Dear Diary || Kai [Revising & Editing]

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Once I stepped into the building, everyone was staring and whispering at me. I never get this much recognition at school, so what the hell is going on? What did I miss something? Suddenly, my phone kept buzzing in my back pocket nonstop. 

Someone send me a link to something. I tapped on the link to see headliners as Kai is secretly dating someone. I kept scrolling down to see some pictures with Kai and some girls. Wait, I am the girl in those pictures. All those pictures were from when Kai and I went to the mall, movies, his house, and when we went to get ice cream. 

"Are you Minsang?" Someone approached me. 

"Yea," I said. Pam, just one hit, she slaps me. 

"Who do you think you are because I am Kai's girlfriend? I think you should know your position before getting your anticipations up, assuming you have a future with him. You and Kai will never be together. This is just a warning next time I won't let you get off the hook easily." She warns me. 

My stern face replaces my smile. Kai has a girlfriend this whole time, but he never told me. I feel stupid like a fool who just got played. Maybe, I was the one who had my expectations that we could be more than just friends. 

"Kai and I are just friends," I explained. 

"No, girl can't just be friends with a guy who is in a relationship," She hissed and walked away. 

I went searching for Kai. I wanted an explanation. Why didn't he tell me in the first place before I got attached? 

I located Kai at his locker, and my heart sunk, and I gulped my saliva. I shouted his name, "Kai!" He turns around and looks at me while I approach him. 

"Your girlfriend just slapped me. Do you want to explain how you never told me that you have a girlfriend? You made my heart fluttered, jump, pound, and run around in circles. You gave me butterflies in my stomach, and you made me happy but made me look like a fool. This is why I am frightened to get attached to you cause I am terrified of getting hurt by you, but you still did it anyway." I exploded and walked away viciously. Not looking back, not even once. 

I was totally done, done with him and his bullshit cause he knew I was afraid of getting attached, but he builds trust with me so that he can break it and make me look stupid. How foolish am I to fall for his sweet words. Kai grasped my arm, but I flinched back quickly. I leaned back and glanced at him, hurt, confused, and a little fearful. 

"I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about my girlfriend, and honestly, I never imagined that I would fall for you. You made my heart flutter as well, particularly when you smile. When I first met you, you were more potent and braver than other girls, and that's what I like about you. You're different, and I feel the same way about you too. I like you, Minsang. Please give me a chance, and I will mend this. Just wait, and I'll be yours." Kai confessed. 

Why did one guy suddenly make everything so complicated? 

~Kai's POV~ 

I felt utterly guilty because I knew how much she was horrified at getting hurt, but I let her down. I went to find Krystal, so I could clear the air and put an end to this. 

"I'm sorry, Krystal. I know what I am about to say will not make you satisfied, and I know you don't want to hear this, but eventually, I have to say it. Let's break up. You taught me that I should listen to my heart, and my heart is saying that I like Minsang, and I want to be with her. I'm sorry that I put you into this mess, but I hope it clarifies the air between us. Also, don't accuse yourself of the breakup. It's me, not you. My heart belongs to someone else." I admit.