Zerrie baby

Chapter 9

Liam Pov : Danielle hasn't called since , we last talked and I haven't called her. The only thought that has been lingering my mind is I have to file for a divorce.... Every time I think about going to file for one. I can't mange myself to do it. I can't let go of her.... I hate that I have to do this i can't look myself in the mirror , and say I don't love her. I love her so much I love her more then I could imagine , but she doesn't love me... I promised myself I would never allow our relationship to come to this point. I promised I would make sure Nala grew up , with two parents living together. Sometimes I can't get out of bed I can't pull myself out of bed but I have to. There are so many days when all I do is cry. I wish she never left I wish I could still wake up beside her, but I can't. No one understands how hard it is to have , someone mean so much to you and not love you back. Someone you gave everything but they left it all. The hardest part of it all is I'm still in love with Danielle...

Today I found myself standing in front of the court office. I stood at front making no movement , just staring at the steps. I started to walk away i couldn't do it. I looked at my feet and Walked back towards the car. " I'm so sorry " a lady said , I looked up at her " Liam " she said. I couldn't recognize her at first I could barely dress myself to be fair. I thought she was a fan I smiled at her then it clicked.
" Sophia " I said shocked , we went to school together , she has done well for herself. " how have you been " she said smiling a warm smile. My smile faded. How do you tell someone you haven't seen in 10 years that your wife left you and you can't pull yourself together anymore but have to wake up each day because you have a 2 year daughter relying on you. " I've been better " I said " I'm sorry " , " so what are you doing at a court house " I said
" Its long story " she said as her smile faded. " what are you doing here " she said " long story " I said " I guess life get pretty complicated " she said " It really does " I say. " I have to go my cars going to get a ticket , but nice chatting with you " she said smiling. " nice to see you too " I said waving good bye. That was the first time in a month I've had a conversation that didn't make me want to break down. It was nice not stressing out or watching every word I say to make sure I don't say to much. I want my life to be like that again , I hate myself for not making it be carefree again. I look up at the big building in front of me. I keep thinking how I never want Nala to feel this way , I finally go into the building.....

After a long emotional couple of hours I walk out of the steps of the court house. Flashing lights blind my eyes. I look down at the ground and walk towards my car. " Liam are you and Danielle calling it quits " , " Liam is Nala being taken away from you " " Liam are you getting a divorce ". Questions being thrown at me I can't handle them I just want to get into my car. I was blocked by a pap " please move your leaning on my car " I say " are you getting a divorce " , " please move " I say " Liam is Danielle done with you , you bastard." " get the fuck out of my way this is my car " I spat. The pap moves and I drive off , don't they have anything better to do anyone better to taunt. They make me so anergy , my little blow up will be all over the news tomorrow. I slam my hand down on the wheel " God dammit why does life have to be so hard " I yell. Signing the papers were so hard I couldn't allow myself to but I had to for Nala"s sake. I guess it's really over , I felt a tear run down my cheek. I whip it away I'm done crying I'm done being this way I need to get my life sorted.

It's been a week since I filed for a divorce. There has been no word from Danielle , She must not care. It almost bothered my how much she didn't care. " Daddy can i watch a film " Nala said sweetly " of course what do you want to watch " I said her forehead furrowed as she scrunched her eyes. " belle " she finally said " okay I will go get it " I said. I went up stairs to my room knowing she watched it last night in my bed. The phone let off loud rings , I let it ring knowing I couldn't leave Nala alone for to long. It went to voice mail " hello Mr. Payne this is Danielle's lawyer you have a court date for November 28 for the custody of Nala Leah Payne. The voice mail ended my mouth dropped she was trying to take Nala away from me. How could she take Nala away from me after she left her. Why does this even make sense I can't believe her. " DADDY " Nala screamed from down stairs. I ran down stairs with the dvd , "found it "I said happily. Nala cheered and smiled she was holding her stuffed bunny close to her chest while she sucked on her thumb and was wrapped in her blanket. I couldn't lose Nala , she's my daughter she means more then the world to me. I sat and watched belle with Nala as Nala sang along and laughed at all the parts she Usually does. After the movie I toke her up stairs and put her down for bed. I went down stairs and cleaned up as I looked Around I saw photos of our family what it used to be. There was a photo on the fire place of me Daniele and Nala Danielle leaning into me and smiling while I held Nala to my chest and she smiled with her eyes closed. I turned the picture over. I needed to get rid of them , there was so many. My cell phone vibrated on the table. I picked it up it was a text from Harry : hi Liam wanted to call but it's late call me when you can. I had to tell someone about the court date , sadly for harry he was the first to know. I dialled Harrys number , I listened to the rings go through. " Hi Liam wait a minute I have to go into another room." , I listen to static on the other end as Harry ran to another room. " hi sorry I was in our room and Zoe fell asleep." " No worries " I said. We talked about stupid things for a good hour or so. " so how's things with Danielle". I could hear the hesitation in his voice. " well harry depends what you want to hear " I said. " tell me straight up " he said sounding concerned. A long pause followed as I tried to explain it. " I got a call from her lawyer saying we have a Court date, for the 28 for the custody of Nala." There was a pause all you could hear was breathing. " Liam I'm so sorry " he said as empathic as you could think of any one to address it. " hang on I will be over there soon." " Harr-y " I said before the line went dead. No longer then 20 minutes later a quite knock hits on the door. Harry wAs at the door ," get dressed were going out tonight." " harry said " I can't if you haven't forgotten Nalas asleep up stairs " I said. " you don't think I thought of that Danica's on her way over with Niall, she will be staying here" He said beaming. " we're told old for this " I said. " Liam your never to old to get drunk over life." He said. " now stop being a stripper and go, put a shirt on and some pants Jezz". " go sit in the couch , and don't make to much noise " I said rolling my eyes. When I came back down there was Louis , Niall , Harry , Zayn and Danica squeezed onto one couch. " I do have more then one couch " I said " we know this is just the first one you see when you walk into the room". Louis said as he shifted over , " Cars here let roll out". " I really don't think it's best to go get drunk " I said. " you don't think we all said that " , Niall said. " but we all know if we really want it here every thing, That is going on you will have to be drunk". He said looking at his shoes as he talked. WE ARE NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT LIFE INTEL WE GET HOME ". Louis yelled " agreed " " agreed " everyone said. " oh by the way I can't get so drunk, I get a hangover I have to take Darcy to school." Everyone looked at Harry , " I really hope you do get one then you will have pay back for being a party pooper"Louis said. We pulled up to a club everyone kinda looked confused Except Harry. "Why the fuck are we at a club" , Niall said confused. " Who has fun at a bar". Harry said jumping out of the car. After a few drink's everything kinda got blurry and full of loud music and colourful light's. Harry got really drunk and couldn't walk properly Niall was trying to carry him but couldn't stand up himself. Zayn was the only one sober enough to lead us out to the car. We drove to Niall's house , as Harry tried to call Zoe but failed , and yelled at his phone telling it to call Zoe. We must have been outside for half an hour , as Niall fumbled his keys into the door. " HONEY IM HOME " Niall yelled " dans not even here you twat. Louis yelled back , Louis was Petting a pillow thinking it was Niall's dog. Intel Zayn toke it away saying Niall didn't own one. Some how we all laid across Nialls living room talking about my life. They all listened well being 3/4 were all drunk. " Liam i know your having it hard right now , but we are always willing to get hungover for you." Niall said pumping his fist in the air. " BROS FOR LIFE " Harry yelled.

