Zerrie baby

Chapter 7

LIAMS POV :
I didn't sleep the night she left , I just drank. I drank Intel I couldn't think anymore. I knew drinking wouldn't solve anything , but I didn't know what else to do. Every night I can't sleep without her by my side , sometimes I wake up and think maybe it was a dream. Then the hard truth hits me when ,I turn over waking up to a blank wall. I loved her so much , I thought I'd never go through life without her. Here I am now alone , looking up a the celling fan turn. Every morning & night Nala says is mommy home yet ? I have to put on my best brave face and tell her no. Sometimes she cry's it hurts me to see her like that. She didn't even tell me why she left she just left. She left as if she had nothing , but she did she had me and Nala. What hits me most is Nala she won't have a mom. I still love her and I would probably take her back , if she came running into my arms crying. I know I can't take her back she left us. After we got married everything turned around. We would always fight over things that shouldn't matter. Some nights I would leave and go to a hotel , for the night for space. After Nala was born every fight didn't matter , suddenly all the fights stopped. Then they came back , then she left...... I just want to find her and talk to her , I'm torn between talking to her or never talking to her again. Every night I call her the phone rings and rings but I always get her voicemail. The first night I left messages but now I don't because I know she won't listen. I just want to hold her in my arms but I know it will never be the same.

The phone rang and rang then I herd a filmier voice on the line " Liam hi " " don't you dare pretend like everything's fine when it's not " I said. " you left us you fucking left us and didn't tell us you just left , your so goddamn selfish " I yelled " I know I know I just want to talk to Nala " she said " YOU KNOW Danielle cut the bullshit do you know what you put us through ". " you left us without any waring not even a note and you don't even pick up your damn phone ". " you have a family then you think you can just leave what about your daughter , she's two years old she CRYS every night she asks everyday where you are but I can't tell her Because I don't even know ". " Liam please I'm sorry " , " YOU THINK SORRYS GOING TO WORK SORRY DOESNT CUT IT WHEN YOU LEAVE YOUR FAMILY FOR NO REASON AND DONT EVEN TALK TO US YOUR FUCKING SORRY HEY , I CANT BELIEVE YOU ". My voice got louder " HOW CAN YOU JUST LEAVE AFTER EVERYTHING I LOVED YOU MORE THEN ANYTHING , YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER AND YOU CAN JUST LEAVE I CANT FUCKING STAND THIS." " Liam I - " " JUST DONT EVEN TRY TO APOLOGIZE BECAUSE YOU CANT , BYE DANIELLE " . I had tears running down my face , my heart was beating fast. I became so angry she thinks she can just say sorry I can't take this. She didn't even tell my where she went ,why she just said sorry. " daddy " I small voice said , " why are you crying and yelling " she said. She walked over to me and hugged me , I whipped my cheek " It's okay sweetheart don't worry" I said picking her up. She kissed my cheek " daddy is mommy coming home ?" She said , a lump in my throat formed I couldn't make out my words. " no sweetheart " her eyes got big as she hugged me tighter, and she began to cry. I hugged her tightly and , rocked her back and forth like I use to. I rubbed her back , I wanted to tell her it's okay but I don't even know for myself if it will be. " daddy where did she go ?" She said , " I don't know baby ". I held her tighter to my chest. I needed to talk to someone. " hey baby want to go get ice cream " , she nodded her head as she sucked her thumb. " okay let's go get your coat on sweetie " I said. We went into town for ice cream , which made Nala stop crying which is good I didn't want her cry over this. I called my parents , asking if Nala could sleep over because , I didn't want her to see me cry anymore. " Nala want to sleep at Nannys & papas tonight ?" , " yes please ". I smiled okay let's go home and pack. After dropping Nala off I drove to Zayns because I couldn't be home alone and just cry. I rang the door bell waiting anxiously , to tell him I cracked my fingers as I waited. " hey Liam " Perrie said as she answered the door , " come in come in " she said. " is ZAYN here " I said , " no he ran to the store he will be right back " she said. I " is everything alright " she said with a worried look on her face , I wanted to say I'm fine but instead I found myself breaking down instead. " Liam what's wrong" , she said as she came over to me. " Danielle left me " I said her face lost all expression , then she pulled me in for a hug. " I'm sorry Liam you don't deserve this I'm sorry , I know saying sorry won't help you but that's all I can say " she said with a shaking voice. Fey's loud cry ended our hug as Perrie raced up stairs. I haven't herd a baby's cry in a long time. Perrie carried Fey down In her arms , she was still so small I smiled she had Zayn's big brown eyes. Perrie bounced her up and down and she looked at her smiling. It seems so long ago when Nala was this small. Maybe it would have been easier if Nala was still little so she wouldn't remember her mom. Danielle was such a good mom she was always happiest when she was with Nala. I don't understand why she left if Nala made her so happy. Was so really unhappy the whole time , did I do her any wrong....

FLASH BACK : " hi , hi , hi " Danielle said smiling while, looking into Nalas eyes. Nala just started blankly at Danielle " she's too little to smile " I said " I know but I just want to see her smile " she said tickling Nalas belly. I smiled back I wanted to see her smile too I bet it will just as beautiful as Danielle's. She placed her on her back and blew on her stomach. Making Nalas hands raise up. She was only four weeks old I didn't think Baby's smiled, tell a couple of months but I didn't want to tell her. " come on cutie give me smile " Danielle said. Nala looked just like Danielle the spitting image. " LIAM LIAM LOOK " Danielle screamed , I ran into the living room. " SHES SMILING " she screamed , i looked down at Nala as Danielle ticked her belly I couldn't help but smile. " it's just like your babe " She said. I ran up stairs to Get the camera , I loved seeing my little family happy.

END OF FLASH BACK.

AUTHORS NOTE : hi I feel really bad about not updating I've had family and friends in town. Hope you had a very merry Christmas and a great year💕💕💕 if you want to find out more about Zoe and HARRYS story read my other fanfic called journal pages xxx