.

Parehas na kaming lasing kaya para na kaming tanga magusap dito. I faced and looked at him while his throwing away his cigarette away. We went inside the bar again, tulog na si Ellie and Zoe. Hindi ko rin alam kung paano sila uuwi. Halos kami, lasing pa lang dito. We decided to finish more bottles of whiskey. This time, ako naman ang babagsak na.

It's already 3am when we finished drinking. Jay decided to bring us home. Una, hinatid namin muna 'yong dalawa bago ako. Inakyat din ako ni Jay sa condo ko dahil hindi na nga ako makatayo nang maayos. Bumagsak ako sa kama ko at nahila ko rin siya. We ended up, he's on the top of me.

I closed my eyes because I'm really dizzy. I felt his lips on mine and I don't know why I responded to his kisses. It was really passionate but not as Caeleb. This is wrong. Mali 'to. Lasing ako. Nasasaktan ako pero hindi naman dapat ito ang iganti ko kay Caeleb diba? Maling mali.

The next day, I woke up at 12 pm, walang maalala. I looked at myself, I don't have clothes or even bra or under wear. Last thing I remember, Jay drive me home. Here. We kissed and.... fuck. Tangina. I'm the worst. I hugged myself and let my tears fall. Hindi ko ginusto 'yong nangyari, pero nangyari na. Parehas kaming lasing. Nakakahiya ako, sobrang nakakahiya. Pakiramdam ko ang dumi dumi ko. 

I stood up and went inside the bathroom to took a bath and clean myself. I decided to wear a black over-sized shirt and a dolphin shorts.  I tied up my hair and did some skincare on my face. I need to be comfortable and act normal, like nothing happened. Ganito naman ako nuon, pero hindi umaabot sa puntong ibibigay ko katawan ko, lalo na ngayon, may boyfriend ako.

"Shit!" The bottle of cleanser slip out on my hand, I panicked when I heard a knock from my main door. Kinuha ko ang cleanser ko at isinara 'to before placing it on its place. I walk towards the door and opened it. "C-Cae," My voice is shaking.