A loud alarm went off , " turn that shit off " louis moaned. " God what time is it " Niall said scratching his head. " 6:00 now everyone stop being so loud harry said. " Harry you have to take Darcy to school " Zayn said shaking him. " fucking shit balls " he said getting up. " do I smell like alcohol he yelled" , " mate we can all hear you and yes you do " Louis said. " Fuck I can't bring Darcy to school like this". " I have stuff up stairs hurry and get ready and stop yelling " Niall said. My head pounded as everyone talked. I looked around me and realized , I was spooned next to Niall on the floor. I rolled over and hit my head on the couch , where Louis hand had draped over my head. The phone rang causing us all the wake up. " what the fuckkkkkk " Niall said groaning , he let the phone go to voice mail. " it's 11:00 lazy asses get out of bed ," Harrys voice yelled over the machines. " fuck you harry for talking us into this " Louis yelled. " Louis stop yelling your giving me a headache " Zayn said annoyed. " What even happened last night " I said , last night was blank canvas in my mind I couldn't remember it. " we all went to club and got drunk" , Zayn said " we're told old for this " Niall said. " agreed " we all said , " who's idea even was this " I said. " Harrys " Zayn said " , " I'm going to kill that bastard" Louis said. Niall jumped off the floor and ran to the bathroom , all you could hear was him throwing up. " NIALLS PREGNANT " Louis yelled , " congrats Niall two Baby's " Zayn said. I got up from the floor and went to the kitchen. I looked through Niall's cupboard for hangover pills , I grabbed to capsule and swallowed. " ALWAYS REMEMBER TO SWALLOW " Louis yelled. " HE ALWAYS DOES " Niall yelled from the bathroom. I looked over towards the living room and laughed at it. Five grown men spooned each other , on a living room floor last night. There was pillows all over the floor and , blankets draped over the furniture. " why does it look like a five year had a sleep over" , I said pointing towards the room. Zayn lifted his head and laughed , " Harry and Niall wanted to build a fort" Louis said. I laughed at the mess around the house that was once clean. The phone rang causing Louis to groan again. " hello Horan residents " I said into the phone , " are you five losers up yet " Danica said into the phone " how about you take a guess " I said " well Nala wants to talk to you " she said " Hi daddy good morning did you have a fun sleepover, " she said giggling " yes it was lots of fun I said". " okay miss you and love you " she said into the phone , " love you too love " I said. " tell Niall that he better not have messed up the house again " , she said " no promises " I said hanging up. " I've got to phone Pez " Zayn said as he stretched his arms out , hitting Louis's face. " mate what the fuck it's 6:00 " Louis said " it's 11:30 now get up " Zayn said shacking Louis. Louis got up and held his head , in his hands " owe Fuck I'm not doing that again". An hour later we were all sat at the table , eating eggs and drinking banana milkshakes. " I've got to call el " Louis said standing up , And walking towards the phone. " hello love sorry I didn't call sooner I was feeling poorly " louis said " no I'm not hungover " he said. Niall let out a laugh as Louis punched him in the arm. " Okay love you too " Louis said as he hung up the phone. " it's just like old times before we had kids " Zayn said. It was just like old times , aside from my killer headache I was enjoying myself.

AUTHORS NOTE: HIII I HOPE THIS CHAPTER WAS INTERESTING OR GOOD AT LEST. JUST WANT TO SAY A MASSIVE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SUPER HERO ZAYN MALIK THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME SMILE EVERYDAY LOVE YOU MORE THEN WORDS XXX