she's got a bad reputation - rini au

chapter 2: thoughts on lunch

For some reason, Nini couldn't handle all the
stares today. Even if she was looking down,
she could feel the eyes of people on her. Even
if she had her headphones on, she could still
hear people whispering about her. Today, she
felt more weak than ever. Usually, she doesn't
care and her confidence is something to
admire. She didn't know why this hit her that
hard. It's been weeks since she cried at
school. Maybe because this time she knew it
was completely false, she wasn't even at the
party. Usually she is not doing what they think
she does, but it's been weeks since she had
been to a party. Madison told her that maybe
she liked the attention and being named in
everyone'slips. Why am I friends with her
again? She asked herself. Right, without her I
only have Kourtney and I don't have the
privilege to unfriend her. If Madison and her
had a fight, she knew her whole situation
would break her. Madison had power over her,
that's why she is still friends with Nini.
Lunch time arrived and as always Nini sat
down in between her only two friends. They
shared the table with Madison's friends. They
were popular, they were right below the
cheerleaders. When Nini was there, they didn't
talk about her or with her. She was almost
invisible, if it wasn't for Kourtney. People
always say that high school is the best part of
our lives. Thinking that this was the best part
scared the hell out of her. She kept playing
with her fries until she looked across the
cafeteria and found a curly hair boy rolling his
eyes at his friends. He has nice eyes. He's
cute, she didn't realize it until now. She shook
her head trying to repress that thought. She
couldn't allow herself to like someone, not
even have a crush. Her mind was a mess but
when that boy looked right at her and they
looked eyes, her mind stopped, and she felt
peace. She smiled at him, as a thank you. He
smiled back and scrunched his nose. She let a
small laugh that Kourtney heard.

"What are you smiling at?" Her friend asked
her with a smirk. Nini looked at her and shook
her head.

"Nothing. Nothing important, I guess." She
looked at the boy again but he was already
talking with his friends. Nothing important.
Lunch ended and the rest of the day did too
pretty much the same as how it started. Not a
good day for Nina. But it didn't come as a
shock. They never are.