Dear Diary || Kai [Revising & Editing]

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I was reflecting on the whole situation of Kai. I always had a thing for Kai, and it just grows bigger and bigger every time I am with him. Maybe, I wasn't supposed to start to have feelings towards him, I wasn't supposed to get this close to him, I wasn't supposed to get involved. I am stuck in the middle. Should I leave Kai or should I forgive him? 

I was taking a walk around the city trying to clear my mind. I was observing couples walking together. I wonder if Kai and I would ever get to that point in life. Maybe, not. I'm such a pathetic fool. As I was walking I felt like someone was following me so I turned around but I saw no one. 

As I kept walking I still had the same feeling that someone was following me. I quickly speed walk and they would quickly speed walk as well. I stopped walking, knowing who was following me. 

"What do you want?" I asked coldly. 

"Can we walk?" Kai asked. I hummed in response. 

"I'm sorry that I didn't tell you that I had a girlfriend and that I hurt you." Kai apologized. I looked him in his eyes I could tell he was genuine about his apology. 

"Sorry isn't enough. You knew that I was afraid of getting attached to you because I was afraid you might hurt me. It felt as if you built my trust for you just so you can knock it down and hurt me." I snapped. 

"I know my sorry isn't enough, but what can I do?" Kai asked and began raining. I didn't budge to move. 

"You could've done so many things differently. Maybe, be honest with me from the jump and you knew I had trust issues, maybe you could have proven me wrong, but you didn't. Things to prevent me from being hurt, Kai." I hissed. "You made me look stupid. Was there a reason for this?" 

"I don't know why I acted like a fool. Maybe, it's because I like you not knowing that I was going to fall in love with you, Minsang. I acted like a fool who didn't know how to express my love to my crush." Kai confessed and he approached me. What is he saying. 

"How am I supposed to believe that?" I asked. Kai didn't say a word, but he grabbed me by the waist and pulled me closer to him. He leaned in and kissed me. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. 

"I love you, Minsang." Kai kissed my forehead, and I hugged him. "How sexy it is to be kissing in the rain." I chuckled, and hit his chest lightly. 

"I love you too, Kai." I smiled. 

"Come on, let's go before we catch a cold." Kai said and held my hands.